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Thoughts of leaving home swirl on her mind, continuously persuading her to give up what is here for the taking. She was never ambitious, always dreaming and has always been walking on air. She has been given a chance to live her life as she wants to with whom she wants to. Her fantasy has just begin and there is no way to turn back now. Life has to move on. 9th June 2003 |
Name: Miss Rahmen
Date of Birth: 18th September
Currently a Film and Media student in Ngee Ann Polytechnic
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| I've started writing poems since the age of nine or somewhat thereof. It seems such a long time ago when I first started scribbling some words and tried to make them rhyme. I stopped doing so after a few short literature classes and disappointingly, I did not have the opportunity to continue. Most of my poems were lost due to a virus attack on my computer and I was not able to retrieve them. What is put up on the poem page is from my previous website and I have made a promise to continue writing again. I took quite a long break from writing poems not due to a lack of inspiration but more because of my hectic schedule. I am trying to juggle my school work, those of discussions and deadline every week to my social life, my relationship which got me starting this website and now my internship at the local museum, Asian Civilisation Museum (Empress Place). I am not too fond of it, I assure you. My posting to their Public affairs department demands my commitment and I am glad I have only another week to go before school starts.The only highlight of working there was having lunch with Mark who work across the bridge. He is working in Maybank Towers, those tall buildings with tinted blue glass windows.It's amazing the time I spent anticipating lunch time and wandering the streets with him looking for a place to eat. He brought me to a couple of places I would perfer not enter otherwise. I have no break between working and schooling and this is really pissing me off but I have no options, do I? (22nd June 2002) |
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It has been hectic these last few days, having to handles personal issues as well as those of school. Assigments are rolling in by the bulk and nothing can account for reasons why I be so mean, why do I open my mouth when I know silence should have been. I heard you received the parcel I sent a few days ago. So, you were celebrating his birthday, huh? Well, good for you, pal! The Trip to Sentosa was relaxing. We went by cable car and it was the first time in a terribly long time that I rode on one. The previous time I did, was I think 14 years ago. Couldnt remember the sensation. All I could recall was the darkness surrounding us as we looked out the window.(16th July 2002) |
| It has been a while since I updated this poor pathetic site. I'll have a few months to go before graduation. Thank goodness, I tell myself and dear goddess. I couldn't stand school for a bit longer. Lets hope these months breeze by and I will finally have some time on my own. I need to catch up on my reading and him whom I adore. My mom has finally accept a new person into my life. I am glad. My heart is full. I trust him with my life and happiness. Maybe the day will come and our plans follow thru. (3rd Feb 2003) |
| Time keep on moving despite hardship everyone suffers. The war has ended but blood is still spilling among the innocents fighting for their survival. School ended 3 weeks back and the results are out. I passed. There will be a graduating ceremony soon though I don't know when. I am tapping my feet waiting for my future to happen. I don't have the key. (9th June 2003) |
To think about (Erich): One of the greatest diseases of the soul is loneliness. Loneliness equals no motion, and no motion equals no sound. A soul personality cannot create and be creative unless it (the soul) has a body. The minute a soul takes a body, it ceases to experience its former existence. This is because one of the abilities of the soul personality is that it is always becoming something. The problems in our present time are really no different than the problem. You're beautiful that's for sure, your lovely but it's not for this world.
| Reading List |
| I am reading a book by Tiziano Terzani titled 'A Fortune-Teller Told Me' at the moment. I should have started it earlier since I am obligated to return to Markie but I am getting there, relishing it page by page. It's a book on an Italian Journalist who had an unexpected encounter with a chinese fortune teller who predicted an unfortunate outcome for him if he decided to fly at a given year. Since then, it seemed he had a fetish for fortune tellers, visiting them on evey Asian stop and searching for the best fortune-teller around the vicinity. | |
| . | At the moment, I am reading 'The Coming Anarchy' by Robert D. Kaplan who is the author of 'Balkan Ghosts' and 'Soldiers of God: with the Mujahidin in Afghanistan'. I'm curious about the direction this world of ours is heading towards. The caption said that it was the end of the cold war and crushed dreams. The shattering dreams billions of individuals had to suffer when the system they thought would work, this idealogical system some smart alec created, was destroyed. I've just started about a few days ago. (2nd July 2002) |
| I've been working on a screenplay and reading the book, 'Crafting Short Screenplays that Connect' by Claudia Hunter Johnson helps quite a lot. Im terrible at formatting but I guess it's about time I learn how to. (16th July 2002) | |
| Finally, I found these series of books Ive been searching for long. These books were the first fantasy books I read concerning witches and magick. I could remember myself at 10, lying in bed and reading till mother insisted that I sleep or she'll trash those books. L.J. Smith - The Secret Circle Trilogy.(The Initiation, The Captive and The Powers) Been reading them these 2 days and Im done. (6th August 2002) | |
| Philip Pullman is one of my favourite author andsomeone to keep an eye on. He has successfully create entirely different worlds oscillating and spinning besides one anotheras. I devour his trilogy like a starving wolf. The first is called 'Northern Lights' which if I am correct is called by another name as well. I dont understand why he changed the title. Obviously he has his reasons. The second is 'Subtle Knife' and the third is 'Amber Spyglass'. He juggled science fiction, fantasy as well as religion quite brilliantly. This trilogy will surely be read time again. | |
| Found this book 'For better, For Worse' by Carole Matthews at a bargain bookstore near home. Being me and my fetish of buying books obviously grab a few. I got attracted by the flashy lime cover and the hilarious pitch. Reading it was a joy and easy too. It got me addicted that i had much difficulty putting it down and getting on with my daily chores. In Fact, I stayed up too late and woke up to late wasted reading this. The protagonist, and there are two found one another on the trip to New York from England. One was a lady with a bastard ex-husband and another is a rock journalist who is a compulsive liar. Chemistry between both led to a wild goose chase, literally that kept me giggling like a lil school girl. . | |
| Bought 'Half in Love' by Justin Cartwright from the bargain bookstore too since they were having some promotion with love novel. That was what I read from the board though I could be mistaken. I do have a memory of a goldfish. Don't fret as it isnt those Mills and Boons mushy type that make the ladies go wet and the guys go blah! and switch on the telly. He was a politician who was stabbed at a football match, she was an actress with a scriptwriter husband and they had an affair that was blown out of propotion on England respectable paper. It had a predictable ending, very much anti-climax but I have always been a sucker for happy endings. Did I say too much? |
Gallery consists of pictures taken which are of significant value to me. Memories will linger even after time consumes the qualities of these. I thank you for those memories we shared. To relive them with vividness again would be possible.