14th July 2002
I couldnt understand why you had to message him, calling him names that somehow ripped his confused heart. What makes you do it, I wouldnt never know. It didnt matter to you somehow that I disagree the commotion you created at ADF. Did you see how she cried when hurting him means hurting her as well. He's trying to accept it in his own ways and somehow I respect that. Now that you are in the spot, I guess you feel it liked I felt it the evening it happend. Why couldnt you keep it clean and break it at honesty point without dragging people involved? You have a habit of pulling people into the mess when all it takes are for 2 individuals to settle.
The name calling wouldnt do much good. Have you told her that? It is hard for people to understand, somehow accept situations. A few would take days or sometimes months... its hard to let go. Why bother trying, I wonder, when after years of trying, the whole situation doesnt improve. In fact, it seems as though you're only pressuring both him and her. I mean that's how I view it. If it doesnt work out, pack your bags and leave. No point having children. If say, you think a child or two might seal the marriage, you're totally wrong. How many marriage have ended in divorce.. I've lost count. Go figure it out yourself. Say if you partner confessed of loving someone else, would you beg him to differ? You know his heart is longing for another and yet you want him to stay. Is it for convenient sake? Just an institution for the kids? Isnt that a trap for him to go continue with his old routine? Ask him, I say. Why dont you ask what he had been doing years back? Maybe, if you're lucky, you might get an honest answer from him. Burning t-shirts, snipping clothes doesnt solve the issue. What you did, honestly, seems silly to me. Get off that high horse of yours and try to understand. I know he's getting a tat too annoying sometimes but arent we only human. The worst confession made was how you spined a web trapping him in. He didnt want to and doesnt want to end up with you in the first place ( how many years was that, oh goodness) Go Figure!