My Day.... My Rant

January 19, 1998

This weekend was fairly boring... I was in a down sort of mood, so I didn't do much but websurf and play Creatures. I should have done some of my homework, but I didn't. Fortunately, when I checked my class schedule, we only have 2 chapters this week. I got through the second of last week's three today, and I think I can make it through three this week, if I do a little each day.

I also managed to get a bit of my other website updated, adding the GeoGuide, clearing out outdated links (there were several to Jevim's pages that he'd had at one time or another -- the one at GeoCities now belongs to someone else, so I was definitely anxious to change that), and removing some people from my Friends page who no longer fit that category. I still have a good deal of updating and GeoGuide-adding to do, but I did make a start on it. Tomorrow, I'll get these pages published and uploaded, and then if I have time after doing some C++ work... we'll see. Mom wants to go up and visit her other aunt tomorrow... only an hour or so drive, so as long as she doesn't try to drag me out before I'm ready to go (Jevim doesn't have classes til 11), I'll go.

I watched Jeopardy, the NBC Nightly News, and Babylon 5 tonight, and got about 5 more rows done on Jevim's afghan while I did... If I can keep that up, I'll definitely have it done when he comes in March. Oh, and he said he got his security deposit back from the apartment (plus interest!) and is waiting on the paperwork from the rental truck company so he can get his reimbursement there, and then he'll have the money for a plane ticket! *bounce* *bounce* Mom is already counting the days until she goes out to California (19 now), so I'll probably start counting the days until Spring Break, soon.

Emma has been really pressing her luck in her friendship with Jevim lately... he finally got fed up with it the other night when she dragged him out of his dorm room to help some friend of hers with his computer, and hardly even bothered to thank him. She's only been coming around when she wants something, and it seems he's finally had enough.

In a way, I'm glad. I've seen the kind of person Emma can be: first with me, then with Connie, and all along she's been rough on Jevim. When Connie and I were visiting them last April, she threatened to leave him behind at a fast food place when we had stopped for breakfast when Emma was driving us back to the airport. He got mad and leaned against her car and wasn't going to move (so she wouldn't leave without him), and she started screaming bloody murder at him about touching her car.

I finally got sick of her crap (she had been the same way when they came to visit us over Spring break) and I screamed at her. I think I shocked all three of them, and Emma finally straightened up for the rest of the trip. I was shaking for a while afterward, once we were back in the car, and I seem to remember Jevim just taking my hand and squeezing it tight. I don't get angry often, and I don't get angry enough to blow my fuse unless something is really upsetting me. The way Emma treated Jevim was more than enough.

But, apparently they have had some good frienship time together too, and even though Jevim might not admit it, I think I'm a big reason why their friendship has fallen apart. I haven't liked her since she dumped me for Connie (did I mention I'm bi? I hardly look at other women these days, but if it weren't for Jevim, I might still be looking), then later told Jevim (or maybe it was Connie) that she was just leading me on at the time.

Anyway, I haven't liked Emma for a long time, and Jevim and I had some confrontations and emotional discussions over that. He kept trying to get me to "make the first move" to be friends with her again, and I would point out that I had tried, without his asking. I had sent her a birthday present I'd picked out for her, and she never said a word; no thanks, not that she'd gotten it (which I found out from Connie that she had), or anything. When pressed, Jevim told me Emma thought I only did it to make him happy. That had nothing to do with it at the time, and the suggestion only made me more upset with her.

I would not make any further overtures, and Jevim was upset because he felt torn between us. I told him that I didn't mind if he spent time with her, I just didn't like her and didn't want to be around her. He finally gave in, I suppose, because he stopped mentioning it to me. By that time, she was treating Connie like crap, and I had no intentions of being friendly to her anymore. She was also treating Jevim like she is now -- only paying any attention to him when she wanted something from him, and that didn't incline me toward being nice.

Am I being a little witch? *chuckle* Well.... I'm sorry, but her personality and mine don't mix. I'm sorry that Jevim has lost a close friend, but I'm glad that he's realized what she's doing to him and has decided to take a stand against it.

Unfortunately, he feels that the only way to really end the friendship (what he seems to want) is for them to have a big blowup, so she'll stop coming around and asking for favors; he can be very bad about saying no, by his own admission. I guess only time will tell.

I hope it doesn't come to the blowup, but I know Emma will keep pestering him... she still calls Connie fairly frequenly, from what I have gathered, and tells her all the things she (Connie) did wrong in their relationship. Excuse me, but who went to bed with another woman? Who started yet another LDR while telling Connie that nothing was going on... I suppose everything would have been fine with her if Connie had found some cute little redhead to sleep with while Emma couldn't be with her? Yeah, right!

Okay, I'm done now... I feel better. Goodnight!

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