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Jill of All TradesFriday, May 8, 5:35pmWouldn't you know it? I decided to go see if I could hunt down some sort of "Featured Page" image for the awards page I've been slowly working on, when I stumbled across this: "GeoCities is discontinuing the Featured Page Program in favor of the Best of GeoCities. The procedures for Best of GeoCities will be completely different than the Featured Page procedures. Because of this, we are no longer accepting Featured Page applications." Ever had one of those days? *rueful chuckle* I wonder if this means that pages that are already featured have to jump through all the hoops to become Best of Geocities, or if they will remain Featured Pages. I guess it doesn't matter all that much; I've had a nice bit of publicity by becoming a featured page, but if that's what my journal was all about, I'd say that I was doing it for the wrong reasons. I'm not here to get awards... if I were, I'd be submitting my site for every award that I thought I'd have a hope for. *sigh* I just loaded the Wellesley Community Center home page, only to be greeted by an autoplaying MIDI. What fun! You'd think Community Leaders would know better! Ah, well... that's what the volume controls are for, right?  Well, it's now 9:13 in the evening. Connie's been gone since about a quarter to five. I cleaned up the kitchen again, and Jevim called as I was finishing up. We talked, and he told me he'd mentioned the M word to his mother, as in Marriage. She asked if he'd proposed to me yet, and he said something to me about her getting wound up to plan a small wedding, her idea of a small wedding being about 500 guests. ACK! I do hope he was kidding. He said in the end something about telling her that was why we were just going to elope, and she said she'd let us do our thing. We'll see. I just can't see myself in some fancy white gown, y'know? I've been thinking, it's about time for my journal to undergo a little revision... it's been up for nearly eight months, and I feel that it's time for a change. I feel more stable in my relationship with Jev than I did when this all began; we've been through quite a bit in these past seven months, and I think his mentioning marriage to his mom is kinda like the final cement on this dream we've been building. It's going to happen... of that, I have no doubt, and I believe Jev feels the same way. But, as I said in my entry yesterday, even when the 'I Do's have been said, it still doesn't give me any definition for myself. I think it's time for me to discover myself. Yes, someday soon, I'll be Jevim's wife, but I want to be known for who I am, too. Am I web designer? Could be... Graphic artist? Maybe... Writer? Probably the one I'm best at.... Programmer? If I can buckle down and work at it, maybe one day. I've said to Jevim before, I'm sort of a Jill of All Trades, but that gets me nowhere. I'm a Jill who gets distracted far too easily, and is bad about finishing what she starts, and that needs to change. I need to find something that truly makes me happy, and practice that until I am very good at it and can make a name at it, even if it's not on the best seller list. The problem is, there are so many things I enjoy doing! If I had my way, I'd probably write fantasy novels about cross stitchers, complete with design charts in the novel, who have their own web sites, and also publish their own cross stitch design software. Yeah, right! *chuckle* Yes, I'm being a bit silly. Honestly, though... I need to find my little niche, among other things. So... yes, I think it's time for some changes, and maybe a new name for the journal. Oh, I'll still call the site Lisana's Life, but I do have a couple ideas up my sleeve. || Home | Journal Index ||
 
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