October, 1997
Being apart from Jevim makes for sad days. Especially hard can be holidays, and special days like birthdays and anniversaries when we can't be together. I was lucky enough to get to spend my last birthday with Jevim. He had to work that day, but afterward, we went out to dinner, and then came home and ... *ahem* celebrated a bit... *wink*
But the holidays are coming, and I doubt if we'll spend many of them, if any, together. If things work out well, I may be able to spend Thanksgiving with him, but he's got to be getting packed up and ready to move back to school right around Christmas and New Year's and so we probably won't see each other then, and it might even be rather difficult to meet up online, since his computer won't be set up. *sigh*
We made it through last year, though, and I think we can make it again, even if it does leave us a little frayed around the edges. Hopefully I'll be able to bring him out here for part of Spring break so we can be together, and he can see where I live, and what I normally do during the day.
Even regular days can be sad, missing-him days though... wishing we could be walking through a mall together, or holding hands at the movies... remembering the way he laughs when I tickle him, or the way he smiles when something makes him happy. Sometimes I curl up in bed with the teddybear he gave me, holding it tight, and just wishing I were there with him, especially when I know he's having a rough time for some reason and I can't be there to help.
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