Kraftlos Mond

11-19-98 12:30am
LAMENT

I am a man,
Alone and cold
My body is young,
But my mind is old

I have felt,
Years of pain
Drowning in floods,
Of constant rain

Playing with fire,
I’m always burned
The love I give,
Is never returned

I walk into love,
Then try to hide
The things I feel,
So deep inside

This always happens,
The same old shit
Leaving me alone,
In this fucking pit

I cannot be,
More than I am
I am just,
A lonely man

11/24/98 10:40PM
TESTS OF TIME

A year goes by and we forget,
All the bitter tears we wept
A year goes by and we remember,
All the good times we had together

The hands of time pass us by,
Traveling beneath an endless sky
The hands of time push us on,
Like soft melodies of rhyme and song

The winds of life hold our hands,
Leading us through beautiful, unexplored lands
The winds of life fly like a dove,
Teaching us how to love

The rains of pain beat our hearts,
Always trying to break them apart
The rains of pain beat our souls,
Always together, we are whole

Seas of change carry us away,
Dragging us from this night to the next day
Seas of change bear our regrets,
Teaching us how to forget

Like whispers speaking voices of fate,
We try to listen, but hear too late
Like whispers speaking voices of fear,
Telling us what we want to hear

Flowers of love grow and die,
Cleansing floods of tears we cry
Flowers of love grow and thrive,
Teaching us what it means to be alive

The new day breaks and we look around,
Rising slowly from the ground
The new day breaks and we move on,
Living each day as it comes

Tides of death tie our hands,
Pulling slowly at the sands
Tides of death bring us home,
Empty houses, we are all alone

12-2-98 7:45pm
MACHINES OF DESTRUCTION

Big kick piston, firin’ like a gun,
keep ‘em on the run,
shitty, shitty, bang, bang,
hot lava fallin’ from fire clouds, like rain,
filling oceans of pain, livin’ fast, dyin’ slow,
hot lead in my head, hold my hand, let me go
Scratchin’ nails on the rails,
loco trains, eat the brains,
smash the head, make ‘em dead
Lift your eyes to the skies, realize,
the angel dies, hear my cries,
feed the flies, when you die
When you're dead,
worms crawl, in your head,
lyin’ in the killing bed 
Curl your fingers round the blade, razor blaze,
make a fist, slit the wrist,
watch it flow, drink it slow
Got my back against the wall,
fuck ‘em all, watch ‘em fall
Add fire to the fuel,
kick ‘em like a mule, fuckin’ fools 
Ridin’ monkeys, backs of junkies,
watch it fade, in the shade,
dig a grave, whip the slave,
take your turn, watch it burn, fill the urn,
laughing clowns, freedom drowns,
suck it down, wear the crown
Crown of thorns, demon’s horns,
ripped and torn
Fill the cup, drink it up,
live it up, give it up, fuck it up,
live it down, look around,
in the ground, silent sound
Pull the trigger, growing bigger
Pull the switch, electric bitch,
fuckin’ snitch, nervous twitch
Build a fire, burn the liar,
beating hearts, body parts,
drying blood, raging flood,
creeping death, final breath,
see the Reaper, falling deeper,
useless tools, broken rules,
live in sin, never win