music rings within my mind
unlocking precious tears
unlocking all the memories
unlocking all my fears

dreams ring within my mind
filling me with pain
taking all the good
so only hurt remains

lies ring within my mind
angers births my soul
feelings turn to hatred
and longings dig a hole

fears ring within my mind
bringing back the past
opening all my wounds
and so i cry at last

screams ring within my mind
covering little lies
filling endless wounds
closing bloodshot eyes

voices ring within my mind
bringing me a cure
killing all the mem'ries
that made me so unpure

cries ring within my mind
as my body pounds
bringing me my heaven
in these precious sounds

colors ring within my mind
you brought me to this hell
regrets you put inside me
rip me from my shell

pains ring within my mind
as i gently slip away
hiding from the horrors 
in the words you say

nothing's heard within my mind
no sounds within my heart
the doctors took it from me
in tiny, little parts

the silence screams within my mind
crying for a friend
leading me from heaven
to a deadly end

the music made me happy
your terrors brought me hell
screaming for the answers
and reasons why i fell

falling from the raptures
of precious little lies
dying in the embers 
of your dark brown eyes

ling'ring highs remind my eyes
of just why i quit
endless dreams filled with screams
and i feel like shit
those little pills can never fill
the hole so deep inside
i run all day from things you say
but i can never hide
my body's gone as my life is drawn
from this worthless heap
i now see this portrait of me
in this troubled sleep
sense left my words, only mumbles heard
in these deafened ears
i hide from life behind this knife
and no one ever hears
my body, detached, yet pain still latched
onto burning minds
this sleepless slumber makes me blunder
and pain is all i find
my mind now floods with precious blood
running from my eyes
the high pills give, makes me live
through forgotten lies

-written while regretting stupid actions
May 05, 1998 20:34 CST

Thinking of you
so many times a day
Thinking of you
but you turn away

Waiting for you
through heaven and hell
Waiting for you
cast under spell

Living for you
can you hear me cry?
Living for you
but longing to die

Crying for you
what a pitiful sight
Crying for you
throughout every night

Screaming for you
my mind's a blaze
Screaming for you
my soul, a haze

Lying to you
about a broken heart
Lying to you
with pain, i cannot part

Looking at you
a shattered window here
Looking at you
behind a silent tear

Pleading with you
just set me free
Pleading with you
for you hold the key

Dying for you
because you said no
Dying for you
you won't let me go

Thinking of you
so many times a day
bleeding for you
but you turn away....