why must i fall for you to love me?
why must the tears rip at my cheeks,
for a smile upon my sorrow?
why is it not enough,
just for me to live?
no hurt,
no pain,
no anger.
why?

the bluest eyes pass over me,
because i have no tears.
the gentlest face won't turn my way,
because i have no charm.
i live for nothing, and everything
and still, it's not enough.
i stumble every moment of the day,
but still, my world is silent.
why?

the wounds of my heart cry out,
but you are deaf
because i cry no tears.
my voice is broken,
my soul is torn
but you are blind
because i have no words.
i am alone in this chaos
and still you don't look,
still you don't care.
why?

why must i give up everything
to receive nothing?
why is the world so silent when i scream?
i can't even hear the echoes fade into forever.
why must i grieve in daylight
to be known?
a thousands tears wouldn't break the walls
and still you insist.
why?

why must i die to live with you?

last night, i killed a man
we lay him down, unaware
and butchered the spirit
we had nurtured.
are we civilized yet?

two nights ago, a child was raped
we watched her scream, terrified
and we let them steal
the innocence we gave her.
are we civilized yet?

yesterday, a heart was broken
we tore it piece by piece
and bathed in the blood
that we spilled.
are we civilized yet?

today I watched you
slit the wrists of your future
life poured out before us
and all we did was giggle.
Am I civilized yet?

Tonight you'll help me die.
i'll tear away the chains of life
and you'll open the door
to push me out.
we'll rape, we'll kill, we'll die.
At last, we'll be civilized.

why do we cry in the sunlight
only to hide our tears at night?
so many words given, returned
and stolen...
yet they mean nothing.
We look to the sky to find an answer.
the fading clouds, the rising sun,
do they truly hold the key?
their words, like a band-aid
upon a broken heart.
a quick fix with tears seeping through.

each unto their own,
torn souls, broken trust.
I look to the world
for the hope I cannot conceive.
Faith in many because alone
I am broken.
We all fall to this.
Independence in our servility
yet blind to the needs.
No hope, no faith, no life
because we chose to die.

sinking visions as we search on
so grey, so silent
this world which we create.
why is it that we chose such desolation?
If the eyes of a dead child
aren't enough to change us,
What is?

We cry in the sunlight
because we cannot bear the truth
of what we have become.
Our tears, our lies, our hope.
All lost because
we speak, but do not act.
because we fight, but do no love.
because we jump,
but cannot fly.

We fall, we plummet, we dive
only to find
that despair has no bottom
because our hate
has no end.