"The Happiest Day"

The happiest day -- the happiest hour
  My sear'd and blighted heart hath known,
The highest hope of pride and power,
  I feel hath flown.

Of power! said I? yes! such I ween;
  But they have vanish'd long, alas!
The visions of my youth have been-
  But let them pass.

And, pride, what have I now with thee?
  Another brow may even inherit
The venom thou hast pour'd on me
  Be still, my spirit!

The happiest day -- the happiest hour
  Mine eyes shall see -- have ever seen,
The brightest glance of pride and power,
  I feel- have been:

But were that hope of pride and power
  Now offer'd with the pain
Even then I felt -- that brightest hour
  I would not live again:

For on its wing was dark alloy,
  And, as it flutter'd -- fell
An essence -- powerful to destroy
  A soul that knew it well.

For Annie

Thank Heaven! the crisis-
  The danger is past,
And the lingering illness
  Is over at last-
And the fever called "Living"
  Is conquered at last.

Sadly, I know
  I am shorn of my strength,
And no muscle I move
  As I lie at full length-
But no matter!-I feel
  I am better at length.

And I rest so composedly,
  Now, in my bed
That any beholder
  Might fancy me dead-
Might start at beholding me,
  Thinking me dead.

The moaning and groaning,
  The sighing and sobbing,
Are quieted now,
  With that horrible throbbing
At heart:- ah, that horrible,
  Horrible throbbing!

The sickness- the nausea-
  The pitiless pain-
Have ceased, with the fever
  That maddened my brain-
With the fever called "Living"
  That burned in my brain.

And oh! of all tortures
  That torture the worst
Has abated- the terrible
  Torture of thirst
For the naphthaline river
  Of Passion accurst:-
I have drunk of a water
  That quenches all thirst:-

Of a water that flows,
  With a lullaby sound,
From a spring but a very few
  Feet under ground-
From a cavern not very far
  Down under ground.

And ah! let it never
  Be foolishly said
That my room it is gloomy
  And narrow my bed;
For man never slept
  In a different bed-
And, to sleep, you must slumber
  In just such a bed.

My tantalized spirit
  Here blandly reposes,
Forgetting, or never
  Regretting its roses-
Its old agitations
  Of myrtles and roses:

For now, while so quietly
  Lying, it fancies
A holier odor
  About it, of pansies-
A rosemary odor,
  Commingled with pansies-
With rue and the beautiful
  Puritan pansies.

And so it lies happily,
  Bathing in many
A dream of the truth
  And the beauty of Annie-
Drowned in a bath
  Of the tresses of Annie.

She tenderly kissed me,
  She fondly caressed,
And then I fell gently
  To sleep on her breast-
Deeply to sleep
  From the heaven of her breast.

When the light was extinguished,
  She covered me warm,
And she prayed to the angels
  To keep me from harm-
To the queen of the angels
  To shield me from harm.

And I lie so composedly,
  Now, in my bed,
(Knowing her love)
  That you fancy me dead-
And I rest so contentedly,
  Now, in my bed,
(With her love at my breast)
  That you fancy me dead-
That you shudder to look at me,
  Thinking me dead.

But my heart it is brighter
  Than all of the many
Stars in the sky,
  For it sparkles with Annie-
It glows with the light
  Of the love of my Annie-
With the thought of the light
  Of the eyes of my Annie.

To F--s S. O--d

Thou wouldst be loved?- then let thy heart
  From its present pathway part not!
Being everything which now thou art,
  Be nothing which thou art not.
So with the world thy gentle ways,
  Thy grace, thy more than beauty,
Shall be an endless theme of praise,
  And love- a simple duty.