is not looking back. don't worry. someday i will forget.
(8:42pm EST) 10/18/99
"it's funny funny how we seem to end up here. i never thought i'd see his soul disappear...."
well... i completely blew up at bryan last night. and ignored him completely today. the only thing i did that actually required me to acknowledge his presence was i asked him if he was going to be home.. i felt bad about ignoring him and i was going to call him. i got home... and he was online.. so i talked to him there... and it proved worthless. i have no more ambition to bother. i'm getting over it. i know he didn't do it intentionally... but he's been hurting me(indirectly) for a year now... and i can't take the crying anymore. he doesn't seem to understand how i don't want to be his friend. but see... now that i think about it. i was really never a true friend.... platonically speaking. anytime that he's been in my life, i've liked him... my feelings for him have always been the same... just hiding... and i wish that he'd just understand why i can't be his friend right now. ::sigh::
