well.. hm. some interesting things happened last night...
bryan said this....
"the last thing i want to do is put you through any more shit so don't read anything into anything i say here. i have to say i sorta regret it all. maybe i missed out on a great thing."
so that was basically my whole goal. to get some sign that he shows regret in what has happened...
but last night, we were talking... and the conversation boiled down to this....
Him: ok here... so, we just started talking again, right? (assuming this isn't a temporary thing)
Me: yah
Him: ok..so... how i see it is, we just go with the flow, let whatever happen on its own and, if something happens, then it happens...
Him: right? i mean if you think about stuff and worry, etc, everything goes haywire and we end up like, you know.. right...
Me: yeah.
Him: i hope that makes sense
Me: yeah, it does...
i'm not going to put the whole conversation on this page.. because i feel bad enough putting that on here... so, i'm pretty much confused as to what state of being we're in right now. i mean... i think the feelings are coming back.. but i dont' know if i should embrace them... or if i should ignore them. i don't know.. i mean.. i still like him, i think... i just dont' know what to do. i just keep imagining us together everywhere.. god... i'm so screwed up... i'm so confused.... aggggh.
