okay. so i'm tired of calling him lust object.. because he's so much more than that. his name's james... and he asked me to his junior prom.. and i know it sounds kinda loser-ish on my part... but i've never been actually asked to a dance before.. and it feels even better coming from him. if you've read previous entries.. you know how much i love slow dancing.. and when you take out the music and the other couples.. it's just two people swaying around.. just being silent.. and knowing that the person who they're touching makes them feel content.. even if you're just dancing with a friend... and content is definitely a good thing.
i want him to tell me corny things when he sees me walk down the staris in my dress... with my hair done up.. and nails polished... heh.. and my 5 inch heels.. ;) i want him to tell me something like "you look so beautiful... but that's not unusual." heh... sorry.. i'm corny.. i know it.. i know it.
blah...
i don't know what's going on with us.. i mean... he must like me if he asks me to his prom.. took him a while though.. the prom's in a few days.. i'd be mad if i didn't already kinda assume that he was going to ask me.. and get a dress and shoes and all...
i'm not exactly fond of the whole committment thing.. ever since the whole bryan fiasco... i've kinda not trusted the male gender much.. but it's different when im' with james.. nothing else matters... dont' care what i'm doing.. where i'm going... just that i'm with him...
i wouldn't mind being his "girlfriend". i just wish that he didn't have to work so much... but it's like a test, i guess... if things can grow and survive... then maybe there's a chance.. .i sure hope that there's a chance for us...
i'm falling in "like"....
dunno if it's love yet.... dunno if i know what love is yet.
