and i already feel the oblivion creeping up on me.
(3:16am EST) 8/2/00
blah.
damn... fuck july, i guess.
oh well.. a month has gone by and i've yet to update this forsaken page.
big loss.
the month of july has been filled with many events. friends betraying me. work... drunkenness...parties... new guys...lost hopes...
and even more shit that i don't care to talk about.
so i'll end this entry with a shitty writing that i just made..
barely august.
it's barely august.
and already i can feel it.
i'm leaving this place.
flying far away
to a place that is new
a place that is numb
a new home where the heart isn't
and i'll be alone
and i'll have to grow strong
and i'll have to do it alone
because there, i wont' have anyone
in the next few days i'll be old
i'll age in seconds
and you won't recognize me
when i return to this place
because i'll wear a new face
a face that is calloused
a face that is used to the pain
of leaving everything behind
and then having to come back to it later
pain that only comes from failure
and a pain that never leaves
it will stay with me always
and i'll continue to grow
moving farther into my blackened oblivion
so far that you won't notice me
and i'll fade from your memory.
