10/20/97 Just a normal Monday. God. I think today was the most boring day of my life. I woke up late because I didn't get any sleep last night. Well, unless you count from 2am to 5am. Three hours. Whoopty Doo! Today we had a fire drill during French class. This girl Ketsia brought in pictures...I thought it'd be cool cause I was in some of them...but I looked at them and I dunno if she's crazy or overly obsessed with herself...but there were pictures of her topless. haha! I told Mr. Vogt(my french teacher) to look at them, but he said he'd look later.
Anyways, I was walking back to class after the bell rang signalling the fire drill over, I walked up to Nina(this senior that used to play soccer) and Adam(this drama club senior guy). I told them about the mishap with the pictures and that they should really see them...they're quite entertaining! And Adam was like, "I don't think I want to see them!". I just laughed. Then something happened and I ended up getting slapped in the ass by him! It came by surprise so I was like...Huh!?! Then I retaliated and kicked him in the shin. When we got back into the classroom, he passed my desk and I tripped him while Jean(a french class bud) pulled down his pants! I have no idea where she got the idea to pull down his pants. But the harder she tugged the more she realized that they weren't coming off. Adam was laughing and yelling "I'm being molested!". It was funny as hell.
Hmmm The rest of the day was pretty crappy. Before history class began, I was in the room with Sammy. I picked up the little globe and stuck it in the window. It was too big to fit out so it didn't fall. Mrs. Petrilla came in and was telling this girl Amanda to take the globe out of the window. I guess she thought it was the Study Hall the previous period.
I didn't see Ben today. Oh well. I am truly trying to get over him but the more I try the more I fail. I mean, I can see him all the time, and still be totally in love with him, and then I can't see him all day, and crave to see him more often! I think I'm going crazy. Jules saw Puffy hair girl. She "accidentally" bumped into her. Heh. That was pretty funny.
I, along with others, found out that Nick liked Jules as "more than a friend". He's labelled me his "Spy". I'm supposed to find out things for him...but Um...I haven't done anything to help him...I dunno why he thought I would. I don't know anything about it myself. Nick is a really nice guy, it's just that Jules still sorta lusts after Cole in a way and Nick is too good of a friend. But what I think is that if Nick was willing to risk going out with her...I guess the friendship wasn't too important to him. Does that sounds stupid? Cause everytime I see a guy friend ask one of his girl friends out, the girl usually says "no" and they never speak to each other again because it'd be too awkward. That's what it's gonna be between me and Ben now, I bet.
On another note, we played our lifelong rivals today in girls JV soccer. We lost. But we only lost because our really good goalie was taken away by the damn varsity team. Grr. That pisses me off. We could have won if it weren't for the fact that Joan and Becky aren't too good in goal. And Mrs. Diamond(the varsity soccer coach) didn't even care! She doesn't care if WE lose. NO! IT ONLY MATTERS IF IT'S VARSITY! Yeah...That's why WE have the better record than them. Oh well. It's over and done with.
More later...
10/21/97 Today was alright. I mean nothing exciting or too piss off-ish. Jules told me that Ben and his girlfriend were walking down the hall and she noticed him and I'm guessing he noticed her. Anyways, as Jules was passing, he gave her this look and then raise Jessica's hand(he was holding her hand) at Jules like proclaiming her or something. Ya know what? I dont' even care! I want to be over him so much I can taste it.
Hmm...school was boring today. Same basic crap that I don't care about really. But after school...it was quite odd.
I was sleeping in my room and listening to Sally every once in a while. And my mom came in and was like, "Jordan is here to see you." And I was like, "huh?". So I went outside and sure enough, there he was standing at the edge of our sidewalk. Oh yeah...Jordan is a freshman that is on my bus stop. Anyways, he just started talking and I was still dumbfounded. I asked him what he wanted and he just used the excuse that he was bored. I standed there in the freezing cold with no coat or shoes or socks, listening to him talk about Austin Powers. I was too cold to concentrate on what he was saying. I dunno...I'm just scared if he likes me. I just don't see myself going out with Jordan. Two years ago, he was the most obnoxious person I had ever met. I have no idea if he's changed...I don't know what he's like! I don't really like him in the way that I would actually go out with him. I guess I'll just feel bad about it and avoid him for a while. My mom gave me this "Who the hell was that?" look. I just shrugged at her. Then I told her later that I had no intention of going out with him and that I just thought of him as an "aquaintence", which is what he is. And I have no idea whatsoever how to deal with this. I just hope that it was some sort of prank or some joke or that maybe he really was bored. I sound like an awful person for saying all this so I'll just stop. Lola says that Jordan is cool. But I don't even know if he is. I have NO idea. Oh well.
All I know is that I was the biggest fool alive to ever waste my time and paper on Ben. What a jerk! He's so dense. I never even thought that he'd do such a thing...I guess that makes me the dense one?
10/24/97 Well, I haven't writtin in what...2 or 3 days? Ah well. Yesterday, our history class had a trip to Rider University(My brother's college). It was ok...I slept through the video, which in fact, was older than my grandmother. And there was this one guy who lectured half of the time...he was the sort to have that annoying monotone voice. I hate that. Me and Zoe just sat there and while I fell asleep, her and Sammy were writing on my arm in red pen:"I love Hanson!". I woke up because the damn pen was sorta sharp so it hurt. They said while I was sleeping that my leg was twitching. hahaha
I haven't see Ben for the longest time...Ooooh 4 days! Oh well. I guess I've gotten over him. Or not. I mean I still try to walk in the halls just so I can see what he looks like anymore. I did, on the other hand, see Puffy hair girl. She was wearing Ben's shirt again. God...I don't think they wash it between the both of them...skanky!
Today was pretty damn boring, now that I think of it. In history class all we did was make fun of Mrs. Petrilla. We were talking about the Armenian trip thingy(Rider trip). There was this little Armenian lady there. She was pretty cool...the only one I listened to the whole day. Her mother went through the Armenina Genocide in the early part of this century and she told us what it was like, and what her mother went through. It's so stupid that people have to wipe out a whole different race of people just because they're not like them. It's not even worth all the trouble.
Heh. Gym class was ok today. We played Crazy kickball. There's this cute guy named Paul in that class. I'm not sure of his last name...I'll have to look at Mrs. Banks' grade book. hehe. Anways, I was standing on second base and I wasn't supposed to run there from first because the pitcher had the ball...so I didn't know. And he was coming towards me with this weird smile on his face...I was just watching him walk towards me. I didn't know he had the ball behind him...he threw it as hard as he could and he hit me in the chest! Um...OUCH! Anyways, I scored 2 runs for my team...so it was worth it I guess.
I didn't see anyone today. Not Lola, not Jules...no one! I didn't even look I guess. I was pretty much tired. I had to make up a Bio test. That thing was hard as balls! I hate my Bio teacher. He's such a pain. He was lecturing...and I wanted to take full advantage of time, cause I heard the test was hard. And he kept going on and on and on...finally I raised my hand and asked if I could take it. I ASKED if I could take it. How lame is that!? Grrr I think I failed it. Oh well. We have to draw an animal cell and a plant cell. Boooooring! And for history, I have an essay that counts as a test grade due Monday. I have to get my dad to help me with it...since he was a history major and all. I hate asking him for help. It's like after I ask him, he expects me to be grateful...."Yeah, thanks dad for giving me 20 minutes out of 15 years to help me out!" Grr...can you say BITTER? Sure...I knew you could.
