(1:51pm EST) 7/25/98
hmm...afternoon..i'm on the computer. isnt' it great?
all of my friends are all out doing something, working, or have to do something else. my mom just called me from maryland. she started crying because my dad left her all alone with the dog at my uncles house. man, how rude of him. that's so mean. i wish i went down with her. i would have done something with her. even tho my mom has sorta been ignoring me for a little now. at least she realized that i'm still here. when we had our big apology night thing..she said that she's been neglecting me. the sad thing was that..i didn't even realized that she had been spending her time elsewhere until that night. it's just weird.
today doesn't seem like a saturday. oh god..that stupid song is on the radio.
"are you strong enough to be my man? would you be man enough to be my man. well i believe, i promise i believe..i believe but please don't leave"
this song is so old... i hate this radio station...but if i use my cd player, i know i'm going to end up putting on a depressing cd.
well, i'm going to have a bday in less than a month. it's amazing. i used to get so excited when a birthday was like 3 months away, and now i don't give a damn. ever since christmas '97 i've been reluctant to get excited over a family like holiday/get together.
wow...bryan is talking to me. two minutes and the conversation is already semi-dull. his sarcasm is too much to put up with.
saw disturbing behavior yesterday. it sorta sucked. hung out with a few friends... it was cool.
when i got home yesterday night, chris asked me if i wanted a beer...and i said no. he said i could come down and party later. i just nodded..i went upstairs and fell asleep in my mom's bed.
wow..i just called it my mom's bed. it's my parents' bed. oh fuck it..who cares.
hey guess what!! my word of the day is WHORE. and no one can say it unless it's in all caps..or i will have to kill you all!
