(8:49pm EST) 8/20/98 well...i had a horrible birthday. sweet sixteen my fucking ass.
my brother got me a cool sweater, i got money.. andra gave me a kick ass violet shirt with a little fairy girl on it, lola got me a cd.. uhhh.. that's it.
i just had a horrible day...my mom took me to the mall.. i was supposed to get a pair of shoes, but ended up letting my bad mood take over.
i saw this girl eleni from middle school there.. we just ignored each other... i think she saw me. i know i saw her. that was sorta depressing. i just cried practically the whole day. my mom went to take my grandmother to dialysis..so i had the house to myself for a good hour to cry as loud as i could..and i used it to it's full potential. i'm just so upset. maybe i'm just dissappointed in my life..and it's finally hitting me...i have no idea anymore.
luna's talking to me now.. wishing me a happy birthday. :)
jules and bryan both sent me a sorta internet birthday card kinda thing. it was nice.
i think i'm starting to like bryan agan. this is so frustrating. it's like when things are going bad and it's like he'll never talk to me again, i'll fall for him completely, but when he wants me, i don't want him. what the hell is wrong with me!?
i dunno if it's just me starting to like him on my own or if it's the fact that he's started talking to marie(his old girlfriend) again. that makes me mad jealous. it's so shallow of me. i'm so horrible. i have no idea what to do. why do i even bother!
