tomorrow's bryan's b-day. he gets his license tomorrow too. he's gonna drive me and andra to school. teehee.
oh! so i told him that i liked him. it was in note-form. i was all ready to tell him face to face... i am yet to encounter any situation with a guy without initiating it without a note of some form...or email. well... before with bryan..it was sorta.. face to face like.. anyways.
so, i told him. and he didn't care! oh.. no! i mean, he cared. but it didn't change things. which is good. he could have acted all weird around me. but he talks to me even more now. he comes over during lunch. and he even came into the store the night i was working after buying some nintendo game. that make me incredibly happy. i kept making this noise to andra.. it sorta sound like "eeeeeeeeeeeeeh!". :) erin, a girl i work with, thinks that he'll start liking me again now that he knows that i've never stopped liking him. but he's with his girlfriend. and i can accept that... i just want them to hurry up and break up. no.. i mean, hell yeah, i do want them to break up, but deep down, i don't because i will blame myself for that happening..or i'll just feel guilty. ugh. i hate guilt. anyways.. i'm in better spirits.
i honestly think that i was at my happy peak when i was with him before. he's such a sweet guy...i mean, his new girlfriend has turned him into an "out of the closet" sex fiend...when he was with me he was at least an "in the closet" sex fiend. but he's tolerable...still. she has just changed him a lot. and i don't know if he changed for her, or if she changed him... but i was happy with the way he was. i liked him for who he was...and i let things get in the way of my feelings. that was stupid. i don't want to change him at all. not one bit.
