Sunday, 18 July 1999

I've been thinking of my ex pretty frequently lately. I miss him terribly. Afterall, I've spent almost 10 years of my life with him and though we can't be together, it's still hard to get used to the fact. It's funny but though I was the one to leave the relationship, it still isn't easy to get over someone you've shared so much with for so long. I spoke to some of my girlfriends and realised that well, I did have something special with him - we were afterall very close. But oh well, we are moving in different directions in life and i don't think we're willing to compromise on our ideals so hard as it is, I must let go and I can let go.

Anyway, I think of my future and it really has no place for him. So, think and lust as I might but we really weren't meant to be... so be it.

Nursing school is doing me good in more ways than one. First, it's good to have a goal to work towards - it gives you a purpose in life. I have something to work towards for the next three years in school and then the next three years when I serve my bond with my hospital. After that, I'll be free to decide where I'll want to take my career. :)

Another good thing is, being in nursing school, embarking on this path, makes me realise how out of place some of my past is. It's hard to dwell on the past when I'm so involved in the present and so hard at work on my future, y'know. Besides, there are people from my past that don't really belong to my life now. :) It's getting easier and easier to move on. :)

It's also good that I'm starting to be more objective and disciplined. I'll need these in my nursing career for sure!

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