Still Loving You

Friday, May 16, 2003 (1:50am)

I have so many little thoughts running through my head right now, so please forgive the lack of flow that will probably permeate this entry. And this is all in random order. Plus I'm incredibly sleep deprived but I needed to get some of this out before I go to D.C.

I believe in second chances. I don't believe anybody should be forever condemned for something going wrong. Life is a learning experience. We make mistakes and we learn from them. We grow. Plus, yes I was a mess at the time, but not just because of the break-up. Have you all forgotten how bad I was after getting laid off and having to work retail again?

And to those friends of mine that are so concerned that I'll get hurt again, I appreciate the concern, I really do, but what would you have me do? Hide away and never take any chances or any risks? Life is not a spectator sport.

As far as your group of friends who think that since we didn't work out once, we won't work out again, I'm sorry that apparently none of you have been able to make a relationship work after experiencing tough times. But I don't give up so easily. In so many other aspects of my life, I've let my fear of failing again hold me back. But this is too important for that.

Oh and I do have friends that like you...maybe I'm wrong, but I think you did very well at that work party. So Charlie, Heather, Jeanmarie, Jess, and Lisa and the rest of them, they liked you. And they didn't know me in the "good days". They were right there every day in the "bad days" and they still think you're wonderful.

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