Background: Born in Portland,Or. Traveled all 50 contentinal U.S. states. Raised on a carnaval(not just one but quite a few of them). She had at least a 3rd grade level in school. But she was street smart, she'd lived on the streets of Hollywood for several years before we got together. She'd been married once before our marrage, and that was to Raymond Wright. Never did find out how long that marrage lasted. But I did find out how it started, she had a thing for accents so one day when she'd heard someone talking with a broge, she'd thought she was talking to a stocsman only later did she find out the truth. And still married him. I knew her for 3 to 4 years before we remet. During the begining of those years I only saw her a handful of times. Never even thought of her then. But one day she came back into my life. By that night she was mine and I was her's. That was just before thanksgiving of 90'. On 02/03/91 we were married! (and if you think I asked the queston of her, think again.)
Likes: Cussing out people who made her mad, Talking on the phone; Partylines, Moveing to a different city (the very next day!), Keroke, Rollerskateing(No Inlines), Stuffed Animals, Radio Disney, Filk Music Windbourne, Karen + Kris Webber, Frank Hayes, Doctor Demento, The Movie Titanic (it came out on 09/01/98 in video. So I can say she was dieing to get her hands on a copy), Reading talking books Xanth, Incarnations of Imortality, Adept Series, Valdamar, Hitchikers Guide to the Galaxy, (just to name a few series she Loved) Favorate song (other then her own) was "Say Hello To Hollywood" by Joe Scone (never produced to my knowledge. She loved Purple! My presence in the same room as her!
Favorate saying's:
B.eautful
I.ntelagent
T.alented
C.harming
H.onest
She was one of those people who you either didn't get along with or you loved who she was, there was not many who fell in between. But she, like the rest of us had her own problems. She too wished to die, but my presence gave her a reason to live. Many times she told me that if it wasn't for the fact that we got together when we did she would have not lived for more than a week. Also she constantly told me that if I ever died she wouldn't be long in following me. When I talk to others now about her they say. "Well she wouldn't want you to be unhappy? Would she?" But I have yet to tell them about what I know, which is that in life she repeatedly said "that I don't want you to be with anyone else (male to female) even after I'm gone. But if I'm to live how can I not seak another mate. If I'm to live I must have another mate, and just hope she'll understand. After she died I know where she went, she's with me, so I don't know if she understands where she is, I have yet to find out.
(for more info on what I mean by this see Kaw-liga's page)
My current life without her is empty, hollow not a day goes by that I am not happy to be on this earth for another day. But Lady Justiana (the blind goddess who watches over every court building) has yet to give me her permission to leave this earth before the gods call. One day I'll apply to her alcolates to do just that. I wish to do this not because I've lost her but because my existance is hollow, empty and because of this all I feel is pain. The pain I had before I known her and all the pain I've gone through since. It does me no good to exist, when I can go into another life and be more happy there then I am now.(I speak this way because if I thought, I'd be even more unhappy in the other life, then what hope do I have!!) For those who believe this should not be, I say you are not me , you don't know what I go through each and every day! and until you can/or do, you arn't meant to say if I'm right or wrong in my feelings. To live in happyness is a right! But to leave this world when one is unhappy should also be a right!!