RETREAT TESTIMONIES January 29-31,1999 | Skycroft Retreat Center | |
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Dear God, I want to THANK YOU so much for what happened tonight. It was incredible. At first, the 144 of us sat in 3 interchained circles for testimony. Halfway through, when it was Jeff E.'s turn to talk, he broke down sobbing badly because of his life problems. He talked about why he was living, what a bastard he was, how he never cared for anyone and wanted to die. I remember living through all of it in 7th grade...those painful memories are actually coming back to help. Suddenly, w/o a warning, I think it was You who swept through that room. Over 100 people, guys and girls, all started sobbing like crazy. CRAZY! I heard Teresa L.'s distinctive cry and saw Leona, Alice and many other girls already on the floor in that dark room. I didn't understand why Shutsu and Grace were sobbing either. Slowly, You touched just about everyone. Gideon, Christine, Amy L., Christine C., EVERYONE. I was so surprised that not a single drop surfaced. It was the strongest feeling in the world. There I was, one of 144 people and 99% of them all sobbing their heads off while I was PERFECTLY fine. So I ended up on my knees and praying to you, repeating "God, save us all, break down our walls of sin" for I knew what they were all experiencing...b/c I went through it all on Christmas Sunday, 12/20/98. That morning, I cried + yelled and confessed my sins for an hour. Maybe that's why I was clear-headed tonight. I really don't understand but I felt bad that I wasn't hurting along with everyone else...so I ended up...Oh Yeah! A very important part was my friend...she was sobbing but insisting that she couldn't cry...or her dad will 'hit' her. That's why she had to stay strong all along. Father! That pained (pains) me so badly... that's abuse! How can she live through that?! It's truly torture... I pray that you help her through her crisis. I ended up bringing tissue paper to people, prayed with Amy, Melody, Christie, hugged in a circle with Tim, Fred, Christine, Mikey, Gideon, Mike L., hugged Teresa for the longest time. hugged Maria, Teresa L., Shutsu, Grace (they were ALL crying), Melissa, everyone I could find that were alone or in pain. Thank you, Lord. You have helped us find humility + unity. If every church in this world can experience your power like tonight...that woulddo so much. Lord, I'm NOT worthy of you and I don't quite understand why you chose me to be one of the "calm" ones tonight, but I want to thank you for letting me be here tonight, bringing us this powerful storm and breaking every one of us down. I know that maybe 1/144 people still may not be moved. I think that you can still help them...somehow. Oh Father! You are too great! Too good for me, for us. Compared to the testimonies tonight, my problems" are NOTHING! You've basically given me the world, Lord!! That's how I feel! Cuz I have good grades, good parents (despite my mom, but at least she doesn't hit me), good friends, home, food, everything!! Father, you're right. I pray that you help me... I am DETERMINED to make a difference for this church. To do something. I MUST! I want to. Please help me make a difference b/c I wasn't a "leader" so I felt that my impacts weren't as great and I couldn't do as much. Also, from now on, I will do my best to glorify you. Praise the Lord for He is GOOD! You are so beautiful and GOOD, Father! SO much! AMEN!
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