Critical. 010608

Hey. I'm in an angry ass mood right now. People have just been irking me with their irresponsibility regarding money and shiet. Like dude, you have got to plan out your shiet right?! You can't just live for today and spend all your shiet and not care if you don't have money later on. Learn some fkn responsibility! GAHRRRRR.

Crush to PiC. 122907

Hey. Happy holidays. It's weird how the holidays make you feel like your life's on hold til the new year. Like this life I'm living now is just limbo until real life starts again after January 2. :P

Work is alrite. Been really busy with all the shiet that I have to do and plan. But I guess it's a good busy. My new designer, Edison, is pretty cool. Stuff's pretty funny with him around. He always blames all my shortcomings on the fact that I'm a libra. Lol. He's even vainer than I am too.

Crushes - So I've been asking everyone and their mommas about what they think of crushes. Note: I define crushes as...a superficial like (cuz usually it's someone you've just met and you don't know much about them, but you feel a connection and get butterflies from thinking of them). Not specifically what they think of crushes, but like whether you should have crushes when you already have a bf/gf. Well actually, I guess it's not really an issue of having the crush itself, it's what the protocol is when hanging out with a crush. A lotta ppl said that it's not okie to hang out with your crush when you have a bf/gf. But I think I've come to conclude that you should hang out with your crush so that you can get over it. Like the butterflies and all that good stuff will eventually fade and your crush will just become a normal person again. Otherwise you'll always think the grass is greener on the other side.

What else...Oh yea, I went to Genting with Tngio Hweeeee last weekend..ended up didn't even step into the casino, but played arcade. There's this ticket baseball game, it's soooo fun. I was straight up ninja! I'll post a pic when I get the pics from my camera. Mehehe.

I'll think about it. 121507

Hey. So back into the swing of things. Work - taken on a lot more responsibility and gotta really push it to make it succeed. Relationship - redefined some boundaries, came to an understanding that leaves me with a lot more freedom. Going out - been going to parties n networking thangs n tryin to live that charmed 20-something life. Meeting ppl - getting chased, being courted...it's fun, isn't it? Morals n values - testing my boundaries and trying to draw up some real conclusions to live my life by. Mindset - still unpeaceful sometimes, but trying to figure it out.

I tried Guinness Draught for the first time yesterday (I usually drink Stout) and it's so wierd.. Like it has the same taste, but it goes down like water. You don't feel it in your throat. Which is a good thing I guess...but is Draught not as strong as Stout? Or is it psychological?

Tattoos...such differing opinions. Scenario: A high-class formal party. A beautiful, educated and eloquent lady enters the room. She greets the hosts, takes a glass of champagne from the server and floats around the room to mingle with friends. She effortlessly wears a classy evening gown, stiletto heels. All eyes are on her as she walks past, the low cut of the gown revealing a dragon tattoo on her back.

Will people (a) stare in horror, (b) stare in wonder, (c) not care?

My opinion is (b). If the lady portrays an overall presence of sophistication and grace, e.g. by speaking well, being polite, being confident in dress and gait, then the dragon tattoo will just add to the mysteriousness that is she. (I totally want to pull this off.)

I've been told that people in general will react like (a). They'll associate it negatively, like the lady's in the mafia or something and they'll keep a polite distance from her.

The pic is v.1 of my dragon tattoo. I'm aiming for d-day in April, have to confirm this is what I want before I do it. (Note: I drew the design, so don't even think of jacking it for your own tattoo biatch.) Still thinking about getting it all done in red ink.

When we get together, it's like BAM. 112807

So JY was once again reunited for about two weeks! Yurika got to Singapore on a Friday night, like past midnight and like the bestest friend that she is, she went with me to Batam early the next day and helped out tremendously with the Batam to Singapore Swim that SAC was holding that weekend. I am so not an events person.


It may seem like we're just chillin' at the resort in Batam, but it was all work after that.

Had a little house party on Monday night in honor of Yurika's visit.


Then Tuesday night jetted off to Bangkok for 5 days of JY paradise: cheap shopping and good eating. Plus cheap massages and clubbing.

Nails. 150 baht.

Godzilla?

Pictures. 100 baht.

ClubbinWEAR.

Chili and Smiley. Smiley's the singer for Bravo Band. Check em out at the Ambassador Hotel in Sukhumvit if you're ever in Bangkok.

Next on the trip was 5 days in Tokyo, but we spent like two of those days in the airport so it didn't feel like we were there long. It was cool tho, but I don't think I'd ever live there. 109 at Shibuya is sooo stylo. Seriously, everything there is stylo. Anyway.
Day 1: Ate breakfast with Yurika's brother and his gf at their hotel.


Went to chill in the hot springs at a hotel resort in Atami. Our room:

Our kimonos:

Day 3: Hato Bus Tour. One of the places we went was this scenic walking route that was really pretty.

We also picked oranges off trees and ate them. (all u can eat)

Ate dinner with everyone at a really nice place where you sit on the floor.

Check out the fobs!

Day 4: Shopping day -- we hit up Shibuya and Harajuku. Got our haircuts at the top floor of 109.
Before:

After:

And after that, Yurika went back to Frisco and I went back to Singapore via bkk.

Til next time!

Loss. 102707

Do u dig my line of thought here? It goes like this...
I thought this guy
was cool enough to be my friend.

Cool as in
he'll see me for me
and be able to
transcend normalness
and connect
like jigeys,
like best friends,
like PARTNAZ IN CRIME.

I let him past my walls and hoped so much
that he'd be cool enough.
And it was
cool.
Even though there were signs of destruction, I tried
to ignore them and be optimistic
that they'd pass.

But
nah.
He had to go and like
me.

And now
he's gotta disappear
to clear
his head
and only time will tell if things'll be cool
again.

..meh..


Singapore Tourism Board is doing their free postcard thang again this year. Picked up a lot, so ppl will be gettin a lot of these from me. 4 so far:





Scopie did a mural at NUH.

Chicken did this while we were waiting for the ladder to come.

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Wei. So lion dancing was fun. Saw a lot of familiar faces. Rusty as hell tho. Tried playing drums a few times but..still lots of anxiety when it comes to playing in front of ppl. Cannot make it. :P But meh. I'm dark as hell now cuz we were under the sun all day. It was gow wong yeh's birthday that day so we went from temple to temple to sort of escort the carriages of the nine gods or something. I dunno much about the history n stuff. Just that every place has free food and free drinks.

After that day that I was buggin about being back at square one, things turned out okie. I hung out with that person again and it was fine. So we got over that stumbling block and I think we both find each other interesting enough to be pretty good friends. I guess the awkwardness was from thinking too much. Like worrying whether the level of interest is the same in both ppl. Yanno what I mean? Like...say you meet someone that you think is really cool n you wanna be friends with them. If the other person also feels the same way towards you, then it's cool. Otherwise, if the other person thinks you're a loser then you just seem like you ARE a loser cuz you're so into the relationship and the other person isn't. So I think ppl tend to hold back until they feel safe to show their interest. Or something like that.

Chinese New Year 2008 plans are already made...I'm going to BKK!!! :P hehe haven't been there in a while man. Almost a year...damn. Got lots of shopping to catch up on. My dad got the S$1 base fare cuz he's going in January. I go a couple days later in February and it's like S$19 base fare. Psh.

Thinking of how to convince the boss to let me take vacation in November to go to Japan with Yurika. That'd be the shiettt.

Trying to come up with stuff to do together with Chicken. Cuz the relationship feels a bit stagnant. Good to keep learning stuff to keep things interesting, meh? I told him to write out a list of shiet that he has interest in. We came up with 3 things... making stuff outta weird stuff (I still don't really know what he means...but something like having to use your creativity n knowledge to build for example a house outta match sticks), learning to play the drums and ceramic art. I'm banking on playing the drums, so currently looking for like group lessons or something like that. But dunno how group lessons would work with drums. Like drum set drums, not lion dance drums.

Square one. 101307

So I'm 23 already. Went to stay at Batam one night for my birthday, courtesy of the boss since we had a meeting there the next morning. Chicken went with me. It was alrite. :P

Yanno lately right, well normally I'll be like happy and talkative and I'll like smile when I'm walking places n what right. And I've been meeting a lotta ppl and making a good impression on them n stuff. And then yesterday I hung out with someone and I felt like back to square one, like I was self-conscious and uninteresting. I haven't felt like that in the longest time. And I can't figure out WHY?!?!

Meh. Tmrw going lion dancing... Haven't seen those guys in a long ass time!

Ipoh and work. 100107

Hey what's up. Went to Ipoh last week for Mooncake Festival. My first time going to Pangkor Island; haven't played at the beach for the longest time. Chicken drove me around the island on a motorbike. Hehe. First time eating lotus seeds. Found some nice slippers at pasar malam. I've been looking for slippers for the longest time but haven't found any good ones. I got two pairs for RM20. Cheap charlie's still the best. :)

Got my new designer in at work. Now I can push all the design to him and concentrate on sales. I've realized that a lot of my designs are cartoony/childish. I gotta design something professional, but it's coming out cartoony. Jeez.

Anyway, can't concentrate now. Watching Prison Break. New season has started. Mwahahaha!