between the shrieking mattress in the kitchen & Time, a mysterious weekly-Tao-a fingertip on his chin, his knees knocking together-Tao-he shows the inside of his mouth to a column of faces "does this mean you must take a nap today?" & Phil Silvers eating a banana-he is inside of the column of faces-Tao is quiet & Phil pokes Duff the Hero -a miser from the Aegean Sea-a vast desert in his head he has plenty of self confidence & lets yokels test bombs in his brain-"love is a ghost thing" says Duff "it goes right thru you" Tao strains-he looks almost pornographic "some tonsils!" says Phil, who now wears long suspenders & tells Duff to keep up the self confidence "self confidence deceiving" says Mr. O'toole-a husband of questionable virtue it gives people without balls a sense of virility" "do your wife own a cow?" says Phil, who has now turned into an inexpensive Protestant ambassador from Nebraska & w speaks with a marvelous accent "what do you mean does in wife own a cow?" "are you from Chicago then?" asks t ambassador ...Tao's face-meanwhile-becomes so bi it disappears "where'd he go?" says Duff-who's not s much of a hero anymore but rather a jolly youth that hate degenerates & is supposed to be in school anyway ...mr. O'toole-falls out of his chair "i must find some railroad tracks-i must put my ear to the tracks-i must listen for train"-the column of faces-all together now-a munching chorus "DONT GET KILLED NOW"-repeat-"don't get killed now" yes & between this mattress shrieking & that in mysterious weekly lay the slave counties-Doris Da y gone & Pacific fog-a Studebaker in twilight-crash-& breaking down the honkytonk doors & strange left handed moon men-from Arkansas & Texas & vagabonds with girlie magazines from Reed College-cellars & Queens-they all shouting "watch me Tao-watch me-i'm high-watch me now! " ...that lonesome feeling-paralyzing-that lonesome feeling-or aretha-my mama didn't raise no fool-i have nothing new to add to that feeling ...slide on vomit-better'n working with a shovel-Reject-God Bless Holy Phantomism & damn the farewell parties-statistic books the politicians..... the column of faces-all together now -raising the flag & staring up to a hole in it-chanting "it's halloween! can Tao come out & play? "-getting no reaction & shouting louder-all in unison now-"IT'S HALLOWEEN..... CAN TAO COME OUT & PLAY?)) give up-give up-the ship is lost: go back to san bernardino-stop trying to organize the crew-it's every man for himself-are you a man or a self? when the coast guard gets there, stand up proudly & point-dont be a hero-everybody's a hero-be different-dont be a conformist forget about all those sea shanties-just stand up & say "san bernardino" in a deep monotone ...everybody will get the message your benefactor Smoky Horny