LOVE IS A TATTERED ILLUSION
NOTHING BUT PAIN AND CONFUSION
HOW CAN I WANT THIS?
IT TEARS OUT MY HEART
IT LEAVES ME IN THE DARK
I DIG A SHALLOW GRAVE, AND BURY ALL THE LOVE I GAVE
I LOVE NO ONE, I LIE TO MYSELF
I SAY NOTHING MATTERS, I'M SLOWLY KILLING MYSELF
I LOVE NO ONE, I WISH IT WERE TRUE
BUT I UNLOCK MY HEART, AND FIND I LOVE YOU
HOW CAN I LOVE YOU? I TAKE THIS IN VAIN
LOVE KILLS, LOVE IS PAIN
I RUN FROM MY LOVE, BUT THERE IS NOWHERE TO RUN
NO ONE TO UNDERSTAND, I HAVE NO BROTHERS
SO I RUN TO SECRET LOVERS
IF I TELL YOU WILL YOU SEE? WILL YOU BELEIVE?
WILL YOU LOVE ME?
WHEN YOU LEAVE HOW WILL I LIVE?
CAN I GO ON? CAN I FORGIVE?
I CRY AND I RUN FROM MY FEARS
I BREAKDOWN AND CRY, I CRY BLACK TEARS
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SOMETIMES I WANT TO KILL
MURDER, JUST FOR THE THRILL
SOMETIMES I WANT TO LOVE
CRYING, TO THE MOON ABOVE
SOMTIMES I WANT TO GIVE
CAST AWAY, THE LIFE I LIVE
SOMTIMES I WANT TO FLY
FEARING, I'LL FALL AND DIE
SOMETIMES I WANT TO STEAL
BETRAY, TO MAKE MYSELF REAL
SOMETIMES I WANT TO HATE
TEMPTATIONS, SEAL MY FATE
SOMETIMES I WANT TO DIE
RELEASE, BUT ALL I CAN DO IS CRY
INNER DECAY
THE SHIT FLIES AROUND ME SO FAST,
A WHIRLING, STINKING, SHAPELESS MASS
ALL THE THINGS I SEE EVERY DAY,
MAKE ME WISH TO RUN AWAY
HATE, MURDER, DEATH,
SHATTERED DREAMS AND GOALS
CANDY FOR OUR EYES,
POISON FOR OUR SOULS
I SEW MY EYES SHUT SO I CAN'T SEE,
BUT THESE THINGS HIDE WITHIN YOU AND ME