unjustified in sadness
with love, they do surround
yet outcast i am seeming
to sorrow i am bound
bewildered by this comment
a life caught unaware
sheltered by depression
truthfulness is rare
passive in my speaking
for you, i cannot trust
a heart forever broken
now slowly gathers dust
11/24/98 Shadows
no will to live
no will to fight
submissive to all
waring despite
alone in crows
so full and so vast
no friends to keep
you will be the last
so here we sit
the words are gone
the battles lost
the straws are drawn
forgotten is love
and times that we shared
all here is lost
as if no one cared
here in the darkness
so quiet, so sad
just mourning the loss
of times that we had
the dreams of today
and hopes of tomorrow
bury the hate
and leave only sorrow
too passive to live
too stubborn to die
we go through this lfe
just floating on by
11/24/98 Bastard
times will change
as will we
but here we'll sit
for all to see
a sin for truth
a life for death
within the soul
within the breath
the eyes of child
and precious time
the wish for freedom
an endless climb
years can pass
lives can go
but here we'll stand
and all will know
we were together
for a while
you'll see us still
in every smile
all in one
we weren't alone
never lost
although unknown
we were the hopes
and memories
the precious words
from you to me
time has gone
but we remain
weaved together
beneath the rain
just here in silence
we will sit
a crown of thorns
that won't quite fit
upon the head
of father time
seeming moral
but not sublime
forever frozen
in our stance
i am the child
conceived by chance