you wait in the darkness
waiting just for me
just to see me
just to hear me
just to kill me
you cry in the darkness
crying for the answers
expecting me to know
expecting me to see
expecting me to die
you scream in the darkness
screaming for your pain
the pain you want to share
the pain you want to give
the pain you put in me
you laugh in the darkness
laughing just at me
laughing at my weakness
the weakness you created
the weakness you gave me
you wait in the darkness
waiting just for me
yet you'll never see me
for i'm not what you want
i'm the beast you created
but you'll never accept
4/20/98 Bloody Tears
looking through those eyes
waiting for the word
yet you turn away
and nothing else is heard
searching for the reasons
in your empty eyes
nothing lays between us
yet you give me lies
laying in a pool
of clotting, crimson blood
waiting for the healer
to come and stop this flood
screaming for the answer
to this silent plea
yet i hurt is all i get
because you'll never see
you'll never see the pity
you'll never see the pain
you'll never see the knife
i hold upon my vein
waiting for the signal
from my shattered mind
waiting for the answer
yet death is all i find
swimming in this oceam
of my quiet tears
screaming for assistance
yet no one ever hears
i'm drowning in this pity
that you gave to me
yet i only wanted,
i needed you to see
turning without sorrow
waiting for the end
i never wanted much
i needed just a friend
hope on which to feed
arms in which to cry
i never gave enough
so now i lay to die
living as your burden
dying as your fool
drowning without sorrow
in this bloody pool
4/22/98 Wishing
living in a world
where no one really hears
living in a world
where none will ever cry
living in a world
where everyone will fear
living in a world
yet wishing just to die
crying in a world
where every day they pray
crying in a world
where no one really feels
crying in a world
where there is no day
crying in a world
yet wishing just to heal
dying in a world
where no one has the keys
dying in a world
where none will ever give
dying in a world
where no one really sees
dying in a world