waiting just to feed
off your growing bliss
enough to fill the need
of the love i miss
living off the love
you feel so deep inside
and i, so high above
the pain is hard to hide
yet within your world
you cannot really see
the spot on which i'm curled
although its plain to see
every little smile
that meets your pretty face
gives me quite a while
to live within this place
blind to the devotion
that i hold inside
along with the emotion
that has never died
addicted to the living
that has become your way
yet all the love i'm giving
can't be held at bay
useless is the trying
and the waiting too
you never heard my crying,
crying just for you
waiting for the day
that you'll set me free
just one word to say
but will you ever see?
the pain that i go through
just to live again
living off of you
till the very end
4/14/98 Dedicated to all the Racist Nazis out there. I hope you die a long and painful death under a dull knife Useless Life
you're such a fucking asshole
i really hope you die
you have no point in living
life has passed you by
judging because the color
of a person's skin
you are so fucking stupid
this war, you'll never win
take that fucking gun
and put it to your head
living as you are
you really should be dead
ranting for your leader
and his 'master race'
with your stupid views
living is disgrace
you are so very blind
to this precious life
you'll never pass the glare
of your dullest knife
i pity your ignorance
and your thoughtless views
yet the time will come
when you'll pay your dues
so do the world a favor
and take the pretty knife
shove it up your gut
and end that useless life
4/15/98 Chip off the 'ole Block
a child cries into the night
as the threats are thrown
the child's dreams are broken
and his hate is sewn
growing from that seed
his hate begins to bloom
living off his anger
he soon begins his doom
fighting for a reason
he does not really know
killing for the feeling
and so the pain will grow
deep within his mind
and hidden beneath his soul
he keeps the quiet child
in a deep, dark hole
hiding from himself
and hoping none will find
the truth of what he is
hidden within his mind
feeding off the anger
he fights another day
living off the hatred
he keeps the pain at bay
screaming at his lover
knowing not who sees
even though his child
is the one who flees
learning from his father
the child sows his seed
beginning life in anger
yet hope is all he needs
the man, he is quite blind
and so his son will be
living off the hatred
and killing all he see