Petals fall, a child calls
screaming for a mother
thorns protrude in solitude
digging other further
mourning doves fly above
a silent, lonely grave
a darkened bloom bestows your doom
there's nothing left to save
This time is yours, the rain, it pours
falling just for you
your lover slain feeds the pain
and the days are few
your anger burns and body yearns
for a second chance
the ground does shake, the world, you take
in this mournful dance
The tears now fall, to her you call
waiting for her cries
but deep inside, you will confide
the answer's in her eyes
while letting go, you never show
the shattered, lonely pain
that burns and eats, your heart, it beats
pulsing through each vein
Give up your quest, you've done your best
burying lover's hate
let go the past and, at last
follow hopeful fate
the grave still lies within your eyes
as you turn away
the tomb still stands within her hands
yet good bye you say
Letting her go, the world, you show
any wound can heal
bury the dead and look ahead
to the hope you feel
free from guilt, this bridge you built
never turning back
running so free, you, I see
throw a rose of black....
5/11/98 The Unsane
words have no sense
my mind is a bird
cries fly away
and my veins are heard
within the walls
it beats, it climbs
fight for confusion
screaming for the time
your face shatters me
waiting for the answer
your mind wanders dead
eating up the cancer
you search for a meaning
that you'll never find
questing for redemption
deep within my mind
scream as you please
flee to my yells
burn in my agony
die under spells
i have no thoughts
to live in my hair
i live deep within
a dragon's sweet lair
his breath is smoke
his eyes are gold
with each word
stories are told
listen close
and lend an ear
the gentle dragon
stops the tear
so now you lay
confused and old
wishing for answers
the corpse gone cold
go home to your wife
and sweet little child
before the moon comes
and drives me wild
my madness drives
the fastest lane
but do you still like
the not quite sane?
5/11/98 Forgiven Murder
i remember the days
and the nights too
i remember the times
the times with you...
love swells inside
this time without hate
times are forgiven
i followed my fate
falling in love
the sweestest pleasure
and deepest pain
that none can measure
the time, though short
it let me grow
it let me blossom
this, you know
i fell from grace
so many times
yet i returned
and you were mine
so i take this time
to let you know
i love you still
you're gone, although
i follow dreams
you gave to me
i once was blind
you let me see
and though i mourn
the loss of you
i must admit
my love stays true
you'll never return
or look back to me
but its good
you cannot see
you can't see the tears
or even my face
you can't see me fall
to any a place
i hide without knowing
i cry without tears
i run from the givings
you gave me your fears
although i long to hate you
to rip apart your eyes
i cannot run from living
or live without your lies
i loved every moment
i spent within your mind
and now i look about me
your face is all i find
leave me to my darkness
cover all my sins
let me dig this hole
and hide beneath my skin
i remember the day
and the time too
i bleed for the mem'ry
of when i lost you...
5/05/98 soundless
out of words
out of time
i'm out of hope
cause you aren't mine
childish hopes
and childish dreams
yet as a child
i cannot scream
i live through time
without words
i die through life
i'm not heard....