things seems so perfect
yet falling apart
shattering the pieces
of a once-mended heart
screaming at darkness
that seems to surround
waiting for tear drops
hoping no one's around
just sitting here hurting
you're so far away
though, if you were here
what would i say?
would i tell you it hurt
to know we're not right?
would i tell you again
i'm alone every night?
hurting and wishing
though you don't know
hiding in sorrow
i can't ever show
keeping a mask on
to hide every pain
just as umbrellas
protect from the rain
showing the world
a dry, happy, face
hiding the sad one
that cries for this place
i wallow in sorrow
at unmentioned cost
though i sit here, waiting
as tears become lost
07/16/98 Hello
went into the room
scared, shy, alone
searching for a friend
to come and lead me home
to take me from this madness
bring me warmth and hope
help me face these problems
with which i cannot cope
although i'm scared and lonely
i'm safe beneath your wing
tired of this hurting
i welcome hope you bring
you teach me to be strong
never to turn away
keep on this precious war
just fight another day
so when we meet again my friend
i'll know just what do
to end this hurt, I just smile
and say hello to you