in my heart
i hold many things
broken toys
and raven's wings
there lies tears
and memories
a locking door
without keys
in my heart
i hide that pain
light is shunned
and sorrow reigns.
you ask me this
yet as i spoke
the starling fell
and innocence broke
6/25/98 Regrets
reading your words
i can't make a sound
tears are falling
while no one's around
wishing so hard
yet i know you can't feel
the regrets inside me
please, let's make a deal
let me live every moment
inside of you
hearing your voice
and feeling it too
allow me forgiveness
i'll do what you please
dying without you
i'm down on my knees
feeling alone
and never so cold
crying regrets
and feeling so old
6/26/98 Childish Toys
out of the box
I slowly climb
looking for memories
but lost in time
picking up buttons
and tore off ears
i know you've forgotten
but still, i'm here
I once was your comfort
and always a friend
but since you've forgotten
my heart wouldn't mend
my ear, still torn
you packed me away
looking with laughter
yet nothing to say
closing the lid
and leaving me there
i'm crying for help
but do you care?
i once was a comfort
to you, little boy
but can you remember
a childish toy?
6/19/98 Surrender
the music returns as i write
singing in my ears
whisp'ring thoughts to treat my eyes
and drying up my tears
i hear that voice that always calms
and takes away my pain
the gentle sound that bring me back
and pulses through each vein
no more fights and no more tears
his music is the key
his soulful voice can ease this heart
that bleeds inside of me