These past few weeks, I have been REALLY depressed.
Everything seemed to be cloaked in grey....I felt so overwhelmed and defeated by all the negative things in my life. It's so easy sometimes to get caught in that "hole": you stumble over something negative (but minor) in your life and next thing you know, the hole has grown in depth and width and you're suddenly being buried under the heavy burden(s) of life. You see everything negatively. Every decision you make seems to result in failure. You lose hope and you feel like all you want to do is STOP everything - the movement of time, the rise and fall of the sun - so you can get off this depressing trip called "life". I've been there before, more times than I care to admit. Then one night, as I was hiding from the world and trying to escape "life" through the stories on T.V., I watched a biography on the life of a certain celebrity. From all accounts, this woman appeared to have a charmed life. Lady Luck seemed to be her friend. But as the biography continued it became clear that her life was never "perfect". She had her ups and downs (indeed, she even went through a serious bout of depression during which she briefly left everything and everyone she knew.)She, like everyone else, had her struggles. After the show, it made me think of all the other biographies of other famous people I had watched and I realized that, for everyone, life presents its hardships. Everyone has had negative things happen to them but the people who came out successfully never let the bad things kill them. Yes, life isn't fair. It isn't fair that people see your skin colour before they see you. It isn't fair that some people are born into wealth and privilege while others live and die in poverty. It isn't fair that society values people according to their body measurements and the clothes they wear rather than the quality of their souls and the content of their thoughts. It isn't fair that some people have the "connections" and get all the breaks while others, though more worthy and more capable, have to struggle to just get a foot in the door. It isn't fair that some people have wealth as a result of immoral deeds while others, who live according to a moral code, can barely put food on the table. No, life isn't fair...but who said it was supposed to be? You can see it as a depressing reality or you can decide to focus on the good things about life (and the way that, in the end, things always turn out for the best). You can look the difficulties and hardships in your life and feel sorry for yourself, or you can do your best to overcome and learn from them. Yes, life is hard, living is difficult at times, but who can say that death(or life after death, if such exists) presents a better alternative? Not me.
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