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My nickname as a child was Bodge. My mother says this is because my brothers and sister could not say my name correctly. I am the oldest of seven children (three girls and 4 boys), this has been a true punishment for me. I am a survivor of incest sexual abuse by my father. I am 49 years old and did not tell my family until I was 47 years old. My first recollection of sexual abuse was when I was 10 to 11 years old. I do not remember much before that age, except when I was five years old and my father would tell me that I was lying about everything that I said that happen in shcool. But my vivid memories (now and for a few years) was how I was sexually abused my him (father). It is hard for me to even call him a father ( I always called him daddy until 2 years ago). My life has been a living hell for years, I am on my 4th marriage, the longest marriage that I have had ( 9 years 1 month). I was a prostitute for 1 year in my 30's and lost my son to his father (my first marriage). I have learned to deal will that pain, as my son and I are very close and have been for years. I have been going to group therapy for almost a year and am making good progress. I have my good days and bad days. There also is a history of sexual abuse in my family. My youngest sister (who is 17 years younger than me) was sexually abused by two of my brothers, and one of these brothers was raped by two neighborhood boys. Another brother has been accused, just a week ago, of sexually molesting his stepdaughter 3 years ago. He goes to court next month. What are the odds that this is true? So now we have 2 girls sexually abused, three boy that have a history of sexual abuse and a father. That leaves one girl and one boy, that are not talking. Again, what are the odds of those two? Our biggest problem is that our mother is in complete DENIAL of everything. So things have really changed with her for all of us (the ones that have admitted of the abuse). There is so much more to tell, but it took me 4 months to write this, I have been reading your web site and could not get up enough courage to write until now. I can relate to all of the stories on your web site that I have read, and have learned that no matter what someone has gone through, there is A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNELL. I never thought in my wildest dreams, that I would ever go to a group therapy, but it has made such a tremendous change in my well being and survival. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR CARING ABOUT SEXUAL ABUSE.