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Hi, my name is Tami and I am a 19 year old, female, psych major at Penn State University. When I was really young I was molested on different ocassions by different male friends of the family. When I was 13 one of those guys broke into the house while I was the only one home. He had a gun, stuck it to my head and tried to rape me. I got away by kneeing him in between the legs. Two summers ago I was at my boyfriend's camp and eight of his friends drugged and raped me. I stayed with my boyfriend because he had nothing to do with the rape or the drugs, and he was there for me afterwards. Then in Oct. of last year I od'd on morphine. The biggest problem was that I didn't know that I was a week pregnant when I od'd, by the time I knew it was too late a lot of damage had been done, I lost the baby at 3 months. My boyfriend blamed me and I decided it was time to stick up for myself and I dumped him. Other things in my life are my medical problems, lyme disease for the past ten years, major problems caused by that, and a lot of serious effects that I am experiencing now, and my doctors can't help much. I have hemophilia, and allergies to everything. I have also found I have many other problems including major joint and muscle disorders. Surgeries I have had are last year in June I shot myself, got three weeks in the hospital and major surgery from that.(I did that because of everything else in my life and my brother died that week) My next surgery was a knee surgery in Sept, next a D&C in Jan, then in Feb knee surgery again, and then in May my gallbladder. The ones I am supposed to get done soon are my knee and ankle at the same time. They are still trying to put them off but may decide to they want to do the surgeries. Many people ask what I do for fun, I don't really. Often I like to shoot my guns but often I don't trust myself to do that, and keep the gun aimed somewhere other than myself, so I don't go out. I used to ramp my bike but now I can't even ride it. So generally I sit in my room and catch up on email and check out things on the net. Pets I have are a pot belly pig and a miniature doberman. I had a basset hound but he died recently. He was my best friend. He was my life. Everything I had left to live for. When I was abused he was here, when I was raped he was here, when I was depressed, sad, happy, or whatever my mood he was here for me. I would talk to him,and if I was depressed he would stare up at me with his cute eyes and try to get a smile out of me, and if I would not smile he would run around and roll over until I would. Now he is gone, and so is what feelings I did have of being safe, and my best friend. Family I live with, my sister who is 17, 18 in december(I protect her too much I guess, I won't let her have a boyfriend), my mom and my dad. Ok I guess that is all there is about me.