looking out the window
at your drifting face
holding onto love
that brings me such disgrace

hiding from the truth
that i know you give
swimming in this fantasy
in which i choose to live

denying all the moments
in which there wasn't joy
running through this playground
using life as my toy

crying at the scratches
given by what's true
eyes, staring in the bleakness
and at the wraith that's you

when all the tears have fallen
and no longer does it rain
i know so deep inside me
i still will feel that pain

a child's dream is playful
but sometimes without thought
so in this baby's dreamland
the truth is finally caught

although this soul is hurting
it cannot hurt enough
for in this child's fantasy
the truth will call my bluff

and though the love is real
your truth will always win
and as i walk away from you
leaving is my sin

looking out the window
to the stars above
i know you're out there waiting
with that ghostly love

today, i'm crying
i always do
but this time it's different
crying not for you
i cry for this hurt
with which i'm filled
i ache for the moment
which my soul was killed
the tear, as it's gliding
tearing at my cheek
filling with sadness
and making me weak
crying these tears
it washes away
open my mouth
but nothing to say

tonight, i'm crying
still not for you
i cry for a reason
one that's new
though i can't name it
and, it, i can't see
I know it is filling
the inside of me
it's taking each moment
and filling its need
the shadows surround
just making me bleed
breeding the flies
to feast on my soul
building its kindgom
the king as it's role

tomorrow, i'm crying
tears, filling the day
killing each moment
just washing away
homeless in mind
and dying in vain
fighting for freedom
from this nameless pain
i thought i was empty
alone in my fears
yet today i met demons
that cry simple tears...

i know you feel like leaving
it hurts too much to live
yet as i sit here grieving
there's so much love to give
i barely hear that tiny breath
as the tears come down
hurtful living gave you death
and took a jewel from my crown
your body's still, nothing stirring
yet always tearing at my soul
tears are falling, vision blurring
seeing nothing, 'cept what life stole
it feels as though my heart is broken
though you look so full of peace
at your last breath, my love was spoken
goodbye you say, but love won't cease
so now i sit here, softly crying
remembering with what you fought
and though my tears are far from drying
i feel the trust that you brought....