Perfect Piece? Piece of what? What are you receiving from the devil that has you worrying or stressed out? What has you forgetting about the Word of God and concentrating on your problems? Please don't act religious when I ask this question because if the truth were told, many of us concentrate on our problems, and our second thought is to ask God for a solution. I mean, we have a problem, then we think, "How am I going to handle this?" If we don't solve our problems, then we ask, pray and beg God for a solution. I found myself in this very place and I asked the Lord to renew my mind and change my way of thinking.

In the year 2000, I had several goals I wanted to accomplish. I found myself looking into 2001 real fast, and not having any of my goals fulfilled. I found myself in a depression that I didn't know was depression. For the early part of the year, I let my problems, peoples problems and even their hurts interfere with what I wanted to do. I had needs, but I considered others first. I was carrying the burdens of my friends and family, but at the same time, I didn't have anyone to help carry my burdens. So I carried everything. Here I was hurting on the inside but not really knowing it. I began to sleep late, getting up when I wanted to. I cleaned the house when I wanted to. I complained to my husband that he wasn't doing his part, though I didn't have a job. I stayed home all day and never really got anything accomplished. I was fine when I went to church. I would cry to God during the entire service. My tears were real and so was my pain. I still didn't realize what I was going through. I have everything I could ever want. A good husband, two wonderful boys and good friends yet, I felt lonely. I can recall sitting in a room filled with people and still feeling lonely. I had friends, but I felt like I didn't. I felt like I didn't have anyone to cry to. I was being deceived.

In October, God showed me the emotions I was feeling was depression. I use to say, "I'm a little depressed today!" Not realizing what I was saying. There's no way you can be a little depressed. You either receive what you say or reject it. God delivered me from the deception and took me to the root. My mother loved my father dearly and she did everything for him. As a child, I remember my mother preparing food for the American Legion my father belonged to, and dressing up for the dances they would attend. Sometimes, I was allowed to go with them when they had occasions for the children, or those weekly Fish Frys on Fridays. Then God showed me how my mother would cry and be lonely. She cried because my father would commit adultery, with her knowledge. She knew and accepted his infidelity because she loved him, and because he would come home to her. When my husband and I had marital problems, she would say, "Your father had other women, but it didn't bother me!" How can that not affect a person? I actually envisioned my mother crying. It made me so sad, but it also opened my eyes to the truth about my feelings. I had received that loneliness from my mother. It was such a familiar spirit that needed to be broken off my life. Her loneliness and sadness had become mine. I cried to God to deliver me from this depression. God spoke to me in Isaiah 57:15, "For thus saith the high and lofty One that inhabiteth eternity, whose name is Holy; I dwell in the high and holy place, with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble and to revive the heart of the contrite ones."(KJV) I began to cry and humble myself to repentance for the depression in my life. I want to walk in a peace that I have never known before. A perfect peace that will never let me feel lonely or sad for no reason again. Isaiah 26:3 says, " Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee." (KJV)

The opposite of peace is stress, doubt, unbelief, depression, anxiety and worry. These diseases also cause discomfort and pain to our mortal bodies. (Heart attacks, migraines, etc) Proverbs 14:30 says, "A heart at peace gives life to the body..." We need to go after our peace and reject what the enemy tries to put in our way. I Peter 3:11 says, "...he must seek peace and pursue it." (KJV) Our Perfect Peace is in Jesus Christ.

Acknowledge that you have a problem, whether you're worrying about something or you're depressed. Give it directly to God and He'll give you Perfect Peace.

Monica Ware is owner and publisher of E.V.E. She is married to Nathaniel Ware and has two boys, Nate (11) and Aaron (8). If you would like to write to Monica concerning this issue of EVE, email her.