Were good ideas come to be mummified.........
from winter 2000/2001
A Time of Inward Looking
Winter has arrived here in the Annapolis Valley. It is a time to bring the wood in and let the garden rest. The long, dark, cold nights invite you to cuddle under a quilt and review the year.
I've started preparing gifts for my friends and family in hopes that the packages will make it in time for Yule and Christmas. In search of ingredients, for bath oils, the family makes a pilgrimage to The Big City (Halifax). I love the little shops with their diverse goodies and funky folks. Pride flags fly, witchy book stores abound, heaven for Nat.
We come home with treasures, unpack, then unwind on the couch, reviewing the days events.
It gets me thinking that one day I'll move to Halifax and weave myself into the rich tapestry of the Pagan and Queer communites whilst meeting polyfolk left and right. While I'm building this fantasy, I picture myself in little dreadlocks with a ring through my nose in a tank top & broomstick skirt. ahhhh
As I sit on the couch, under the quilt, in my little house, in a farming community, Halifax and all I've built it up to be shimmers in my mind. One day.....
It slowly dawns on me that One Day may never come. Do I spend my life on the couch, dreaming of One Day? Maybe I should drop these crazy ideas, be a "good wife, mother and member of the military". Or maybe I should get my ass of the couch and go to that Valley Pride meeting tonight. It occurs to me that maybe I should start weaving myself into the rich Queer and Pagan communities here in my hometown. What a novel idea, don't make another community Mecca in my mind, instead start building paradise with my own hands, here in the Valley.
I can't count the times I've bemoaned living in a rural area with no sense of community. I see the same sentiment echoed in the webpages and message groups I read. I'm tired of "seeking", instead I want to start knowing.
So I heave myself out of introspection, grab the car keys and drive to Wolfville to that Valley Pride meeting. I love winter, it gives me the time to sit on the couch and look inward, and take the year in review. I just need to remember to act on the insights that come out of this time.
