Who am I? You can call me Angel. Some of you will know me, some will not. It doesn't really matter. I am a woman and I am bisexual. I could be anyone in your life : your friend, your neighbor, your cousin, your aunt, your sister, your lover, even your mother. Does that offend you? I hope not. That is not my intention. You see, for everyone in my life I either am or hope to be one of those things.
It took me a long time for me to admit that I was bisexual, that I was attracted to women as well as men. I do not mean that it took me a long time in coming out. I can't say that I have fully done that, or that I ever will. It wasn't because of a socail stigma or the thoughts that it was wrong. It just didn't cross my mind. Or, not in that way.
I have never been homophobic or really cared what another's sexuality was. In fact I probably knew people who were gay before I knew what the term meant. I had friends who were gay. I even had a few women make passes at me. I always brushed them off. You can do what you want, but that's not for me. No, thank you.
Not what you expected to here, huh? Well, there's more. All people grow, change and learn knew things about themselves. You see it wasn't that I wasn't attracted to women, or not interested, more that I hadn't admitted it to myself.
I've always looked at women and thought. "She's beautiful; she's attractive. I wonder what it is like for her in bed with him. I wonder what she does when she is alone at night." *blushing* It wasn't a matter of sex, I was just a very open individual. I was very comfortable with my own sexuality. Nothing more to it, right? Wrong.
An actress was sexy and watching her turned me on. It happens to everyone right? I am hanging out with my best friend, who is very innocent and very beautiful and get a little thrill when she asks me questions about sex. That is just because I am like a big sister to her, sharing my knowledge. Later, when we talk of her and her husband having sex, my interest is just that of a friend, right? On some level all of these things are true, even mostly true. I am not a monster and I really do care about my friend as a "big sister", but I also find her attractive.
It actually took another, slowly breaking down my walls and learning my fantasies to help me realize the truth. We are lovers, but more importantly he is my best friend. He is the one who not only helped me realize it was alright, but actually teases me and encourages me to get out there and find a girlfriend (or boyfriend), but to not be afraid of what I need or want. Because of his support I can honestly say, "Yes, I am bisexual." Yes, I have had lovers of both sexes, and I hope to continue to do so in the future. I am a bisexual woman and this is my confession......
Confessions:
12 Jun 00 | For My Visitors | |
13 Feb 99 | The Eyes of a Child | |
13 Feb 99 | State of Confusion | |
13 Feb 99 | Standing at the Door | |
17 Feb 99 | One at a Time, Please | |
24 Mar 99 | SWF ISO: The first step |
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Ask Angel: Ask me anything, suggest a topic for my next confession | ||
Chat With Angel and other Bisexual Women | ||
My Other Pages: Fan Fiction and other stuff | ||
Humour: The lighter side of sex | ||
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