It feels like my world is crashing down around my shoulders.
Ever since my parents split up, I've been the strong one -
Always crying in the dark, alone.
With a family of my own now, it's hard for me to see.
I can't seem to find a way to keep my emotions in check.
I rage over small thins,
Yell over little details.
Still, always crying in the dark, alone.
I love my husband dearly,
And my children more than life itself.
The pressure is becoming too much.
I guess all th time I've spent in the dark alone
Has made it hard for me to show anyone my tears.
Every time I start to cry when someone is around,
I find myself fighting the tears and becoming angry at myself
For being weak and foolish.
Then I end up crying in the dark, alone.
I don't know how to change it,
I'm not sure I could, even if I did know.
I want to tell my lover how I feel,
But I was always the strong one.
Left at home alone when my sister was in an emergency.
I was rarely ever allowed to share in the crisis.
Almost always left home alone to tough it out,
And always crying in the dark, alone.
I guess this writing helps me out some,
But when will the next time come
To be always crying in the dark, alone?

Written: February 23, 1998

List of Poems

A Child
Worth The Price
Our Love
Nature's Song
The Angel
That Long Ago Night
Today
Sometimes
Just Let Go

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