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Thanks to the many people who have contributed to the guestbook. The guestbook has been growing exponentially lately and it makes for some of the most compelling reading on the site. I have split the guestbook again - it now takes up five pages:
- current guestbook (this page)
- 22 December 1999 to 21 February 2000
- 1 October 1999 to 21 December 1999
- 7 January 1999 to 28 September 1999
- before January 1999
The views expressed here do not necessarily agree with my own.
- 11/16/00 18:44:55
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- 11/16/00 18:44:53
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K. Allen - 11/09/00 22:44:49
My Email:notoriousgrant87501@yahoo.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): mns search engine
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Your web-page is filled with gripping content. I am writing a book about children heroin. I think this is a topic long overdue. Do you have any requests for book content, things kids should defintely know before its too late?
Warren Hardy - 11/06/00 20:16:02
My Email:whardy@doc.state.vt.us
Suggestions for the page.: Keep it going!
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): search engine
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Many individuals who have never been addicted to anything can't possibly understand the weight and power of addiction, whether it gambling, drugs, cigarettes, pornography, sex, alcohol, or anything else for that matter. To criticize an addict and say, "Ge a life, just stop!" is so unfair. It would be like telling someone with cancer to "get a life" or "get over it", "stop letting the cancer bother you and go do something fun." There are many addictive personalities in the world and the wise ones know when they gotten into some activity that could prove to be addict. That could even be video games. The smart ones quit before it's too late. That is not always the case with s bstance addiction. For many individuals once it has you, you have no control. Society needs to be less critical of the unfortunate soles that have become addicted, particually those soles trying to maintain sobriety. At least they are trying!
? - 11/04/00 06:12:18
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): SEARCH ENGINE
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GOOD IDEA O PRESENT PEOPLES THOUGHTS ON THEIRE FORMER OR PREVIOUS ADDICTIONS BUT WE NEED NOT NO THERE TROBLES AS MUCH AS WE NEED FACTS IF YOU GIVE STATS AND PICTURES THIS MAY HELP PREVENT THIS PROBLEM MANY PEOPLE ARE FACED WITH EVERYDAY THINK ABOUT IT!
lisbeth west - 10/19/00 10:05:32
My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/lisbethduck
My Email:lisbethduck@yahoo.com
Suggestions for the page.: you are flowin in the Tao, babe, don't ask a tree what a rose should do
Relevant URL's: I have had your url linked in my pages and have had many comments about the depth and mind-changing power of your site
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): dunno originally, now from my site
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Hey babe, last time I signed this was back in march or so, and I was still high on the recovery thing with five years clean. Well, have had many serious disease and syndrome and this itis and this otis since then. Can't walk without forearm crutches (feel like the doc in ER when I use just one in the house) or am in wheelchair for mobility if its for any length of time (best ofice chair I have ever had, I will say!). Needless and needleless to say, I don't get around much anymore. So here is the works. The docs have me on benzos and opiates and damned if they aren't right that I need them for pain but I am in a fucking love/hate relationship with ALL of it right now. When I nod a bit, I get really pissed or when I feel high, I get resentful. I didn't work five years of recovery to end up being told I am going to take opiates and benzos for the rest of my life ! Shit, before I finally got on medicaid, the "prescription" drugs cost me 5x more than if I had hit the streets to score. But I didn't. Now I am getting all that money reimbursed through the system.. Ain't that a bit of an irony , hmmm. What I know is that I never want to stick a needle in my arm. The oxycodone doses seem to be going up and I know the feeling. Tried not to take some for a day and was kicking by 5 PM. So now I feel imprisoned. And pissed off. We live in the mountains and have geese, ducks, dogs, this fall a doe and her twin babies have settled in at the edge of our meadow and we see her almost daily--she looks in our eyes so clearly and magically... The point is, there isn't a flat spot on the whole property, all slopes downward into rolling groves and meadows. Beautiful, but I can't go out running around or gardening or even taking a walk without canes, chair, and feeling this cloud over my head like I used to when I was "out there". Hell, now I am still considered clean, by the standards me, my higher power, my sponsor and the fellowhip hold. But fuck the clean date--everytime I go out to enjoy my world we've worked so hard to carefully share with nature--I feel loaded and I don't fucking believe in clean days any more. So here I am in the angry state of the mourning for the health I took for granted. I use this computer as a freedom highway, to connect and keep busy and work with all kinds of folks toward convincing ourselves of this or of that.... What a change from my yipee skipee posting a few months ago. But I think I'd rather be feeling the world like this than in the clouds like I was before. Hell, ya look on my Yahoo profile and find my quote is: "When the heart weeps for what it's lost, the Spirit laughs for what it's gained." So I go on, Taoist from aged ten or so, knowing my way is just, the path of the Tao. The feelings come up and I try to get them out. Y'know what? I feel a lot better. Thanks for listening. may we remain balanced on our path toward discovery, lisbeth
simon - 10/17/00 02:35:07
My Email:get better info
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): links
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it is good but i thought your bioghraphy was very uninformative and could do a lot more with what was there.
betty s - 10/16/00 16:33:55
My Email:epsaklas@aol.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): mie
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Seaching as a mother of a 31 yr old daughter, recovering herion addict on meth one year after trying many avenues to stay clean. Methadone Information Exchange led me to this site. Have to brouse a bit before I have a comment. Betty
Jeremiah McDonald - 10/16/00 11:05:40
My Email:unsomnabulist@hotmail.comComments:
i am 23 years old - recovering addict - 11 months clean - got off cold turkey day before thanksgiving 99 - if you are interested in correspondence please email me - i didn't get a chance to check out your whole site but i assure you that i will
kenny morrison - 10/16/00 06:03:47
My URL:http://www.funktography.com
My Email:vicariousliver@earthlink.net
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): excite search engine
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I AM AN ACTOR RESEARCHING HEROIN ADDICTION FOR A ROLE. I'M LOOKING FOR A PERSON OR WEBSITE THAT CAN SHARE SOME GRITTY STORIES WITH ME. ANY SUGGESTIONS OR HELP WOULD BE APPRECIATED ALOT. THANK YOU! KENNY MORRISON VENICE BEACH, CALIFORNIA, USA 310.821.4789
- 10/13/00 13:47:44
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leviathan darkside - 09/06/00 16:44:23
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Okay sorry, and I forgot: addressing the judgemental, stigma creating mongoloids who are talking shit about this posting area. to the girl who was raped and had severe hardships but never 'turned' to drugs: I will make you understand. You could never comprehend what it is like, and words will not explain the depth of addiction. Just like I wouldn't ask you to try to make me understand being raped. Unless it has been done to you there is no way to grasp its d pth or ferocity. To the champion who says there is no reason to have this site, it makes him sick, blah fucking blah: Have you ever heard of Narcotics anonymous? Do you think that's evil. There are support groups for every addiction possible. I am sure you need a cup of coffee when you wake up or you smoke a pack a day of cigarettes. CIVILIZATION WAS BUILT ON ADDICTION. ou must return to your midwest bible chapel and talk about shipping minorities out of the country. Brain tumored redneck. suck my scarred arms.
Leviathan Darkside - 09/06/00 16:35:20
My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/leviathan_darkside
My Email:levtriplesix@hotmail.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): typing heroin in a search engine
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This site is great. I was on methadone maintenance for 6 years, a high dosage. I can relate to all of the nightmare stories as I have been through many of those. One of which in particular - a 40 year old woman was told 'she had to move from her negative nvironment' or she'd be kicked off of maintenance. Gestapo anyone? what the fuck is that? Legalize it for prescription by doctors. Backwards ass USA. Well as for my own journey through addiction, I was fortunate enough to be able to do the 'rapid opiate detox' where you "kick in your sleep". I felt like I got run over by a fucking 18 wheeler when I woke up. It sucked. I was feeling dope sick for weeks. I didn't sleep for 2 months. However, it was more mild than the withdrawal I felt after trying to kick methadone cold turkey. After doing everything from pimping to robberies I am clean. But I will always be an addict. Ok. You caught me, I did it a couple weeks ago. But don't tell. yeah whatever. Shit at least I don't have to deal with the SS Clinics anymore. leviathan triple six darkside
ashley - 09/06/00 16:22:13
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): yahoo
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I used to use and i think that you sharing your story is really cool, i am not on methadone but have friends who are and i do think it helps,luckily i have been able to overcome on my own . Keep it up .
Richard - 07/27/00 05:28:39
My Email:accbowmus@aol.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): Friend recommended it to me
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I've found a lot of interesting and useful information from this Website. Thankyou.
Diane Marie - 07/20/00 18:54:29
My Email:rudrunty@centurytel.net
Suggestions for the page.: Add http://www.ARM-advocates.org/ and http://opioids.com/refs/index.html to wwwlinks page.
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): altavista.com
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I just wanted to say there are all kinds of abstracts re the opiates (methadone, LAAM, etc.) at http://opioids.com/refs/index.html You might want to add opioids.com to your WWWlinks page We need to get a petition drafted and posted on the internet for all US citizens to sign petitioning the US government to allow private physician prescribing of methadone, NOW! not 20yrs from now. Here's a USA methadone advocacy site. Odus, who gave you the articles about opiates and depression, is here. http://www.ARM-advocates.org/ You might want to add ARM to your WWWlinks page. Methadone gave me life where as before, sense age 11, I've been depressed/social phobic/AD non-hyper. Never held a job till I was on Methadone. I now unfortunately live 100miles from the nearest MMT. So I am off methadone and back to being the livingdead. I'm waiting to hear if I can obtain the below paper. If I get it I'll be sure and pass it on to you and anybody else. I know it's an old article but cripe! there ain't much out there with regards to methadone and depression. Dr. Jay A. Goldstein Methadone for depression. Biol Psychiatry. 1984 Aug;19(8):1272-3. PMID: 6498249; UI: 85047372 Dr Goldstein has a website http://www.drjgoldstein.com/frames/05articles.html He uses methadone (too) in treating Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. The point is, he's not opiodphobic. Thanks Diane Oregon, USA
michael - 07/12/00 03:13:31
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Thanks for the encouragement Joy, i am still finding my way around the site, I will definately continue to contribute. Must confess I made that last posting while high. Funny isn't it how so often the occasions when you think you've got it whipped are when you're whipped under it's influence. Strange too that I feel more commited to be honest with this invisible audience after all the barefaced lies I've told the to the faces I've people I've loved. One thing I've always thought about smack is that it speaks to you in your own voice. You can kind of sense a stoned thought or a coke thought but gear is like some genius virus, a metciluos parasite that wants to stay inside you and tells you in a perfect copy of the sound of your own sincerity that that's the way things should be. Sometimes it's hard to believe it wasn't invented. Anyway, enough speculation, will write more when I've found the appropriate area of the site, for which thanks again Rose. Onward
joy - 07/10/00 04:02:13
My Email:joybbellw@telestra.easymail.com.auComments:
Dear Michael, (previous writer) I was interested to read your posting, Rose has a list where we interact with each other (not chat, by mail) I think you would be an interesting contributor, there is somewhere on this site advising how to join. God Bless You thanks Rose for all your efforts to help others regards Joy
michael - 07/10/00 03:49:33
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): metacrawler
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I am in the process of reading through the guestbook and intend to write at gretare length when I have done so. In the meantime I would like to say well done for engineering and maintaining such a crucial site. A forum like this offering discretion and honesty is of inestimable value to anyone caught up in this business. i've been using (in the uk) for almost a decade now, though I only ever smoke and snort don't let 'em kid you you can't get a habit! I've had a decent one for about the last 18 months though I find I can kick for up to two weeks at a time, i've had just about enough of it and am steeling myself for "the big push" towards total abstinence, as a result of which I found this site. I am a professional writer/journalist and intend to kick without "formal" ie chemical, NA assistance, even writing this now I feel the benefits of just speaking honestly about it. One of the great self perpetuating tragedies of addiction to this drug is that it's "pariah" status limits the amount of genuine, clear discourse there can be about it. Anyway, inspired by your site I will set myself up a discreet e mail address, re visit his guets book and then set up discpurse with anyone willing to share in my efforts and staring this f**king too too powerful chemical in the face, or who just wants to talk about it. Meantime god bless us
joanne - 05/25/00 04:19:41
My Email:joeboschman@hotmail.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): health links
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this web page was amazing i was search for info for a uni assignment but found so much more you have done an amazing job with this web site and your recovery you should be very proud
- 05/18/00 20:55:21
Suggestions for the page.: more info
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): yahoo
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First, thank you for putting this page together. I have been looking for a page like this for a long time... I would like to briefly state my story, as we all have stories to share, but maybe mine is a little different. I started using when I moved in wi h my best friend and her siblings. Her eldest brother is an addict and turned me on heroin. The first time I used was an accident. I was told it was cocaine. I have tried every other drug and at that time was open to trying heroin, but not ready for i . The first time was horrible and beautiful. I was sick as a dog, throwing up, etc., but I did feel the delights of being high. After that I started asking for it, and got what I wanted. I was able to keep it at an occasional level, but...it soon beca e a daily thing. Like other people who have posted messages, I too was diagnosed with depression 7 years ago and since that time have been on antidepressants. I cannot imagine a life without my prozac. Heroin is able to supplement the antidepressants i a way that makes me in to a more efficient and productive person. I want to stop, know I should, have talked with my doctor, but cannot. I gives me too much benefit. I am a student and in the semesters that I have been using, and this last term I have made the deans list, part of the honors program, and thus, able now to do an undergraduate honors thesis work, internships, etc. It saddens me to know the current state of my life, the daily dependence that I have and share with my antidepressants. But ust as I know I am taking chemicals in to my body, they seem to fine-tune me in to a better person. My lack of absence is not helped by the fact that my lover is also an addict, but in worse condition. It runs his life and he is unable to accomplish man things. I just wanted to say that there is a different side to addiction. Yes, it is bad because my life is dictated by a controlled substance, but it has done the opposite of ruining my life. I plan to attend graduate school in the next years and fea that I will be unable to complete a Ph.D. program without the substance. My usage was something that I could better control, and stop for a few days, then return. But I am at the state of daily dependence, fear of withdrawals, and ready to take a suppl with me on my upcoming vacation overseas with my mom. For anyone who is reading this far and is curious about trying, someone who has tried other drugs, I can say that heroin is different. It is something to be careful of, different from any other drug (except crack) when making people unable to describe their own behavior. Someday I hope to find a life free of dependence, but for today and tomorrow, it has done wonderful things that i want to continue happening in my life. I know the risks I take whe I go to score, and when I open the foil and put a foreign power in my body and hope it real....but this is life for me, and a better life.
Liz - 05/16/00 17:28:09
My URL:http://dontwannagiveitout.com
My Email:l_wilson32@hotmail.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): Searc Engine
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To whoever does this page, I am sorry you ended up in a situation where your health was at stake, and you had some hard times. However, I think that is really pathetic you could not get over that disgusting heroin addiction. You may have been hooked, but ho's fault is it that you began? You just wanted a way out...and you had a family, good kids and a good husband. That sickens me you'd turn to a deadly drug. Then again... You should not make a webpage to share your grief and get support from others. You hould start your life over, and understand you MUST get over the drug before you can live and REALLY be happy again. Happy while your high on something you've injected into yourself is not really being happy - your brain is under the spell of a drug and y u aren't thinking straight.
HARRY - 05/14/00 23:21:51
My Email:tcyadlo@aol.com
Suggestions for the page.: GOD
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): searching for a cure
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Why was I powerless and so evil from a single compound, dope? Why does such an empty feeling and a selfish gratification controls and appeals so much? Why? if its so harmfull and deadly, destoying all that surrounds me,decaying my soul and body, Why can I block its so called high out of my life? Why do I care a hell of alot more about my recovery when Im high and less when Im sober? Why did the devil and I have all of these questions? God listoned and awnsered. The so called peacefull felling I would die for is the direct opposite of the peacefull feeling of saving my soul.
robin - 05/01/00 13:45:47
My Email:rec228@yahoo.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): search
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I really enjoyed reading your story. I have a boyfriend who is on herion. I really feel he needs more then just detox. i love him for the person i know he can be , the one he runs away from, becouse he is scared of reality. I myself do no drugs. But want othing more for him then to have a normal life as they call it.I am not even sure what a normal life is like, but i still hang on to the hope he will find an exceptable way of living as did you.i have been with him for over a year now & have been through lot. I am at my witts end.I have seen 2 of his friends die in the last 2 months from overdose.iI keep hopeing that i will never have to wittness his death as he has recenltly started shooting up in front of me. Very scarey for me not knowing if it will be the last time i get to be with him.I always feel i should tell him i love him before he does it.since we have been together he has tried a methodone clinic but not whole hearted becouse he would do herion after his methodone. Then he went to rehab did not say the full time discharged himself early went right back at it. Then a couple weeks ago he went to the hospital and told them he was going to kill himself if he did not get detox. he left there after4 days against the doctors advice and is useing again. If anyone reads this and wants to talk with me please do I could use some help. rec228@yahoo.com Thanks robin
Stephanie - 04/29/00 17:51:17
My Email:stpcampbell@netscape.net
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): hotbot
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I am so glad that people came over come this, I lived with a herion addict for 7 years, and have bee through hell and back, But my problem and I hope someone can help me is we had a daughter together, and she is now 6 since he left her behavior is so stra ge, and I know living with an herion addict dad has alot to do with it, he sold from her , and she so him almost die twice, so if anyone has any information I can use to help my child cope please email me. Thank you, Stephanie
Carlos Franco - 04/29/00 15:47:30
My URL:http://www.insidetheweb.com/mbs.cig/mb676767
My Email:Webmaster@FloridaMethadone.zzn.com
Relevant URL's: http://geocities.datacellar.net/franco33139ca.html
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): searching for methadone in Geocities
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Found you web site by mistake, kind of, you were in the last page of 10 of the geocities. When I asked them to search for "Methadone". I am a bit backwards. So I started from the back rather than view the first pages. I have 2 web sites in Spanish "Methadone En Español". And I am working on (seems like for ever) on Florida's Methadone Advocates". here in Geocities. But I have not loaded it yet. I keep finding errors or links I like to add to the page. I was not able to complet reading all.But like to let you know that I enjoyed what I completed reading. Made a copy and hope to return to see all of your internal links. By the way, are you a NAMA member or Chapter??? You see to be very well informed. Carlos
BRIAN NICOLAS - 04/28/00 05:06:27
Suggestions for the page.: NAH KEEP IT LIKE THIS
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): HOT BOT
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REALLY INTERESTING THANX FOR THE INFO I MIGHT START USING NOW!!
Flavio - 04/27/00 01:07:09
My URL:http://motorbeast.cjb.net
My Email:motorbeast@metallica.com
Suggestions for the page.: It`s good
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): search engine Alta Vista
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I`ve seen your page cause I want to know what will happend to me when I start doing it.I don`t know what`s going on but I think about it everyday.
Flavio - 04/27/00 01:05:12
My URL:http://motorbeast.cjb.net
My Email:motorbeast@metallica.com
Suggestions for the page.: It`s good
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): search engine Alta Vista
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caz - 04/20/00 00:08:36
My Email:tigger99uk@yahoo.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): search engine
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I am looking for advice really,but first of all congratulations,your story is inspiring. I am not an addict but my best friend is.Although she tells me that she is clean it is obvious that she isn't.Recently she spent the night with me and left very quickly in the morning.When I got up my b/f wallet was missing,she denies taking it but his cr dit cards have bben used. Since all this happened she has been sending me abusive messages and generally being nasty to me.I so want to help her get off the drug but I don't know how,it hurts me that my best friend could steal from me.
Jaclynne - 04/18/00 03:39:20
My Email:CLEANNSERENE121499@yahoo.com
Suggestions for the page.: METHODONE IS STILL CONSIDERED USING
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): Search Engine
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I'm in a halfway house in Florida right now...i suffer from heroin addiction which has kicked my ass royally for about 4 years now...i'm so scared to die...i'm moving back to Philadelphia after i leave this halfway house and i'm scared to death...also, if anyone reads this and knows of a girl named Jesse Sheard **AKA Jessie the Junglist** can you please please tell that girl to go to detox and clean herself up? i'm afraid she's gonna die and not be lucky enough to experience what i have experienced these last 4 months and that is : NOT WAKING UP EVERY DAY SICK AS A FUCKIN DOG...NOT GOING TO JAIL ANYMORE...NOT HATING MYSELF AS MUCH...NOT STICKING DIRTY NEEDLES IN MY KNEES, ARMS, AND LEGS...i've found the answer in NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS...NOT METHADONE altou h i did use it to kick...i'm clean now and my clean day started the day i got off the meth...i'm not happy now with my life, but i'm a hella lot happier than i was 4 months ago, that's for damn sure...MUCH LOVE AND RESPECT TO EVERYONE TRYING THIS NEW WAY F LIFE!!!!! JACCI SMITH 21y/o Female from Philadelphia area
Colleen - 04/16/00 13:19:26
My Email:cynicalgrace@hotmail.com
Suggestions for the page.: Pictures
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): Friends bookmark
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Hi, very interesting. I think you're very brave revealing your life to people on the net, however I think you should be credited for doing so because it's part of the learning process for society. Maybe people will read this if they are inquisitive but usually wouldn't bother for fear of someone knowing. This way they can look and learn all they want without incriminating themselves. Whilst I have been involved with drugs (not to that extent) I find it almost unbelievable what you and many others have been through. Perhaps this is because I have lived a fairly sheltered life, but by the same token, If I wasn't so inquisitive and hadn't seen what I have and experienced what I have, then I know I would not be any better off than what I am now. Thanks for the experience! Colleen
Deana - 04/16/00 03:49:45
My Email:brimgray@gateway.net
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): heroin search
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I am not a heroin addict, neither have I taken any type of illegal drug, I can count the times I have drank on one hand. I am however fascinated by people who are addicted. I cant understand why-I read your story I read where you went from taking pills a d drinking to shooting up! Why? What would make you do something like that? Who had such an impact on you that would make you want to do that? I have been to Hell and back, I've been abused, raped just dogged out-but never has it made me want to take dru s, it has never even been an option. Can you help me understand, what would make you want to be so depended on something-needing so badly that you risk your child's life? I honestly dont understand. Is it that good? Is it that wonderful!? Help me please< r>
Lori Bailey-Smith - 04/16/00 03:19:16
My Email:Rnlharris@aol.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): dogpile
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This is my first search for Heroin addiction imformation. I just learned today that my 20 year old brother (14 years younger than me). is an addict. He is in his third detox. All that is going on is extremely over whelming. I commend you on your successes. L
Donna and Larry Gobble - 04/14/00 10:02:42
My Email:wompus@mounet.com
Suggestions for the page.: I think you are doing an excellent job!
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): MIE site
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I just visited your site and I truly enjoyed it. I like tha way that it gives a view from an addicts life. Methadone maintenance treatment saves lives and your site helps to stress that.. Donna and Larry Gobble P.S. We are 2 people saved by methadone t eatment..
- 04/14/00 00:01:19
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Steve R. - 04/13/00 19:53:30
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): from the MIE site
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I am just glad to have found this site.
Larry Finucan - 04/13/00 12:53:20
My Email:Niagara629@aol.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): a friend suggested it
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Simply that I to am bi-polar. The only mediation that I take is the Methadone. For whatever reason the meth seems to mitigate the mood swings. I live in Pittsburgh Pa. and take care of a four year old son every day while his mother works. He has known me nly clean except for six weeks a couple of yeara ago when I went back out. There is no adjective to describe the demonic and destructive power of heroin once the cycle is started again. As much as I love that child when I had that relapse I took chances w th him in the car to cop that defy logic and love. take care
Barbara - 04/13/00 11:48:05
My Email:BCorvelli@aol.com
Suggestions for the page.: None, GREAT site
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Amazing story. Familiar story. Engaging story. My story. I endured my depression until I was 36 years old. I sat in a therapists office for 12 of those years, all to no avail. Then, one day, a doc prescribed me some Codiene. My world changed. I was normal. I could cope. The the doc took away my codiene. I died inside. I found a nice long term heroin addict to be my best companion. He taught me all the ropes. I surpassed him ten fold in street wisdom. I kept up with the most seasoned users. No more depression, but now pending death. The "cuts" they added were deadly. In the States, Adolfs Meat Tenderizer is the cut of choice. My ex husband committed suicide. I prayed to stop, I had one child to raise. She couldn't lose me too. One day, out of nowhere, I stopped. A miracle, an unimaginable miracle because I never wanted to quit, although I intellectually knew I had to and was dying. My daughter needed me. I've been clean (on Methadone) 5 years now, and have detoxed from 95 mgs to 15 mgs I have a lot of fear of getting off, as the depression may return. I'm 48 years oldComments:
I am on Meth I have been on meth, for around 25years now I dont think I am getting off any time soon if someone wants to email me just be discreet b/c no one knows that I am on meth and my son uses the computer alot not that he reads my email just being c reful.
Diff - 04/12/00 22:29:51
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I've read a few of the comments from non-users, school kids etc. and it has struck me that we are viewed as a separate species, and I suppose we are different in a way because of the amount of time, money and effort we are forced to devote to out habits. First of all I'd like to point out that heroin addiction isn't like smoking or something. It is truely a physical addiction. For all the people doing a project at school I'd just like to give you a little insight into my life. I am a 27 yr old female addi t with a first class degree in International Politics. At about 7 am I wake up with a blow torch to my skull, my skin creeping, sweating and shaking. If its a bad day and I've got no heroin in the house I'll normally get up and watch telly for a while whi e the horrid "stuff" runs down my throat, my eyes are running,my nose is running. I'll try and clear my throat, very carefully because it makes me vomit. I'm normally sick. Most dealers don't get up and about til the afternoon so I have to suffer. At abou 12 I'll start making phone calls. Eventually, if I'm lucky, I'll find some heroin and I've drive the 20 mile trip to go and pick it up. I normally have to wait around, and this is the worst time. For more info listen to Lou Reed - "I'm waiting for my man he's never early, he's always late. First thing you learn is that you've always got to wait...." Then I go to some safe place and cook up and stick it in the only vein I can find. Junkies suffer with sunken veins - you have to rotate usage! Today I put on the torniquet to tight and I popped the main vein in the crook of my arm, which really pissed me off. Then I go to work. I work an 8.5hr shift, 5 days in 7. I get home. If I've saved gear I either smoke it if I'm feeling patient or I jack it up. I'll get in the bath to jack up because I need the heat to bring a vein up. Maybe it's hard to understand the true depth of the physical addiction. "Clucking" is unbearable. You puke, you shit, you ache, the agitation is horrendous. Watch Trainspotting. Ewan McGregor does a great cluck. It can last in total up to ten days and eve then you feel run down for a while. The reason why it's so hard to give up is that you do have an option. You don't have to feel that way. You can be puking your arse up one minute and feel like you're in heaven the next in the amount of time it takes to depress a syringe. Ask yourself. What would you do? I don't desrve to be treated like I'm shit merely because I have sensors in my brain that crave a very small but expensive amount of brown powder that happens to be illegal. I risk 6 years in prison every time I score and I score every day. I have a home, a family, a boyfriend, a job, a degree. I'm pretty normal but I feel like an outcast. I forgot to mention - I take drugs because they are fun. I love opiates. They are the best feeling your're ever likely to get, but societies intolerance o it not only fucks up your life but kills people as street gear is really unreliable. This is my soap box for the day. It's the end of my shift, I've got stomach cramps - early cluck! So I'm going to stick a needle in my arm. My sweet lover has already lo ded the gun...
Tiffany a.k.a Persilla - 04/12/00 16:12:22
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Great place i love it soooo much. Thanx for putting it up
my name is lisbeth and i am an addict - 04/12/00 06:23:50
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thank you for this incredible experience.... as a recovering addict, i am always searching for links to my site, "a safe place for addicts, members of the gay community, and all ducks. (yes, i raise ducks) all who read this are encouraged to view my site and send feedback, positive or constructive... getting clean has given me lost dreams awakened. i have found another sister in my family of recovery. i am home. much love to all who read this—take time to wander through this amazing view through an addict's eyes. may we all follow our path toward healing and serenity. having whatever day i am meant to have, and greeting it with love, lisbeth w.
Dana Blume - 04/11/00 15:18:39
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Ithought it sucked thanks
jami - 04/10/00 19:21:10
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this was very interesting to read i'm doing a report for school on heroin and this helped me out alot thanx and i'm proud of you.
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Alicia - 04/08/00 17:16:43
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i don't know anyone who is a heroin addict, but i am doing a school project on it. Your page was very informative, and i gathered a lot of info here. I think it's great that you put personal experiences on the web, for the help of others. If i ever meet s meone who is an addict, i will tell them about this page. Thanks again, Alicia
BILL S. (U.S.A.) - 04/08/00 11:59:57
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3 years on MMT...and I still find myself looking for fellow survivors who are as dedicated as you apparently are in spreading the truth and smashing through the bullshit! By the way...in addition to surviving a twenty years-long heroin and assorted opiate s) habit...along with all of the hell which accompanied it (excepting- through pure luck and grace- never having crossed paths with the cops)...and FINALLY finding my way onto a local MMT pgm- I'm also on the other side of the fence, as I'm a psychiatric ocial worker! It makes for an "interesting" life...however one which doesn't allow me the kind of vehement self-expression regarding MMT which I'd choose to engage in if I could. Thank you for doing this service for all of us who can't (won't?). Bill S. America
14f - 04/07/00 21:57:13
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Im only 14, and I live with my mutual addict father. I cant be bothered by this because hes "successful" in a material sense, and I too am addicted to heroin. I want to quit, I want to be straight and respected. But the problem is, I cant do this descr tely. In your story, methadone sounds great, and I feel pretty moved. Do you know if the clinics records are confedential? Im very scared; Im sick of living such an aimless depressing life, and like you said, I feel like a third class citizen. I was u ing for 1 1/2 years, then I tried to quit. The days of withdrawal I had passed out a sufficient amount of times, at school the majority. I told everyone I had scarlet fever. Got by without smack for four months, clean and beyond repair, depressed. Jus recently on the poppies again. Even worse, Im in debt, which threatens my father inexplicably. Im sorry Im telling you this, I just have no one. All clean people I know would set me aside, as theyve done with others. All other junkies dont set forth o quit, that I know of. So Im trapped. Shooting up 6 ml pure a day (with water in 3 intervals). If you could please give me a suggestion. Im tired of hiding from this terrible world. Thank you for your time. Also, are you aware if methodone treatmen s would be government funded for a minor?
stace - 04/07/00 01:39:23
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Hi I've been involved with heroin addicts in one way or another all my adult life ( maybe even before).. I applaud what you're doing and was glad to have found your site.. it was a refreshing change to clinical jargin etc.. keep up the good work.. a day a t a time!
Michele Bush - 04/06/00 16:28:04
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vanessa - 04/06/00 11:24:49
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dear rose great page i have tried to email you with my story and a chat but cant for some reason please contact me on jorgo@net2000.com.au i eagerly await youre reply thanks yours vanessa xxx
jezebel - 04/06/00 07:14:53
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All i can say is "thank you"!I am grateful to see so many of my beliefs, shared by someone on the other side of the world! Allthough i fear the opposite is happening, due largely to archiac attitudes about drug addiction, and the acceptance of the 12-step model of treatment as the only way to deal with it, sites like this give me hope that cooler heads may, someday prevail. I am an intelligent, sensitive person who is addicted to heroin. I am sick to death of the attitude that my addiction is a moral problem rather than a medical (or legal?) one. You are a very special person for putting the work into providing this site as an alternative to the idiocy that surrounds this issue!
toybox - 04/05/00 06:30:11
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One thing I don't get is that are u still a heroin addict? Doesn't the drug affect your children? And if you are still a heroin addict, do you take the drug in front of your family?
Fleur - 04/04/00 23:57:18
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I signed up to the internet to try and help keep myself occupied. However, I have just finished my methatdone, Britlofex and Naltrexone courses so this is more or less the first time in years I have any sense of interest about anything. I think your web page is an excellent idea and it is extremely comforting to know that I am not all alone! Nice one
Fleur - 04/04/00 23:52:52
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vanessa - 04/04/00 09:09:37
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hi fellow users i have finally found someone to talk to i to have been carrying the load for 14 years and have tried cold turkey ,methadone,home detox and have just last week waisted 3000 dollars on rapid detox after 18 rohypnol and still kept waking i to k my naltrexone and several antidepressants which gave me worse side effects than hanging out i slipped and am now back where i was and 3000 poorer i am now going to try 2 catapress 2 hourly for 5 days and get back on naltrexone god i hope i can do it i h ve had enough.......has anyone else been here with rapid detox???nice to meet you please email me on jorgo@net2000.com.au catch ya soon xxxxx
Marcel - 04/04/00 08:09:27
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Hi, i was just looking for infromation on heroin for a school project and stumbled across your site. I'm still reading your autobiography, and it has changed my view of addicts somewhat. I hope the treatment program is successful for you, you are obviously a ery strong-willed person, and you deserve to be able to continue the life you're leading now. I admire waht you've done with your site, i hope many other people take from your site that which i did, understanding.
gil johnson - 04/03/00 19:26:08
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Hello, my name is Gilbert, I am 31, male ,American Indian, addict/alcoholic and clean and sober goin on 3 years. I am currently goin to school here in california ,u.s.a .on the soboba indian reservation i am studying to become a drug and alcohol counselor.I sually look for information for my schooling and i found this site which is a very good one.I can relate to this site because i've been strung out,on methadone,escaped death numerous times, lost my homes and possesions,family and been to prison. i myself ave friends that have died, or in and out of prison or recovery some are doin life sentences, i am happy to see something like this site here,because you are helping and educating others of this disease. Hopefully they can see through the eyes of the "jun ie" and feel and know what kind of hell we put ourselves through. keep up the faith !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just me - 04/03/00 16:12:59
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I'm not an addict, however, i recently fell in love with a man who has been on dope for three years. He's been clean for several months, but when he told me i was filled with trepidation, "will he relapse?" it turns out i have a great deal to learn about he power of the drug. i wish i could be stronger. i felt, the first time he went for days without calling me, that it was something i had done to turn him off...i felt like it was my fault he was depressed, didn't feel comfortable with his surroundings. i felt like there was something i should have done better in the relationship to make him happy...but i wasn't heroin. that's all there was to it. i couldn't make him feel that high. he's out of my life now, though not in spirit, and i miss him dearly. he's moved and i fear he's using again...i'll never know. i've been trying to educate myself about what he's been through, and it all brings such sadness to me. i feel so helpless right now, all i want is to help him, but i can't, he has to help himself. he's old me the worst part about telling people you're an addict is the stigma attached, the "poor baby" looks, the incredulous stares, the feeling like people think you're infected with AIDS, or that you are useless...however, i don't feel like i can do anyth ng to help him, i just want him to feel okay. i've been struggling with the notion that he may never be okay...that at any time he could relapse,and i don't understand the way the drug works...i feel the most terrible part of addiction is the depression a ter not using...he doesn't believe in himself, he doesn't think he's good enough for anything. he's lonely without his habit. i want to say i think it's amazing that you have this site up for others to read your story. i think there are many people in the same position i'm in, where they want to help a loved one, but don't feel they can, don't know how. i hope someday i will come together with my friend again, and i hope the best for him if he ever visits here and reads this. this has been very cathartic f r me...thank you a million times over. Please email me if you'd like.
Melissa - 04/02/00 07:49:26
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I wish I had comments right now, but at this time, I have questions. I discovered today that my boyfriend of over 2 years is using heroin. I don't know if he's addicted or not, but after finding out he's used it, and after reading much of your writings, I realized that I've seen symptoms and didn't know I was seeing them. I realized that if he's been home for a while (maybe a day or two, without going anywhere) he feels "under the weather". He sometimes sweats profusely when he sleeps. This is all ver recent. He's a former addict of everything, and still battles a crack addiction, which he pretty much quit cold-turkey. It's been a long, hard relationship, one which I've threatened to wash my hands of so many times. I often want to break it off with him, but then feel guilty because I know he'd turn to heavy using without me. He's been in and out of rehab since he was 17. His parents call me his guardian angel sometimes, and I really want to help him, but most of the time he's always lies about eve ything he's doing. I'm pretty good at just looking at him and knowing whether he's doing it or not, but it gets so tiring and frustrating. I'm becoming a complete and utter bitch to him, even though I love him dearly. I find myself looking for signs co stantly. I track him down, follow him, count money, ask him for receipts... I feel like I've lost my mind over this whole thing. It seems a losing battle on my part. I've tried so hard to help him, and I'm losing ground. He finally sat down with me nd told me about his crack problem, which really relieved me so much. We worked through it, and it took about a year, but he's gotten over it mostly. He still thinks about it constantly, but he's not doing that, I'm positive. But it's a never-ending th ng with him. He's got to have some sort of crutch. Whether it's alcohol or drugs, it's got to be something. Sometimes I think I need more help than he does, because I've become obsessed with helping him. He loves me, which is why he does so much to he p himself, but I wonder if he's only doing it for me, and not for him. I don't like to think of it that way. As far as the heroin problem--how long does it take for someone to become addicted, and how do I get him to admit he's using it? I know he is, ut he refuses to admit it. His best friend is the biggest junkie you've ever seen, and I predict he'll be dead in the next 2 years. I don't want my honey to go away. How can I help him without suffocating him and taking total control of him? He wants e to trust him and let him take care of it on his own, but I know that's not going to work with him. I didn't want this to get so long, but I'm having such a hard time coping with all this. I have 4 children who love him dearly, and we would like to be married sooner or later. I try to picture the future with him, and all I see is heartache and pain an the past repeating itself over and over. I myself aren't the addictive type, I guess. I've tried quite a few things in my lifetime (never heroin-the horror stories kept me away from it), but the effects always seemed to scare me away from doing anythin twice. Can you give me any advice? I love him, and don't want to leave him, but it's turning my family upside-down. I nearly lost my house because of his habits, and it's tearing everyone apart. He has so many people who love him, and now he thinks I don't love him because of my behavior (always asking where he's been, with whom, not trusting, tracking him down, etc...)Not being able to trust him has made me an extreme basket case. I went from this passive, laid-back, happy-go-lucky, never worried ab ut anything, always had my bills paid, totally trusting, sane person to a raging lunatic, determined to overthrow this thing that's inside him with everything I can muster, and now to a depressed person myself, wondering whether being without him is the o ly option to make myself happy again. I know he needs my support, but if he won't accept it, what do I do? I want him to recover. I do. I'm just at the point where I can't take his problem anymore, even though I know if I walk away from him it will ma e it worse. I know he needs me more than ever, and the thought of him going even more down hill is what makes me stay, aside from the fact that I love him with all my heart. How do I help him, without going insane? What do you need your loved ones to d for you?
Sophia Holt - 04/01/00 15:44:09
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good details and great description of the clothes and everthing GREAT JOB!
sam - 04/01/00 13:59:06
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I am currently doing a drugs project for school. My form teacher is very anti-drugs,and although he doesn't mean to, it influences us. Reading your website has made me realise a lot of things about addiction, and the people behind prejudices. I think you re (sadly) right about society turning its nose up at drug users, and the reasons and people who are under the influences of drugs are often forgotten in desperate parents attempts to protect their 'innocent' children. I wish you all the best with the met adone program and the site, and hope that other people can learn from your experieces. Thankyou for opening my eyes to the real story. Samantha*
Jennifer - 04/01/00 09:08:12
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Suggestions for the page.: I would like to hear more about the effects of the heroin. Never having done it myself, it is a fascination, to say the least
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Interesting story. Wonder how many others live "normal" lives on heroin. Probably more than people would imagine.
sarah - 04/01/00 05:32:49
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I found this site on search for a school project. You gave me a whole new level and I actually understood your side of things. You read things in the paper and it's all about the government and that- how it affects them, now I've got two sides. Thanks. Take Care.
Grant Anderson - 03/31/00 19:30:03
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Thank-you so much for helping me overcome my addiction to heroine. Without it I would be a poor miserable bastard. My boyfriend and I started experiamenting with heroine during intercourse. Nothing makes me feel as good as heroine, accept the touch of Steven. Thank-you once again, your addict, Grant L. Anderson.
- 03/30/00 23:51:12
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Dear Rose, Thanks so much for caring, you are an inspiration, I am a mum of an addict and want to tell other parents and loved ones about Families Annonymous a group to help loved ones stay afloat while living with the knowledge that our precious loved ones are h rting themselves, I recomend the group, with it and my relationship with God I am surviving fairly well, May God Bless You and your family always, thank you, thank you, thank you, congratulations, well done
bee - 03/30/00 12:08:03
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I read with interest your story and hope that one day my son can do something similar. I know that heroin addicts are living with a disease, that society shuns them but I also know that as a parent I feel so helpless and out of control of the situation I ave found myself in. The lies, the stealing, all that goes with the addiction I feel sorry for my son and his girlfriend who we have taken in and have been with us for 6 months but I am so far down that I have to start to look after myself or I wont be h re anymore. This addiction takes the life out of everyone who is associated with it. I have suggested that they try methadone but they are against it they say it is a handcuff - but what is heroin? I just wait every day for something different to happen and it always does. I find things missing, just about every day, the emotional ups and downs are incredible and sometimes I just think I will run away and try to get a new life but I cant because he is my son and I love and care for him and want him to b better. I speak to people about this I am not ashamed of him and not ashamed of this situation. If only more people would speak about this and show that it is something so many families go through and there is nothing to be ashamed of maybe one day the ovt. might see it differently too and pass some more positive legislation. Like legalising heroin - why give addicted methadone? they can give them heroin? Anyway I think you have an excellent site and I will encourage my son to read your story. Regards Bee
Paul Platt - 03/30/00 10:09:58
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29 year old morphine addict in wisconsin, usa
Kathy selvanera - 03/30/00 07:15:04
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I AM CURRENTLY DOING MY SOCIAL WORK HONOURS THESIS ON THE EXPERIENCE OF HEROIN DETOX, FROM THE EXPERIENCE OF THE USERS THEMSELVES. i LIKE WHAT YOU HAVE DONE AND YOU SHOW MUCH STRENGTH. GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR STUDIES. i HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY, BUT I KNOW YOU M ST BE VERY BUSY. I HOPE TO SO SOME SORT OF CRITIQYUE ON THE MEDICAL DOMINANCE THAT EXISTS WITH MMT. IN THAT IT DOES NOT PROPERLY TREAT THOSE INDIVIIDUALS GOING THROUGH WITHDRAWL - FOR MANY OF THE REASONS YOU HAVE MENTIONED. SEE YOU, FEEL FREE TO E MAIL ME SELKY001@STUDENTS.UNISA.EDU.AU
Rebecca - 03/28/00 05:17:33
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I thought this was a good page, sir, I wish you the best of luck on winning the battle over Heroin, One of my brother's died a few years back because of Heroin related problems. Another brother of mine is now in Prison 'coz of drug problems. I wish you he best of luck & I hope you keep faith 'coz I hate to say, I would probably be in the same boat my brother's are if I did not have God. Good luck.
bernadette - 03/27/00 17:01:49
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I am very happy that you would put such personal info. on the web. i feel that it can help someone who does not know what to do or that they feel they are alone. Right now I am doing a paper for school on heroin addiction. The reason why I picked this opic is because my boyfriend who i love dearly is a recovering addict. He has been off and on, and by reading some of this info, has helped me see even more what he is going through. I myself never really used. I have tried, but no where to where it be ame an addiction. Keep up the good work
Jack C. - 03/27/00 03:44:41
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I am in recovert and have been clean for 6 years I used herion for 15 years and do not miss it at all Please write back and we can talk
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Kellie - 03/27/00 02:23:58
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Wow, I love your site. It's been a great help to me, as a good friend of mine is an addict. Be strong and keep up the excellent work!
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Very informative, helped me with my assignment alot!
pete - 03/26/00 02:20:15
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Irie man ,Im pete IV Herion addict 6 years,Crack habit 1 year, I havent touched a thing for 2 months , trying my best to kick the habit, keep up the good work brother, wrexham,north wales uk
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chris - 03/24/00 12:08:46
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Keep up the good work, and be very proud of what you have achieved, you never know one day you may be strong enough to go that one step further.
Torsten - 03/23/00 19:12:24
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I was very happy to find a page like this. I can't find a page like this in germany. I hope you feel well, orsten
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Alexei Gaidarzhy - 03/23/00 03:09:56
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Thanks for the great site. I'm a student, researching on drugs and addiction for psychology. Your story really got me thinking hard about this stuff. Although I don't have nearly the addiction experiences you talk about, I think about it a lot. Best of luck and health to you. Sincerely, Alexei
kim - 03/22/00 04:21:52
My Email:blamper@mindspring.comComments:
i find your site informative and a insightful view into an addicts life. i recently learned that my cousin is going through detox as i send this message.his parents have given up after many years and i am searching for him.he choses the cold turkey method that has failed him before. i dont do heroin but have indulged in many if not every other drug. i do not think my cousin is worthless or bad , in fact he is extremely intelligent. he has no friends or support and im afraid he will die. his mother told me their secret in confidence , so he is unaware that i know . is there some way to help him or help his parents cope
Lou - 03/22/00 03:48:37
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Rose....What an interesting, amazing and compassionate woman you are. Thank you for all the information, stories ,experiences. I am a 22 year old woman who recently bagan taking Harry to cure a savage and destructve case of alcoholism. I didn't activel seek Heroin out. My boyfriend is an addict who has struggled with Heroin for years. I had my first taste with him. Oh the beauty, Oh the peace..I wasn't drinking any-more..wasn't fucking strangers anymore without protection. But, alas...I saw myself lpping into addiction once more..I had just substituted one drug for another. If society hadn't made me so ashamed for being a) an alcoholic and b) promiscuous ( pub-slut, piss-whore ect), would I feel so damaged, would I need more drugs to cover the pai ? To cut a long story short, I have halted my Heroin use before I got addicted. This has left me scared and alone, vulnerable..I just want to escape. My boyfriend, meanwhile is suffering immensely to control his habit. I feel like I am the only barrier between him and his drug....but I want to slip away too and I can't- he needs me to be strong. Thanks again for the stories and info..I shall pass them on to my boyfriend, he would love your website!
Lisa - 03/20/00 19:17:18
My Email:ohsweetmaryjane@hotmail.ccom
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"Rose," I have never used heroin but have abused several other illegal drugs on what I would consider a recreational basis. This web site is very interesting, and supplied me with such personal insight--which is difficult to find. Let's face it....most former o current heroin addicts are not Internet savvy. I stumbled onto your page while simply looking for info on heroin...I have a few friends who have struggled or who are still struggling through this mentally and physically addiction. Thank you for all th useful info. I cannot even imagine the incredible service you are providing to those you are working through their own heroin/methadone/mental health issues. Lisa
Rosemary Lass - 03/20/00 15:27:53
My URL:http://www.staplefordcentre.co.uk
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): links to naltrexone search
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Firstly I think your page is an excellent way of getting views on drug treatments. I represent The Stapleford Centre, a treatment centre in London, England, specialising in heroin, methadone and espceially rapid detox, either rapid or five day. Both th detox treatments use naltrexone and naltrexone implants. We have had very good result. Ther is a TV programme going out on March 30th on BBC 1 about detox and it should be very interesting - I recommend your UK visitors look at it. If any of your gue t site readers want to find out more about detox visit our bew site at www.staplefordcentre.co.uk - we would be delighted to help! Once again, a great guest site.
Elizabeth Todd - 03/20/00 14:44:38
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Danny - 03/18/00 23:33:07
My Email:ddecarlozen@aol.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): Doing research/been on methadone,25 years ago.
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Idea, yo could write something on the social bonding issues. the individual just like comeing to the client to socialize. It is very difficult to stop socializing if the person cannot see any future in being drug free. Still need that social knowledge of ddiction and whats going on.Writing a book about this topic, plus more. Good luck, this is a very good mode of recovery.
mike - 03/18/00 03:55:41
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am rtecovering 28 yrold heroin addict.was on for close to 9 years.never been to detox.been to many treatment centers though. always detoxed in jail.i have a question.my friend is using now and wants to go to detox.he's gone to ones in our area and they ba ically give you nothing. just bllod pressure pills.he always leaves because of this.i know i would have too. my question is is there a detox in florida that does a 7 day methadone or bufenex detox?if so email me info at duhasmike1@hotmail.com.your help wi l be appreciated.thanks ps would like to write my story when i have more time to do so
Mary - 03/17/00 17:33:37
My Email:Addictsmom
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How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): Dogpile: Heroin Addiction
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I have a 30 year old daughter who has been battling heroin addiction for the past nine years. She is about to get out of jail where she has been serving a 3 month term for breaking her probation. She has been to many rehab centers but has always left th m. Today, she appears to have an ernest desire to get clean. I know the odds are very slim that she can kick it but I and her father will never give up that hope for her recovery. She is really a wonderful person who is just painfully shy and easily int midated. Sadly, heroin gives her a sense of well being and comfort as I am sure it does for many addicts. Unfortunately it is a companion what will eventually take her life if she can not kick it. I appreciate this site as it gives me insight and tools o not only support our daughter but to better live with this daily subliminal fear. Loving someone so much and knowing the pain she must live with is sometimes unbearable for us. Thank you for this site. I am sure it is a comfort to many. And my since e best wishes for your continued sobriety.
Scott - 03/17/00 10:55:48
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I'm writing the South Aust users magazine,"Pure S " the first in 2000. I'd like a story of how you are going on the net, useful ideas for users via the net, or poems, good or bad news etc.. We are seriously into harm prevention, not total abstinance, and e work along side the needle exchange here in Adelaide. Please encourage anyone who is inclined to send material to Scott Mc Donald, C/o Pure S, ACSA Darling House, Fullarton road Kent town, SA. Your first story would be published if you give us permissio .Thank you for being there for those people who feel so alone, so depressed, so lost and so tired from the lifestyle of daily use. Goodonya Mate, Cheers Scott Mc Donald, compiler Pure S magazine
retta stevens - 03/17/00 00:37:24
My Email:retta@strato.net
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thank you very much. i am presentley takeing methadone for back pain, i have been taking it now for approx 3 years. if it were not for the methadone i could not make it through the day.
Carlos Serna - 03/16/00 17:08:35
My Email:aserna@worldnet.att.net
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I'm not a heroin addict but my exgirlfriend is. I'm 24 born in Colombia and I been in this country since the age of 10. (just thought i'd let you know i little about myself). I met her at my old job we worked together. Since the first time i saw her I fell for her. She is the most beautiful girl i've ever seen both inside and out. The first time we went out she was very honest with me and she told me she was on meth. I really didn't think much of it because i really didn't know anything about it. She never really told me she was doing heroin but sooner or later i had to find out. One night she came over my house and she went into the bathroom, which was fine but she was taking a little to long so i went and i opened the bathroom door and i saw her with a niddle in her hand. I took the niddle and all the heroin she had on her and i threw it out. Then i took her outside and i had a real good talk with her. she told me she was goi g to stop she said she would never do it again. So time went on and we moved in together during that time nothing kept could keep us apart we did everything together. I fell in love with her like no one has ever loved(fact). Something went wrong and untill this day i wonder what went wrong and i ask my self everyday what did i do?. One day out of the blue She told me that her friend from florida had come up to visit. she is a recovering heroin addict. she told me that they were going to a rave in N.Y.. The morning after I went to work and she always called me when she got to her job around 10:00 in the morning came and she didn't call me so i called her job and they said she is not coming in. well, she took of for 2 days when she came back she called and she cried to me telling me how sorry she was but she was doing heroin again she told me she loved me and that she wanted to go rehab.The week after she went to rehab but she only lasted a week. she took off. A couple of days after she came home. She was a totally different person She wasn't the girl I had met 2yrs ago She wasn't the irl that had left to rehab a week ago. She didn't even want to be touched by me.but I loved her so much that i was willing to do what ever it took to help her, but she just did not want my help. For the next couple of months she did things to me that no b dy with a soul would do to anybody. She would say things to me that made cry and i still do till this day. One day I called her mom and she told me that my girlfriend was in the hospital because her arm had gotten infected for shooting heroin. So i told er mom i was going to go and see her, she said to me carlos! you know andrea is with some other guy. i said to her, i had a feeling but you just confirmed it for me. So i called her at the hospital and i asked her how she was doing, then i asked her do y u love me? She said yes! then i said i want to hear you say it. There was nothing but silence, so i said to her, is your boyfriend there? She said to me what are you talking about? i said your mother told everything. Then i said I love you! and i hung up he telephone. My question is did she stop loving me? or was it heroin that made her say and do the things she did to me. she called me a couple of months ago crying and i went to see her. she showed me her arms, and all i did was cry. She asked me for money, I met her boyfriend which she said he was just a friend. And i asked her why we broke up? she said to me because we w ren't getting along! i said that's not true! she had no more words to say. all she did was cry. Then i spoke to her mom and she said to me Carlos don't hold anything againts andrea. She did the things she did because of heroin not because she stopped loving you. It's been 7 months since we broke up and i still don't know why we broke up. I can't stop thinking about her. i'm still in love with her, I always will be. As sit here and wait. The only thing i wanted was to be able to live with her a normal life and be able to give her what ever she wanted. She was my motivation. I hope to hear from you.
ness - 03/15/00 14:41:59
My Email:FreakchildV@netscape.net
Suggestions for the page.: more users/recovering addicts personal experiences
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): links to methadone search
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Congratulations on this web-page. Finally somebody has the guts to relate their using and recovering experiences to the mainstream population. Like yourself I am also an ex-heroin addict who is on a methadone maintenance programme, although I dabble every few months when the urge arises. I am hoping though not to return to being a full time user (Bring on the will power!!!!!) As I work full time and study at tertiary level full time I can definately relate to your comments about the bureaucracy of the meth done programme. Although I live in South Australia and hence receive a maximum of four take-away doses per week this is still very difficult considering the hectic nature of my schedule. It seems that users are always being told that they should contribut something useful to society, yet are given a system to work within which makes this very difficult. I was very interessted to read your long-term plan of not reaching 0 dosage. This is very comforting to me as I have recently reduced to a very low dose o 11mgs, and do not really have the desire to go below this dosage. However, for my doctor and my family it is almost a race to see how quickly I can come off the programme. I agree with you though that some of us can maintain a much better quality of life by not coming off the programme at all. Thankyou for this page. I am sure that there are many others out there like myself who have found it a great source of support. As I am sure you know it is very for ex-users to swap stories, without some risk of relapse involved. Prehaps this is the perfe t solution. If you have time please send me an email.
Tamara - 03/14/00 05:48:03
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You are a very courageous woman ! It must have been ery hard for you to get off dugs , and you did it ? Good on ya ! From a new friend
wendy earls - 03/13/00 19:25:29
My Email:duchessofesrls@hpi.net
Suggestions for the page.: just found it it is fine the way it is
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): just web surfing, but glad i did.
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i a so glad i came upon this site. i want to find out all i can on kicking, i am on meth here in the states,would like to chat with ya soon.
andy oldham (uk) - 03/13/00 14:36:27
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Donald Davis Jr. - 03/12/00 19:09:04
My Email:donn2rhb@aol.com
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I've been dating a women who has been addicted for 20 years. We met 9/15/97 and she has been clean since 6/15/98. I love this women very much and this page has helped me see more of what I thought I knew in a much clearer light. I give her all the supp rt I can and I know she is fighting her own demons on many different fronts everyday. She feels trapped by the Methadone which she feels limits what she can do with her life as well as feeling all the everyday pain, as she puts it, a normal person would eal with that hits her harder. I wish I could reach inside her and take away all her pain and bad memories bad then again would that really be her, the women I met. I hope I learn how to deal with her pain which I don't think I have done a bad job to da e but I understand I will never be able to really know what she feels without a Homepage like your's to fill in the blanks. Thanks and keep up the great work to date.
Mitzi K. Tiller - 03/11/00 20:27:03
My Email:mitzitiller@msn.com
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Thank you, thank you, thank you for this site. I have been looking for months for a site like yours so that I can talk with other people such as myself with problems such as mine. What a great service you are providing and I am pleased to read that thin s are appearing to be going very well. If there is anything that I can do, or anyone as 'the public'can do tokeepthis site going, you need to advise. I don't know what the protocol would be, but please let me know if I can be of assistance in any way. y E-Mail address is mitzikay@hotmail.com or mitzitiller@msn.com I have lots and lots to talk about. I have been on Methadone in my community (Memphis, TN) for a little over 6 years. There are serious problems in my area regarding our clin c. First of all, there is only one clinic to provide service for our area which includes the state of MS as far away as Jackson MS. That is over 200 miles from Memphis. Beside the point, though. Anyway, how can they have such a monopoly and get away w th it? I also have questions regarding methadone and marijuana use. I'll write more later when I can and find out more. I am SO happy you are here for me and persons like me.
Chantille French - 03/10/00 18:23:11
My Email:sweetheart_cno@hotmail.com
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I think that what you are talking about puts a good point across and you are doing a very good job putting your point across. I visited this web site for a school prodject on heroin and with your help i'm pretty sure i covered everything!!!!!!!!!
Alison - 03/10/00 11:02:26
My Email:ila_is@hotmail.com
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I just wanted to say that the page is great and informative, and all the best to you, i have a sister who is addicted to heroin, she's been into re-hab twicem but recently left one, and rang and told us we'll never here from her again... but your page, ha helped me understand the addiction a little better.
mike - 03/10/00 07:27:19
My Email:neswcard@aol.com
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its really cool what you're doing here. not many people can take the stance you do. it shows that there is something there, something tangible. thanx for doing this
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Donna - 03/08/00 22:35:20
My Email:dawdra@hotmail.com
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I'm very thankful for your web site...it's shed some light on the lure of heroin. I almost lost my bother-in-law last night to a heroin overdose. A friend dialed 911, waited for someone to answer, hung up after the authorities answered, and soon fled th apt. My brother was left unconscious, no longer breathing, and in his own vomit. Surprisingly enough none of us had any clue that he was using. But, he has been depressed on and off through the last few months... Your site helped me understand what relief he might have been experiencing through a score. I know it's not easy to open yourself up to people's prejudices and judgements, you're a very strong women.
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Mairead - 03/08/00 12:58:44
My Email:rdenvir@vtown.com.auComments:
I think you have agreat, informative page here. Keep up the good work. No matter how much people want to turn a blind eye to drug users they're not going to disappear. The sooner they are recognised as human beings and not scum of the earht the sooner we an help them.
Rainydfeln - 03/08/00 05:51:06
My Email:Rainydfeln@theglobe.com
Suggestions for the page.: none its great
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hello thanks for this page it was sent to me by a friend that is helping me with my son who is going through heroin addiction he is on 24 hours now I am a recovering addict myself but know very little about heroin.. I just pray alot and do not enable him in any way.. this is by far the hardest thing a mother has to do.. thanks again for the info on this page...
Matt - 03/07/00 21:05:51
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That's one hell of a story Rose. Love and strength to you.
Julie Brown - 03/06/00 23:14:44
My Email:Cherricoke03@aol.com
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I was merely researching the heroin addiction issue for my english III class, and I came across this page. I guess, because I have never been addicted to anything like this, that I never really knew what it was like to have this sort of problem. I admire the courage, and hope that everything works out for the best. This page has given me great insight.. Thank you so much. -Julie
Lilli - 03/05/00 19:16:27
My Email:lillilouise@iname.comComments:
A while back I wrote to this guestbook. I was a heroin addict and looking for a way back to life. Rose your help will never be forgotten. I read what I wrote so long ago and wonder why I'm still alive. But one day I promise I'll forget I ever stuck a eedle in my veins. Today it has been 4 months and 4 days without heroin. I kicked cold and stayed clean without methadone, LAAMS, or wellbutrin. I still crave but the cravings are lessening. I guess anyone out there still using and wanting to stop should look at all the ptions out there. Look into yourself and determine for yourself which route you should take to sobriety. No one way is the best, find the one that works for you. Don't let anyone tell you that you shouldn't go on methadone or anything other treatment. If it is right for you then it is the right thing for you to do. Sometimes I think I threw away almost 4 years of my life. But no matter how far I feel I kept learning about myself. And I'm proud that I survived heroin and all that it made me do to get. Sometimes now I look in the mirror and don't see a junkie whore anymore. I see me the way I used to be.....and that is worth all the pain I went through to get here. For those who never tried it or are thinking of trying it heroin steals your soul. For those of us who have been there...it's a wonderful feeling to win your soul back from it. Love to all..........Lilli
Joergen Kjaer - 03/05/00 07:28:32
My URL:http://www.brugerforeningen.dk
My Email:jk@brugerforeningen.dk
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Dear Rosie, Your homepage work is very good, and you really deserve all the applause's you get. Your writing of articles is outstanding and we've like to borough some of them for publishing at our homepage. Please receive our great respect and lot of congratulations Best wishes Joergen Kjaer/President Danish Drug Users Union /BrugerForeningen
Tyron - 03/05/00 02:25:01
My Email:Gyro_C@excite.com.au
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Thanx, This page was a huge help to me. I'm currently doing an Ethics assingment on herion trials. We hear so much of other peoples (media/governments,) point of views on the herion trials. I needed some comments from the people effected, thanx for sharing our points of view with everyone, i'm sure you are helping to make a change. When you kill the stereotype of herion users maby you could help out with the stereotype youth are getting at the moment, mabe this is whats forceing so many people into drugs, T anx again, Tyron.
Bruno - 03/04/00 11:48:02
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Chachi - 03/03/00 19:35:58
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Kyle Phillips - 03/03/00 01:01:36
My Email:KylePhillips@pdq.net
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Hello!! I found your site looking under "Methadone Addiction" in one of the search engines off of netscape navigator. I am a heroin addict myself and am now taking methadone to maintain. I am interested in detoxing off of methadone soon before school starts in he spring so I'm checking out different sources for hospitals ect. I've never been addicted to Methadone before. I've just used it to kick in the past, and I hear the withdrawl is longer and more painful than dope. I hope thing work for you. Kp
Sean & Charitie - 03/02/00 20:08:56
My Email:merciers@earthlink.net
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Great site, My husband & I both are going through a hard time trying to kick methodone after being successfully heroin free for 3 years. Your website will help those people with no hope find some support and some advise/solutions. I wrote because we are t ying to get out of the methodone clinic's grasp, but I am having a hard time finding the strength to do this again, that's why I got on methodone, is to feel normal with out having to do a shot every 2 hours just to feel decent. I want off methodone, but don't want to go back to the heroin & the streets! This site might have helped me today at least to stay strong. Thanks alot!!!
Suzanne Gandolfi-Lapham - 03/02/00 19:09:28
My Email:saabsuz@earthlink.net
Suggestions for the page.: Keep up the good work!
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I just wanted to let you know I think what you are doing here is fantastic.People seem to forget that as MMT's we are consumers of a service.We wouldn't tolorate being treated so shabbily by the local grocer so why should we be mistreated by seemingly edu ated medical providers.And although there are many success stories with Methadone,the public never hear's them because nobody who is leading a "normal"life like everybody else in the neighborhood want's to be associated with the stigma surrounding it.As a MMT patient from Massachusetts(in the USA) I try to erase ignorance and misconseption where I encounter it. Thanks
kyle - 03/01/00 22:28:28
My Email:kck@neteze.com
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hi. i just skimmed your pages so sorry if this is covered elsewhere or old news to you. i am in l.a., have been clean of dope and methadone for a couple of years. i guess you're in sydney? toward the end of my clinic days they were offering free laam trea ments for testing purposes. it would solve what seems to be one of your major bitches anyway. less trips to the clinic. here is a link: http://www.hipmagazine.com/laam.htm
sonofrank - 03/01/00 21:54:35
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Hi I'm a functioning junkie from California who has been on Methadone for 12 straight years and off Heroin for the same. I've had maybe 1 or 2 slips just enough to remind me of the good old days when dope was dope not this Black Tar junk they have here now. think your website is great and is probably close to the story of millions of junkies all over the world. I think Methadone is the salvation of many of the older Heroin and Opiate addicts the world over. I would like to travel but dont know how easy it i to guest dose in clinics of the world. I think that would be a good addition to your site. Have people from other countries tell about the legalities of getting legally dosed as a guest from a foreign country. I have no idea and could use the help. Thank for the opportunity to talk to people like myself.
Marisa - 03/01/00 17:50:34
My Email:GoDeSsOnE420@raveworld.net
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Dear Rose, I wish you the best of your recovery, I am not a heroin addict, i was just researching the topic heroin because my boyfriend David needs to give a 20 minutes speech in his biology class. I was very touched by your website. -Marisa
Mary Bobbitt - 03/01/00 04:54:11
My Email:m_bobbitt@hotmail.com
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Dear Rose, I just want to thank you for making this website. This is good for everybody to read and get an idea of what really does go on for ex-addicts trying to make it.
mungbean - 03/01/00 04:01:04
My URL:http://nettrash.com/users/mung
My Email:mungbean@marijuana.md
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hi i messaged thru icq but i felt the need to sign too. ur page shows great courage and strength, congratulations on starting the long long journey to getting clean and staying that way. may strength be yours, peace.
Icemaid - 02/29/00 03:25:10
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): After studying heroin addictions, this web site put everything in to a valid perspective! Well Done
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E.F.. - 02/29/00 00:29:15
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This site is a great idea-keep it up! Recovering from heroin addiction can be so much easier knowing that there are other people in the world with a similar problem. Heroin has been my lifestyle for almost one full year, and counting. Quitting is almos impossible without the proper support. My family and friends are non-existant, so that leaves this website. Thank-you for showing me that I am not alone.
Elysa - 02/29/00 00:16:52
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This website is a wonderful idea! Keep it up!! I too am a "recovering heroin addict", and I use recovering very loosly. Heroin addiction is apart of the world inwhich we live, we are all prone to addiction; no matter what our place in society may or ma not be. It is an unfortunate fact that society still remains to be ignorant when it comes to heroin use and addiction. At this time, I am working on a book about this very subject, the only difference is that my chosen method of recovery is "cold-turke ". Methadone therapy sounds like something that could work for some, and not for others(as any therapy). Thank-you for this wonderful website. Write to me sometime( as I have no E-mail at this time). Elysa P.O. BOX 1614 Spokane, WA (USA) 99210-1614. .
evan james - 02/28/00 21:49:53
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holley - 02/28/00 16:58:42
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CrazeeCraig - 02/28/00 12:11:34
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Went here to find info for my mother (and me) so she could begin to understand my heroin addiction. It has hurt us as a family and I have much unresolved shame at the mess I have made of my life. I liked and agreed with your opening statement about us bei g treated like third rate citizens. Being a junkie sux and it has long ceased to be cool to me but it has taught me who my real friends are. I have so few friends that I can really trust and I am so lonely. I live alone and use alone mostly. I worry about my life and am seeking help through the community suppport programme. A sickness benefits based service from Work Directions Australia(a job network service provider). Thankyou thankyou thankyou :) Craig
Kathie - 02/28/00 04:02:56
My URL:working on it mom!
My Email:kathielech@yahoo.com
Suggestions for the page.: not a one
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): searching geocities for my own home page ideas
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My husband was injured 15 yrs. ago...broke his back....6 back surgeries later and who knows how many dilaudid prescriptions, he turned to heroin. As much as it pained me, it DID give him relief...he could WALK for God's sake. He finally kicked the fope, but new Rx's of MSContin really aren't anything more than a legal form of what he used to get illegally. He has cut way down & I give him angel kisses for that, especially facing more surgery and finally accepting the reality of his disability and addict on. Tough subject, but so good to know others care enough to help!! Thank you!
Gino - 02/28/00 03:25:16
My URL:http://home.earthlink.net/~killer909
My Email:sca909@redconnect.netComments:
Very nice site, it makes my expirience alot easier cause at the times you tend to think that your are the only one who goes trough it, many things that you;ve been trough i'm going trough right now..and when i thought it;s all behind, i lost my focus i stopped being aware i met my old friends... ;) i'll fight this thing, challenges are good
Sarah - 02/28/00 01:11:07
My Email:baby_gurly145@hotmail.com
How did you find this website? (search engine, links, etc.): www.goto.com
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nice page email me somtime,
- 02/28/00 00:19:31
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Classified - 02/28/00 00:03:10
My Email:classified
Suggestions for the page.: it is beyond reperation
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this site really sucks
rachel hiskins - 02/26/00 23:58:04
My Email:rhiskins@wam.umd.edu
How did you find this page?: i am studing fine art at maryland university in america and we have to do a essay on a issue that interests us for my english class
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It makes me mad and sad that peole have treated you in this way. i'm from victoria too and i am studying over here in the US, i have a scholorship to play hockey here. i mainly came over here because it was something new and i am close to washington DC and all the museums. anyway i am very interest in the challenges th t addicts go through. alot of people think i do drugs but i have never tried anything but marijanna and did not like it. i just think i would give in to the drug if i liked it so i just stay clear of it. for some reason i can relate to your feelings. and have come to the conclusion that i would love to work with addicts that included ART THEROPY; something along these lines. i think we as a society have to change the viewpoint that all addicts are bad. i agree with what you wrote.You are a truelly great erson and it was great to learn from you, thanks, take care from rachel there are people that care
Liz - 02/26/00 21:13:24
How did you find this page?: mmtwatchdog
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Thanks for including the link to OurWall. I checked out the site, then requested that my brother's name be added to the wall. He died from heroin overdose in 1996. I'm currently on MMT (have been on the program for the past 4 years) and wish it would h ve been an option for my brother: perhaps if he'd been on a blocking dose of methadone he may not have OD'd? Your story was interesting and I like the look of the site--you did a great job. Hope you have a chance to update the site again soon. Take car .
Meg - 02/25/00 15:57:51
My Email:coolnutz401@aol.com
Suggestions for the page.: none
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Yesterday I had an assembly at school about heroin...it really touched me. I never knew much about the drug and the assembly not only allowed me to learn more but it also scared me! I couldn't believe the ways heroin had affected some people's lives. I was awful. We got to listen to a speaker who had lost her daughter to a heroin overdose and it was so sad. It really made me think. You're a very brave person for dealing with things as you have and having enough courage to speak about it all and make webpages about your life with heroin. You're very strong! Best of luck in the future. Great pages.
Marcel - 02/22/00 20:10:39
My Email:tukibirdmc@hotmail.com
How did you find this page?: surfing for info
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This site has been a wonderful resource for me in dealing with a loved one who is battling heroin addiction and seeking answers and hope. Keep up the great work!!
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