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7 Jan 1999 -- 28 Sep 1999
Thanks to the many people who have contributed to the guestbook. The guestbook has been growing exponentially lately and it makes for some of the most compelling reading on the site. The guestbook now takes up five pages:
Jon Gopsill - 09/28/99 15:42:47
- current guestbook
- 22 December 1999 to 21 February 2000
- 1 October 1999 to 21 December 1999
- 7 January 1999 to 28 September 1999(this page)
- before January 1999
The views expressed here do not necessarily agree with my own.
My Email:jonnik@gopsill1.freeserve.co.uk
How did you find this page?: Search for methadone
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I am a student psychiatric nurse in the UK currently on placement at a specialist drug treatment centre and was interested in finding more about heroin maintenance v. methadone and came across your site. Thanks and good luck.
Russ - 09/26/99 19:12:26
My Email:grafixwolf@aol.com
How did you find this page?: Search engine
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Hi, Rose. I am a counselor at a Methadone clinic in the US. I must admit that I have never had an addiction problem and have been extremely anti-drug all of my life and, unfortunately, had the view of addicts that most people have. I apologize for this arrow-mindedness and stupidity. When i first got involved in counseling, I felt it was my opportunity to get on my soapbox and "preach" about how drugs are so bad and how they destroy your life and such. But, after been a counselor for the past nine mon hs and hearing the horror stories of addiction, I have put aside all of my former attitudes regarding addiction. I have a great feeling of compassion and empathy for anyone who is addicted to illicit substances. All of you who are trying to turn your li es around, I wish you the best of luck and God bless all of you.
Doug Mickelsen - 09/21/99 05:10:38
My Email:dougmickelsen.@cs.com
How did you find this page?: key word search - heroin
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I have long thought that heroin use should be legal. In fact I believe that all drugs should be legal. I believe that much substance abuse or rather illegal drug use especially heroin and marijuana use has a medical dimension that the so called "War on Drugs" ignores or downplays. The United States has savage,barbaric and c unter-productive drug laws, which in my view should have been dispened with long ago. And the greatist victims of this War and it is a War in the U.S. is that these valuable medicines and both Cannabis and Heroin are medicines are being withheld from seriously ill people who would benefit.
Ashley - 09/20/99 13:43:00
My Email:anh84@aol.comComments:
I'm glad you have made this page. I understand and respect your point of veiw. My step mother is on herion and she is treated like trash by everyone. I look at it like she has a desiese and needs help, she is lower than nobody. I think that people need to relize this and try harded to help instead of criticizing.
Catherine - 09/19/99 18:26:57
My Email:cdseitrich@home.comComments:
Rose You sent me two web site regarding my post from several weeks ago. I have lost them from my E-Mail. Could you re E-Mail them please. Thank You
Kelly L. - 09/18/99 20:30:52
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I began using heroin about 12 years ago, and since then I seem to have lost almost everything that was important to me. It started out as just a weekend thing, going into the city to score a $20 bag and snorting it with my boyfriend for fun. Then it tur ed into a every other day thing, still just snorting it. Then we began to use needles. The first time I shot up will be forever etched into my mind, the sight of the blood rushing into the needle, I felt a sort of power. Now, 12 years later, I can't se m to stop. Every time I start to try, I get to the 4th day and the mental craving takes over. I just recently tried to stop again, and again I got to the 4th day, and I went out and scored again. I'm starting an out-patient program on Monday to help me igure out what I'm trying to numb with the drug that I can't seem to deal with on my own. I wish I would have known more about heroin when I first tried it, if I would have, maybe I wouldn't be where I am today. Thanks for listening. Spread the word so others don't end up like this.
Lilli - 09/17/99 04:14:32
My Email:lillilouise@iname.com
How did you find this page?: surfing looking for help
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Thanks for this page. My twin sister and I have been heroin addicts for the last 2 years, chipped for a year before that. She's still kinda happy with the whole scene but I want out and I'm looking for ways to do it. UROD, 'done, nalextrone, ibogaine a e all things I've read about. Anybody know what works the best? I'm 19 and going nowhere. All my friends from high school are in college and I sit here with my sister and her boyfriend all day everyday shooting dope. Our parents have given up on us and except for this apartment they rent for us and some money they d n't want anything to do with us. Used to be real close to them, but now we don't exist. Jacking up used to be such a rush now all I can afford is just enough not to get sick. When does it like take over all of you? I don't feel anything anymore and I don't think I much care about feeling anything. Just enough in the rig to get me by is al I care about. Sorry for the bitchfest, I learned alot from this page and the links. Lilli Louise
shandi beardsley - 09/12/99 14:47:11
My Email:shandiivygrrrl@hotmail.comComments:
I would simply like to say that this page is really comforting... to know there are a lot of people out there like me... Aprox. 1.5 weeks ago my mom foumd out. She found 2 broken needles and about 50 scraped out bags. I will be 18 in 2 months, and I've had the same boyfriend for 2.5 years. We are both addicted. I tlod her that I've been doing this for only 4 months, but it will be 12 in 2 weeks. I keep telling her I want to st p and that I want help and that I haven't touched the stuff in 3 weeks, but I keep doing it (not every day, anymore) every couple of days. When I talk to her I am so sincere, but I keep lying to her... She won't let me talk to, or see my boyfriend, but e see eachother in private. What she doesn't understand is that this is simoly making everything worsw for me and that her treating me the way she has been, just makes me want it more. I dunno how to tell her this cos I am too scared to really share any hing with her. All she does anymore is criticize me and mentally abuse me... she has even hit me a few times. She beleives that H addiction is a choice. Itold her that addiction is a disease that needs medical treatment, but she just screams at me and tells me that all I am doing is justifying it. Part of me really wants to stop, cos I see all of the harm it has caused and how much it hurt my mom and the little trust and relationship that we once had, but I simply can't. I dunno why, cos if I did, th ngs would probably be different, right? If u happen to read this I would greatly appreciate your advice. The only person I can confide in is my boyfriend and if she finds out that I have been meeting with him she says that she will go to the police and ell them everything and have us both arreseted. My e-mail is shandiivygrrrl@hotmail.com. Please respond asap, and if mu could, tell me more 'bout methedone prescription and rehab centers. thanx.
joen 1952 - 09/10/99 01:20:01
My Email:noni 113
Suggestions for the page.: keep it going
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i am a recovering addict i have used drugs for 23 years my self all my friends are all dead mostly from drugs i have been diagnosed with manic depression all my life i have not used drugs for the past 13 years every day i read the newspaper it says how go d and plentiful the heroin is i sometimes wish icould go back to using but i dont for just 1 day god help me
Pat Espana - 09/09/99 11:48:20
My Email:erclp10@aol.com
How did you find this page?: Very informative
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Hi My name is Pat. I go to a Methadone clinic in Ocala Florida.In fact my son and I both go to this clinic.Methadone has saved my life,I've been on it for a year and a half.I just can't say enough about how it has changed my life !!.Thanks for all the i formation. I forwarded this website to my niece who is an RN in Pennsylvania. I told her to pass it along to some of her Dr friends.[haha] And again thanks very much for this info. Regards Pat Espana
a. l. tiffany - 09/07/99 16:34:22
My Email:aleetif@aol.com
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Hello Rose, I am a recovering heroin addict.My drug history is also very long. I have now been clean from heroin for 22 months.I did not stop because I didn't like the high I stopped because I knew death was in the picture somewhere.I copped in Harlem in some very bad ghettos.I came close to getting killed several times.Survived a s abbing etc.I was also tired of the constant fear of running out of dope.i JUST COULDN'T PLAY THE GAME ANY LONGER. I am also manic depressive and understand my long history of drug use was also a way of medicating myself. Although I bought methadone several times ( 100 MG)i NEVER WENT ON THE PROGRAM.i CAME CLOSE A COUPLE TIMES BUT DIDN'T WANT ANOTHER ADDICTION.Please excuse my typing!!! It has not been east staying clean.However I do want to stay sober.I have to fight the urge sometimes several times a day but I keep plugging.I do understand the depression.My family has had a history of depression and several suicides. For myself I found methadone too much like dope to take and not expect myself to want to use the real thing.I just couldn't flirt with my sobriety like that.However i have been able to combat my depression and mood swings.I take a combination of antidep essants. I take Wellbutrin and Zoloft and if I can not sleep at night I take a SERZONE.aLL OF THESE ARE ANTIDEPRESSANTS. I'm not writing you to dis methadone.I'm just saying what worked for me.It would prevent you from having to drive to get daily doses. Hope all works out for you. ANDREA
Thomas.hansson - 09/07/99 09:27:37
My Email:Thomas.hansson@usa.net
Suggestions for the page.: not yet
How did you find this page?: surfing
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i´m glad that i can sign this exelent work(:u see i´m allso a methadone klient and this is my 2nd turn this time i´have maniche to stay whithout heroin for neerly 5 years i started to use heroin wen i was 20 now i´m 35, i´was surfing and trying to find out about metadon treatment in thailand ,i heard that the metadon is free nov but just in bankok if that is the case i´will properly move there,and still juse methadone as i do now. one more time this site is amasing ! maybe u can reply it would be greatfun(: by for know ) Thomas SWEDEN
jonathan - 09/06/99 23:54:27
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andrew trecha - 09/06/99 23:38:22
My Email:atrecha@usa.net
How did you find this page?: search engine MSN
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Great site, particularly for those who have never used or been addicted. A heroin addicts perspective is sorely needed in order to educate professionals involved in the treatment and rehabilitation of addicts, and to enlighten those who may be friends or amily members of an addict as to why we do what we do. I have recently relapsed, after having almost two years clean time under my belt. I live in San Diego, California with my family. It has proven to be extremely difficult to explain to my family the na ure of my addiction. To them, my use is a moral issue; that I lack the morality to stay away from heroin. Although their support is there, I find it frustrating that they are seemingly unwilling to grasp all the aspects of addiction. Perhaps I should poin them towards sites such as yours, so they can hear, in another addicts words, the nature of this disease and the difficulties that confront us in our efforts to become rehabilitated and responsible members of society. Keep up the good work. Sincerely, Andrew
george lemonides - 09/04/99 18:23:18
My Email:george_lemonides@hotmail.comComments:
hi how are you i'm a former heroin addict myself my story is simmilar to yours, with the depression and all i was on both heroin 1and1/2 to 2 grams a day and 100ml of meth a day i quit cold turkey,you know the feeling it my body 6 months for it to go back to normal (i don't know what normal is) i was on heroin for 12 years on and off mostly on. but now i'm in the 12 step program and made new friends and look forward to spending the rest of my life drug free oups i smoke cigs that is i live life know and i o service to other heroin addicts to try and get them off cold turkey
Catherine Seitrich - 09/04/99 16:14:04
My Email:cdseitrich@home.com
How did you find this page?: Search Engine
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I am the Mother of a Heroin addict. It is heartbreaking. I love my son. He has tried all the programs. I understand how hard it must be, I do beleive that the HIGH feeling is where he feel comfortable. I beleive him when he says he wants to stop using. e have been through alot together and he has been through alot alone. He has lost several good jobs and has been on and off the street. I have tried to help, his father has tried to help him. I don't know what I can say or do to help him. THEY, whoever t ey are say that he must help himself. He must hit bottom. What does that mean anyway. He has and now is living on the street. I don't know where he is. It leaves me with a heavy heart. I know it is 1000 times worse for him. He is living in hell. I had t walk away. I couln't watch him killing himself anymore. It hurts everyday not knowing where he is, how he is. I agree with what you say. Treating addicts as second class citizens is wrong. Would they treat someone with cancer that way. I regret that I di n't see that sooner. Thank you for your time
KIM - 08/27/99 18:08:24
My Email:kstroke@3dillc.com
How did you find this page?: browsing
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In an effort to not become 'narrow-minded' and 'prejudice' about drug addiction, i'm trying to understand it through stories like yours. In all my efforts to help a junkie friend, i've been ignored- ridiculed- and extreamly hurt. I've just about lost all hope for him, and now i'm worried about my own sanity. The fact that i go into a complete fit whenever i talk about it, and the fact tha i am just about ready to become a very 'narrow-minded' & 'prejudice' person for self-preservation kills me. Your site has elightened me some (especially on the cost of living on Heroin!!), and you should be proud of your successes. I do, however wish to know your thoughts on the root of the problem, and how it can be prevented. As we 'non-drug-addicted' people try to understand the impossible to understand 'drug-addicted' person, throw us the same favor, and give us some credit too. We've been lied too, stolen from, and cheated on, AND we watch someone we adore suffer so badly. I really don't think addicts are bad, worthless people- but i sure as hell feel that way sometime. My friend has been an addict for only 3 years (worsening exponentially), and has made some unsucessfull attempts to clean up. Our friendship has, needless to say, gone through some major changes. I havn't spoken to him in a year, and probobly never will again. (another attempt at self preservation). I pray for him, and never speak badly about him, and miss him like he's dead. I have vowed to myself to stay away from addicts (this is not my first awful experience with an addict), but still try to stay ope -minded and educated. I'm curious of your thoughts on my attempt to cope. thanks kim
Paolo Vaglio - 08/27/99 13:56:48
My Email:vaglio@to.astro.it
Suggestions for the page.: I'll tell you soon
Relevant URL's: I'll tell you soon
How did you find this page?: looking for jobs in helping people with addiction problems
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I am on a methadone maintenance program too (40 mg once a day). I've almost given up from taking heroin, now I'm working as a volunteer in a center where we help people with addiction problems, but I'd like my job was this job that now I do as volunteer.
Miss Jessi - 08/27/99 01:07:45
My URL:http://www.nhwatch.asn.au/youth.htm
My Email:pigtails@bigfoot.com
How did you find this page?: searching for information on heroin and shooting galleries...
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This page is great. i was doing some research into legal heroin trials and shooting galleries for an assignment for an article i have to write (applying for a cadetship with the local paper...) and happened to stumble across it. it's really great! i hope that all of you who write about your hardships can somehow get over it - i can't write from experience as i am *so* uninvolved in any drug scene - don't even drink alcohol... but i just hope for your sakes... (and i don't mean to sound patronising, sorry if i do... i just want you to be happy... whatever that takes...)
Cindi Cooper - 08/26/99 15:37:51
My Email:Sissyccrn@aol.com
How did you find this page?: Research on the net
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Jamie - 08/25/99 16:36:37
My Email:JAMTON3JAN@Juno.com
How did you find this page?: Methadone search
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Methadone has been a life saver for me !!! After trying to kick for 13 years, Methadone is the ONLY thing that ever helped me. It's such a pity that others are to closed minded to even try to comprehend the good methadone does, not only for the addicy, but for the families, and the community. I have people that drive over 60 miles one way to a clinic because they are so few up here. What a shame. I just wanted to write and let you know how glad t
Emily - 08/24/99 22:50:50
My Email:redline132@erols.com
How did you find this page?: Search
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My best friend has been clean for 5 months. Everyday is a challenge for him. I happened upon your site looking for information on heroin addiction. I've never been an addict, never even tried cocaine. I'm trying to understand what my friend is going throu h so that I may support him the best way I can. I love him dearly and my biggest fear is losing him to an overdose. Thank you for the site, makes me feel hopeful that I will have my friend around for a very long time.
tony - 08/24/99 08:52:09
My Email:tony@aotodoorsprings.co.uk
Suggestions for the page.: naltrexone
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naltrexone is a better drug for staying off heroin however , it is difficult to get prescribed in our area and only available in tablet form. the first 12 weeks ideally need naltrexone implants but thies is not available unless paid for privately your reply ! tony
Bernadette - 08/24/99 00:17:42
My Email:bernadettealcala@hotmail.comComments:
Thanks for sharing your point of view. I have a family member who uses herion, and your insights have helped me in understand what he's going through.
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tony - 08/18/99 10:55:48
My Email:tony@autodoorsprings.co.uk
Suggestions for the page.: naltrexone
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i have two sons as heroin addicts 28 - 30 years of age i have always tried to understand and help the 28 is on naltrexone but finds ways to miss tablets would like any advise on how to administer bearing in mind when crushed down it tastes revolting in water, tea, coffee or with jam too easy not to swallow as tablet. the 30 is going on detox end of month naltrexone implant & then tablets any help would ne appreciated
Nicole - 08/18/99 02:17:36
How did you find this page?: Awsome
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I think you have great courage and congratulate you on your breavery!!!!
David C. - 08/16/99 11:22:02
My Email:LEXngton@msn.com
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I LOVE YOU and your page; your so kind and thoughtfull (: Pray for us both; I will too...
Shawnett - 08/16/99 02:03:11
My Email:Sf7marie@aol.com
How did you find this page?: Hit on altavista search
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Not sure, but I appreciate knowing that someone has the guts to write about this. So often addiction is SO beaten that people are afraid to speak up. More people can be reached with understanding than hate.
Steve - 08/14/99 19:47:02
My Email:Steve__27@hotmail.com
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How did you find this page?: Altavista Search
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Its about time i found a decent site with someone that knows what they are on about.Ive been clean for 3 weeks now but just cant get rid of that feeling that something is missing.I am not on Methadone,I did the detox the very herd way with no drugs at all cos my Doctor would not help me....Hope to hear from you soon.......Stevo
TANYA - 08/14/99 07:04:09
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I have been an opiod addict for the last 35 years, but last year I began a methadone program, using 100 mlgs. a day and have been drug free as far as street drugs are concerned ever since. I am in a program in which I am able to take home a 15 day supply of methadone and then see the doctor and show him how many pills I have left at the end of the 15 day period. Unlike my former doctors, this doc cannot be scammed out of even one day of pills. This doctor is immune to "lost" or "stolen" pills as well as vacations starting or relatives dying, etc. But methadone has pretty much saved my life and I now have something to live for other than Dilaudid or Percocet. It is so unfortunate that all drugs are not legalized and available over the counter like Tylenol, but if a side effect of a drug is for God's sake - Euphoria, then the suits will line up against it and declare it a by product of the Devil. If the same drug caused less pleasant side effects like, say, occasional seizures, then there would be no problem of consequence. Your website is very interesting and I look forward to any new material. Sincerely,
Marian Underwood - 08/09/99 23:10:47
My URL:http://@mira,dhs.state.tx.us
My Email:@mira.dhs.state.tx.us
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Thanks for your time & telling your story. It's a lot like mine even though I live across the world from you in San Antonio, Texas. I have a long history of addiction and methadone maintenance but am currently clean. I am also bipolar. Keep trying the medications. I am currently on Lamictal. Valporic made me gain weight. I hated the clinic. They just rip you off and make your life complicated. Take my advice, try and get off. It's like being unchained.
Marian Underwood - 08/09/99 23:03:39
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Sara - 08/09/99 13:53:31
My Email:sdosell@hotmail.com
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Hi it makes a refreshing change to hear things from my point of view. I am sick of hearing the fatal words: Junky scum. I have been clean for nearly 2 years and am still struggling. I moved house and changed friends but that never stops your mind from remembering. I find it hard to say anything negative about smack as I had so many good times on it but I have realised tha life clean beats it anyday. I never did the methodone way I did Cold Turkey and I nearly died as a result but here I am, alive, healthy and living a normal life. I have a job, a home and a loving husband. It is a strange feeling to owe your life to so eone but I owe it all to my Mum whom stopped the nightmare once and for all. My boyfriend at the time was a junky and that was how it all started, I got clean and he didn't so it didn't work but for the year we were toghether I experienced things some people will never experience and for that I am grateful-thank you C.O. I will never forget what happened and I am still paying the price, it took me a long time to gain the trust of the people closest to me and some of them will never forgive me, but for the meantime the ones that have are the most important people in my lif . I was only 16 and was young enough to escape without too much perminant damage done to my life. I have only one thing to say to other addicts, it may seem to difficult to come off but it is well worth it in the end, I know that half way through turkey may seem like the end of the world but stick with it, there is no better feeling in the world Keep up the good work anyone who is recovering! Love to you all Saz xx (20, Banbury England)
MrB - 08/09/99 02:15:50
My Email:burch@wantree.co.au
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Howdy. From one addict to another...some comment. Is heroin addiction is a disease? If we believe everything we read it would seem so. Disease is defined by way of functional deficits on certain brain chemicals. Deficient brain chemicals can be found in addicts; but not just addicts. Simply, if you are u happy, unmotivated, have no sense of direction, feel you have not had the opportunity to self actualise etc etc., you will be deficient in (function, dopamine, and all these types of wellbeing chemicals. We are in fact biochemical machines. If you accept hat (a) you have a disease and (b) therefore, as a consequence you learn not to fight it, you will have bought the same old story that keeps people trapped on methadone for years. Some people like the author of this page, have built a life around methadon and addiction. It is the very structure of their life and person. The catch 22 of narcotic addiction is that it can lead to the personal growth and expression of emotion you had denied yourself for so long; or be an agent of repression for the rest of yo r life. Which do you want? Don't think you don't have a choice. Pages like this one have a general air about them that addiction is something you just learn to live with. This need not be so. At the risk of being misunderstood as a new ager or whatever, i is our spiritual nature that "opens up" before we can see the light of day. Contempoary society shuns this thinking. We are detached from our past yet the ancient brain cries out for ritual and the human psyche needs mountains to climb. This we act out u consciouly through nose peircing and tattoos (scarification); gangs and inter-gang laws (tribal). Drugs and alcohol may not really be to dull the senses but a struggle to actually be alive. There are no more mountains to climb in suburbia and middle class life. We need to suffer to grow and our ancient brain demands we grow. This is unique to the human species. We are not so much self sabotaging but rather willing ourselves to suffer. It's better than the big nothingness of mundane life isn't it? Some of u are here to learn and grow. Addicts it seems to anything, heroin is just another aspect of that. A study of people who become drug free makes you arrive at the obvious conclusion that these people have become warriors. What a beatiful and simple thing it is to fight. The abstinent ones are the people who have found their true nature or spirit. People without spirit are miserable and make everyone else miserable. They'll tell you addiction is a disease that you better get used to because (a) they can't bea it and want to make you believe you can't either so they feel not so alone and (b) the medical profession is without human-value (spirituality) and is more concerned with crime statistics and "what's in it for society" (not your dreams or aspirations as human being). You have to find these yourself. Fight. Learn how. Naltrexone is yet another example of human-valueless science. It blocks everything including the wellbeing chemicals - deficits that brought you here in the first place. If you are not a fully functioning and balanced (human/spiritual) being (doing) you will gradually become more deficient in life affirming biochemistry. Thought is only perception. Thought is only something you make real. We are the chameleon; able to cha ge our entire character at will (Descartes). I'll get off Ms. Withering Heights soapbox now.
Serphina - 08/07/99 15:09:37
My Email:thehealinglight@hotmail.com
How did you find this page?: web search for heroin info
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Thank your for your courage and determination to remain alive and conquer this illness. I have a 20 year old daughter into her second year of addiction. Its a rough ride and hard for the rest of us to understand... I have become a monster myself trying to fight the beast who wants to steal my child.. I am also trying to heal.. In trying to remain constructive I have to say that to me this methadone is a grace for many.. but I learn equally as many find it to be trading one addiction for another.. one that is legal and feeds the legal dealers instead of the biggest dealers.. the law enforcement and judicial systems. More and more sites and information exist on the naltrexone implants or dosing as well as the rapid detox methods...it appears naltrexone is non addictive and blocks opiate receptors. What do you or any readers think.. my daughter is not in need of kickin .. but will use if and when she can find it...I want to try to find her this naltrexone dosing. An acquaintance has a son who is maybe 12 years clean of heroin (after many relapses and rehabs) and not on anything.. he did it the old fashioned way.. suffered alot.. then became a health nut... he claims that prayer, hard work, busy hands and religious exercise have kept him healthy and happy.. I know others who kn w him and attest this is true. His were lifestyle changes--not buying into any N/A philosophy, not taking anymore drugs, even legal ones, and rebuilding the chemical balances in his brain with physical exercise. My daughter wants to get to this stage.. and if we believe that the body and spirit have the ability to heal themselves by incorporating healthy alternatives.. then why are we not finding more of these stories ??? I need education and support so I come he e to learn, to give gratitude to all who share and also to see if maybe there is not another way.. do you have a higher degree of healing you aspire to or is is different for everybody??? Blessings to all.
LAYNE - 08/04/99 18:26:32
My Email:CREEPYPAURAV@HOTMAIL.COMComments:
HELL I AIN'T GONNA TELL ALL THE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT JUNKIES ARE A BUNCH OF FUCKED LIVES.... KNOW WHY CAUSE I'M ONE I'M 17 I'VE DONE PILLS (SPASMOS, NITROCINS) SMOKE POT ALL THE TIME.. DO HASH REGULARLY AND I'VE BEEN SNORTING KITAMINE SO I JUST HOPE I C N LIVE TO SEE THE WORLD AND LIVE IT WELL FOR SOME TIME TO COME
jacqueline mcateer - 08/03/99 20:26:02
My Email:jacquelinemcateer@mcateers.freeserve.co.uk
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Enjoying the site and look forward to reading more. Have saved this site and will be back for more.
Millie - 08/02/99 15:35:53
My Email:abcshipp@mail.clis.com
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I have a friend (honestly!) who was an heroin addict about 12 years ago. I'm not sure how she overcame it, but she did stay clean for that period of time. Recently, she started on script meds, mostly morphine. She is now in rehab, ready to come home ne t week!!! However, this center wants to start her on a methadone maintenance treatment program. My question is, if she has been clean for the past 3 weeks, has had no heroin in over 12 years, the strongest stuff she's had is morphine, why would she need methadone? I don't mean to sound dumb, but I am very worried about her and want to help her. I am not ashamed of her, mad at her or disappointed in her. I understand that is this an illness and she needs to get well. If you have any answers, please e-mail me back Good luck and Godspeed with you. Millie
Sarah - 08/02/99 06:05:19
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Thank you for having the guts to put such a controversal but needed page on the web. I just came into contact yesterday with an old and dear friend for the first time in three years. Yes, he is an addict. I am interested in the recovery process. For i stance,is there ever hope of a drug free existance, or is my friend going to be haunted the rest of his life with cravings? He is not on Methadone (he has tried it, and was unsuccessful in staying clean). Is there anything as a "sober" friend that can h lp him stay clean? There are all kinds of questions I have, and will keep searching the web and books for answers, but being able to talk to a survivor is really a relief. Congratulations on your success (and caring family). Again, thank you.
- 08/01/99 01:56:12
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im a heroin addict living in the UK. ive been using for about ten years although ive gone clean many times i cant stay clean. heroin is the hiatus for me. i dont know where to turn i have everything going for me and everything to lose. each day i plan to top and each day i phone my dealer. i wish i could be high on life like ordinary people. im not a thief nor have i done anything bad to fund my habit but im looked upon by people who know as if im a thief and a scounderal. thanks for listening to my rambl ngs, Andy
- 07/31/99 17:30:33
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I came to know about drugs in the 60's when they represented an anti-establishment point of view. The VietNam war was taking away bright, young people and returning many of them in body bags or as junkies. On the US home front protesters against the war o those for civil rights allied with the drug/pop culture for recrutes and the stage was then set for the situation today. On the edge of the millennium, my wife and I are helping our 22yr. old daughter in her battle against heroin addiction while we continue to raise our 11 year old son in this drug infested society. At age 16 she was in the hospital suffering from a broken back sustained in an automobile accident. She was on morphine for several days. We have been working with her for just over a year, with her suffering several relapses in between. She was not living at home during that time, rather with her 26yr. old boyfriend at his mother's house. They were taking Catapres (sp?) perscribed by is father. The boyfriend also is an addict trying to beat it. Three weeks ago she had her first experience with in-patient treatment. She approached me asking for help. With the psychiatrist she has been seeing for the past several months, we found a clinic, not for methadone treatment however. She was successf lly detoxed using a couple of the current drugs for discomfort and stability. She grew extremely short tempered with the therapy after detoxing. Her counselor was not a former addict, and in my daughter's opinion, had no credibility. Now she's attending N/A meetings with the boyfriend pretty regularly, living at home with us sans boyfriend, starting a new job, and giving serious consideration to intensive outpatient treatment. We have been to see a family counselor as well as att nding some Al-Anon meetings. She is seeing her psychiatrist who has her on some relatively new meds. She has some police baggage that will be coming to bear on her next week. We remaing cautiously optimistic that with the proper treatment she will beat it. But it sure is frustrating. I belive at some point we will either see results that indicate she's able to win, as she wants to, or we will be forced to abandon her to a low "the system" to take over.
KIM S. - 07/31/99 00:10:12
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I AM SO GLAD TO FIND SO MUCH USEFUL INFO ON METHADONE. I HAVE BEEN ON MAINTENANCE FOR 6 YRS THIS AUGUST. I CAN BE EMAILED AT KDS656533@AOL.COM.PLEASE LET ME KNOW OF OTHER USEFUL SITES, PLEASE! ALSO, I HAVE A FRIEND THAT IS GOING TO HAVE TO SERVE A JAIL SE TENCE SOON, AND I AM TRYING TO HELP LOCATE USEFUL INFO FOR HER ATTORNEY, TO TRY AND GET AN ORDER FOR HER METHADONE TO CONTINUE. THE COUNTY JAIL SHE IS GOING TO IS AGAINST IT, AND WILL REQUIRE A COURT ORDER TO KEEP FROM A COLD TURKEY DETOX. SHE HAS 5 MONTH TO SERVE. I WOULD APPRECIATE ANYTHING YOU THINK MIGHT HELP. THANKS, KIM P.S. I AM A CLIENT IN NASHVILLE, TN. CLINIC MTTC.
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Ron Sartori - 07/27/99 03:15:23
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my son died from abusing herion and he has several friends who are in grave danger of doing the same. Trying to find any help which may be available.
sweeteecakes24 - 07/26/99 02:43:47
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Well reading your story just reminded me of my own so much.I'm still running 2 get my dose 3 times a week however on the other side my hubby has managed 2 get and stay clean 4 2 years.I've been clean myself at one point 4 6 months.Oh well life gos on.None the less I'm a wonderful mother of 5 i hold down a job in security i may add and pay my bills just like the people next door.So i find it very amusing when these same people tell me about how horriable drug addicts are....Like they would really no one if hey were talking 2 one right to there face.Clean your own door step before you clean mine.P.S.So far all my adult are all drug free they don't even smoke.They were always told the truth about my drug problems.Perhaps thats why there not interested in find ng there own hell.Thanks 4 sharing....
Helena - 07/25/99 22:40:13
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Wow....... I've been a heroin user for 7 years. Successfully chipping for the first 5 years. Unfortunately or maybe I really should say fortunately my use got totally out of hand in the past 2 years finishing up at 20 bags of heroin a day / going from s iffing it combined with cocaine to sniffing it alone to shooting it for the past 7 months. I've been quite fortunate that my life has gone unaffected inasmuch as my career is unharmed; my daughter knows nothing of my drug abuse and I have been able to co er my trails quite nicely. However, two months ago I came to the realization that I could no longer go on like this and I started the methadone program. I do feel great about life again not needing five bags to get out of bed instead getting out of bed feeling great / I know that I am on quite a high dosage of meth (150 mgs) and I was wondering if you could answer one question for me. Will I always have o be on methadone or will I eventually be able to live drug free as I had done for thirteen great years which ended in 1992. Right now the thought of going without the meth is something I cannot even attempt to contemplate and I am quite afraid that this ia a decision that I made which is kind of permanent. Do you know of people who have detoxed off meth and have remained opiate free? How long were they on the methodone program before attempting to detox? Will you ever try? Looking forward to your reply. And I wish that there were more people like you with the courage to come out and tell their story making those that are "normal" understand that drug addicts are "normal" people too.
Jodi - 07/25/99 01:14:08
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Hi Donel, I just wanted you to know how very proud I am of you. I only hope I, too, can get to where you're at someday. GOD BLESS YOU. Please keep up the great work that I know you do on a daily basis! GOOD LUCK AND GOD SPEED- I will keep you in my thoughts heart and prayers... THANK YOU AGAIN for your courage and honesty. Sincerely, Jodi
Ron White - 07/24/99 21:36:34
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I read the study and the first 2 pages of your bio... I'll return to read the rest. Thanks for a very interesting and informative website. Psychopharmacology's a pet interest. Whereas I'm not an addict, I've always questioned the prudence of drug laws oncerning opiates, considering their low toxicity, and the situations which appear to be largely created by their illicit status... crime, poverty, and disease being a few. Good luck.
- 07/23/99 09:16:24
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jingle-bell - 07/21/99 11:31:23
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My boyfriend was heroin addict for couple years, he died 3 months ago. I think I could do much to help him. I didn't know enough about addiction, narcotics to understand him, to listen to him, I just wanted him to stop...He needed my help but I didn't kno what to do. After his death I've started to search internet for informations about heroin, I discovered so many things I did't know and finaly I found this page full of hope, but now it is to late for him. Today should be our anniversary - 6 years of lov , we planed to get marry...
jingle-bell - 07/21/99 07:05:21
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I wish i could find this earlier...
Julie - 07/20/99 20:46:07
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I thank you for putting together this site. My brother just went into (rehab/detox) again. I am going to share this with him. I think your suggestion about moving (relocating) is very good. Perhaps the temptation with old drug friends can be too strong wh n one is feeling weak? It really makes me sad to see him suffer so much, I'm glad your helping others through sharing your experiences. Hopefully this time will work for him.
Mari - 07/18/99 02:24:24
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I did it I got my 3yrs if I can do anyone can.God Bless All
Karen Walton - 07/17/99 14:51:10
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I am also a recovering heroin addict and have been on methadone many times,all up between my using and methadone I have been using for 14 years.. Two weeks ago decided to blow the methadone programme (however, I am glad it is working for you) and just go cold turkey. Well I reduced my habit for about a month first and then left brisbane and came to darwin with my boyfriend and his sister, boy did I regret that by the second day. Well I am clean now, it wasn,t easy, of course I still crave it but I am 4o lms from fucking anywhere so I have no choice. The cruncher will come in about four weeks as I have to fly back to brisbane for an appointment, I hope I can stay strong enough not to score. I have had it with the gear and really hope that I can do it thi time , I also have two small children and dearly want to get my life together. Here's to You, me and staying clean, Hopefully!
Karen Walton - 07/17/99 14:34:13
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I am also a recovering heroin addict and have been on methadone many times,all up between my using and methadone I have been using for 14 years.. Two weeks ago decided to blow the methadone programme (however, I am glad it is working for you) and just go cold turkey. Well I reduced my habit for about a month first and then left brisbane and came to darwin with my boyfriend and his sister, boy did I regret that by the second day. Well I am clean now, it wasn,t easy, of course I still crave it but I am 4o lms from fucking anywhere so I have no choice. The cruncher will come in about four weeks as I have to fly back to brisbane for an appointment, I hope I can stay strong enough not to score. I have had it with the gear and really hope that I can do it thi time , I also have two small children and dearly want to get my life together. Here's to You, me and staying clean, Hopefully!
Shirley - 07/17/99 13:24:12
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I have learnt from your story that drug addiction seems to be more than just physical, it is also I beleive a phychological addiction. My son is only 21 and is on the streets somewhere in collingwood , i dont know what to do for him anymore, we have been trying since he was sixteen to help him, but i feel i have failed him.
Someone who cares - 07/17/99 07:38:06
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It took courage to tell your story..my neice is fighting the same battle. Don't ever give up the fight, your children need you. And love yourself. God Bless You
Buddy Blackwell - 07/13/99 17:59:26
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Hi ! My name is Fred, I am from Germany and I am in a methadone programm for 16 - 17 month now. I have the feeling that I don't realise the time anymore, I feel that 1 month is over so fast, like one week in the past... Is this the truth, has anyone else the s me feelings or the same thing ?? I am not doing much H but I've got an alcohol problem from the day I was in the Methadone programm.... But anyway, stay as you are I wish you all the best Fred 'Buddy Blackwell' K
- 07/12/99 02:39:34
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BonniSu - 07/11/99 20:41:10
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just read Bobbi's letters, WOW! I can beleive it though, I was on aclinic just like it in Atlanta (Atlanta West) they told us the state was making them test and detox for marijuana because they really didn't want people coming to the clinics so they could close them one by one. I'm on a clinic in Texas now that is alot better, but could still stand improvement. If you ha e any suggestions of things we could do to make things better for all of us, or facilitate the spread of medical maintenance, I for one would love to hear the. Keep up the great work, you are much loved and appreciated Thanks much BonniSu
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Eryn - 07/05/99 06:47:17
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I ,personally, do not use heroin. It's just that someone that I care for immensly does. And I don't know what to do. He sems to think that I am his salvation, but I'm just not sure what I can do for him. He seems to think that i am his only reason to live And that is so hard for me. This situation causes me more emotional turmoil than anything. What am I supposed to do? I feel helpless... and so does he. If anybody can give me any advice, ideas, and personal experience that could help me in this situation that'd be great.
mari morrell - 06/30/99 04:13:09
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just for today I have another day clean it's after 12:00 so I got one more.I'm coming up on #3. I have a very cool number for my anniversary 714. The old times can remember that lemon.
marce mitchell - 06/30/99 01:15:39
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I'm a methadone user, from Canada for the past seven years. In your storey about the docs, and pharmacists it bring backs memorys. I've the same expierences. They are in control of your life. I lived in Alberta for the first five years, and i picked up ca rys on fridays for sat and sunday, but that took 2 years to get. Now i live in b. c. and i get carrys for 6 days of the week. But i have to go to the doc more often[ 1 amonth] where as in Alberta i went 1 every 3 months. It was good listening to another a dicts life i don't have anyone around me to talk to. So this web site lets me respond to other people like me.
Tony - 06/29/99 15:19:51
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I hope you know that others come here and find hope in your story. I did. I'm 43 years old and on federal parole ,I've been an addict all my life and now its "piss day" and I'm gonna fail.......... After 4 years of straght living I went back and now I'll never live it down. But as I spent the night waiting for the "exicutioner" to arrive I did find your page nice to read. Thanks Darlin, Live on. Tony from Georgia.
warren - 06/29/99 10:04:06
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Rose, Some of my good freinds are addics and they go through hell one way or another. Fortune has it, that they fiance their own addiction because of the high salery they recive. The only way I seem to help them is not to JUDGE. Keep going, you demonstra e a lot of courage. Kind regards Warren.
angela - 06/28/99 17:31:14
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i have done a lot of different drugs but i have never tried heroin,[except in xtc] however i am addicted to pills. i have always been afraid of heroin because i think i would love it.since feb. i have only smoked pot.somebody i love very much is addicted o heroin. he used a needle in front of me. all i could do is cry. i hope i dont loose him,even though i have lost him already.im glad to be able to see things more from a heroin addicts veiw. thank you very much.and keep up all the good work. im so happy or you. he wants to start mehtadone. his friend has some,but how much does he take and when? what happens if he uses heroin while on the mehtadone?
- 06/28/99 12:11:45
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i like your page. i am 18 and have had basically no experience with drugs apart from a bit of pot a couple of times. I found your page informative and i dont judge you at all. The determination and articulation of your writing expresses the emotional stra n you've experienced and i commend you on how you are currently travelling. you're page is effective, however, perhaps some photographs may provide more interest and help those narrow minded people to realise that a human being was actually behind your story and experienced the pain of being a heroin addict.
Shiralee - 06/28/99 07:29:05
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Hi! I visited this page whilst researching for an assignment on the issue of safe IV houses, and even though it had nothing on this issue, I stopped and read it all the same, because I found it interesting. It's good to see someone trying to contribute somet ing positive to the issues at hand.......keep up the good work! All the best, Shiralee.
eileen - 06/23/99 15:39:10
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Thankyou it's nice to know there are people like you. I hope that I have found someone that can relate to me! It's going to be nice to have others to talk to "because I sure do need someone right about now" Looking forward to talking to you and geting some good advice! Thankyou Eileen Have a wonderful day. (:
BonniSu - 06/23/99 05:11:10
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It is encouraging to know there are others out there. Is anyone familiar with a book called 'Confessions of an Opium Eater'? If so, I would like to know who wrote it. Thanks, LvsMthdne
Amanda - 06/22/99 18:40:53
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My name is Amanda and I am a herion addict. I am 19 years old. I am also a cocain addict, pill popper, alcoholic, and anything else a person can be addicted to. I have used IV Heroin for many years now and am now on Methadone. I was wondering, for anyo e else that is cross-addicted, does Methadone give you a more intense craving for cocain? I would love for some other "addicts" that are still using or that are recent in recovery to e-mail me so we could talk. This site is a wonderful thing. I thank G d everyday for the methadone clinic and for people like you that raise awareness to the ignorant. Keep up the good work. I know it is a life long struggle. It's people like you that give people like me "HOPE". Thanks!!!!!!
Amanda - 06/22/99 18:31:05
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Carolynne Russell - 06/21/99 21:04:55
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I work at the Donwood Institute in Toronto and was very impressed with your aspect on recovery. I am a Recreational Therapist and I believe in stressing the importance of free time-now that they have given up their drug, there is a lot more of it. We tr to promote hobbies and activities that are fulfilling to the individual personally-something that is theirs. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. Breaking old habbits and changing your lifestyle is so important and I wanted to thank you and exp ess my pride in your accomplishments. It is so nice to hear a success story and one that makes me feel like I am on the right track to helping other addicts. Kudos to you!
Phillip Sorensen - 06/18/99 00:28:03
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Good to see the other side, I talk to many people such as yourself. I am the programme director of the Narcoquit Rapid Opiate Detoxification programme, which is backed by the Phoenix Health Group. If anyone would like more info feel free to email me. I can also probably organise some responses from our patients who are currently on naltrexone and have been through a ROD procedure. It is NOT a walk in the park, but is is easier than cold turkey. I am currently putting a web page together but keep changing my mind. Also one of our doctors is currently in Berlin speaking at the world conference on Rapid Detox. The conference has been organised by Dr Colin Brewer from England. If I can help with any info from our point of view don't hesitate to contact me Kindes regards Phillip Sorensen
terrence - 06/17/99 18:59:50
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Your story and willingness to share your experiences in your addiction seem to reflect your compassion for others who are chemically dependent while giving "hope" mixed with reality.Although my drug of use was not heroin, your experiences and emotional sw ngs are very familiar. As a counselor, your story can be inspirational to others suffering from the "low self-esteem" we feel while actively using and early in our recovery. THANKYOU FOR YOUR COURAGE TO SHARE1
Buffy - 06/15/99 12:53:45
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Margaret - 06/07/99 12:53:05
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I have a friend who has recently begun using heroin, and I am trying to find information because she is hurting herself and a lot of people around her. I am trying to figure out how to help.
terra marks - 06/07/99 07:40:01
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I'm relieved to know that there are people like me on the opposite side of the globe. I'm from vancouver canada and have a simmilar life story after 5 years of doing herion,methadone,3 treatment centres, 34 detoxes I'm sure I'm finished. Right now I'm do ng some research on rapid detox. Thanks for having me!
Rose - 06/07/99 02:44:11
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Chris - 06/05/99 04:28:57
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I am an old head from the sixties whose daughter is a heroin addict, now in recovery. I love her so much, and I am learning to let go.
Lynn - 06/02/99 14:23:46
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I have referred several people to your page for info on detox. Yours is one of the few sites on the internet that has any advice. I recently put up a page for my husband telling of his addiction. A little up-beat maybe, but I have only begun to tell his s ory. Mine will have to be told another time.
Lynn - 06/02/99 14:13:25
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In my travels on the internet, I have referred your page to many people. It is one of the few places that has tips on how to make detox easier. Thanks for the help.
Andy - 06/01/99 13:02:55
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Thanks a lot for your page. I am not a user, although I have had very close contact with heroin. My personal concern is that in the current climate too much emphasis is put on the individual detoxing, but it seems less is paid on issues which predate the busive behaviours. Thus, I think lots of abusive behaviours have pre conditions which would indicate relapse after detox if there is no other changes. OK I mean why wouldn't a kid who is unemployed, maybe from a fractured family background, feeling str ssed and yet misunderstood by school, jacks etc go back to using. I'm interested in some ideas on post detox programmes etc mainly youth oriented. Any ideas or links would be appreciated. Thanks Andy
Bronwyn Barnard - 05/31/99 08:17:10
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I support all efforts to improve both the social and medical treatment of individuals addicted to illicit drugs. It is sad that many who are succesfully treated with methadone cannot speak more openly of their condition so that we can destroy the negative stereotypes concerning this treatment. I applaud your efforts to improve the treatment approaches of various clinics and look forward to the day when individuals can have easy access to their medication and less restricitive rules which cause them to withdraw before they are ready. Thank you for producing this site.
- 05/30/99 05:57:03
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I hear you. Im a 34 year old female. single, work as an independant production accountant in the oil industry. I have been addicted to haroine for many years and just now, when I thought I was going to die, finally went through detox, thanks to the hel of an inredible man I met, of all places, on line. I am also struggling with other addictions, but be informed, drug dependants come in all makes and models from all walks of life. Dont write us off. thank god , someone helped me.
Teresa Twartz - 05/27/99 01:19:49
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Thankyou very much for your touching story. You made me cry!
Elizabeth Zimdars - 05/25/99 08:17:15
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You website was very informative to me. It's very sad to see the way people treat you when you're recovering from a heroin addiction. It is very true that many people have this blind stereotype toward a drug addict because people just see what they've been allowed to see. Until reading your story of how you're dealing with your methadone treatment I felt the same way. It must be extremely annoying waking up everyday and realizing that you can't live one day without going to the doctor's to get your prescription of methadone. Something definetely needs to be done to revise the situation with methadone. Not just in Australia but also here in the United States. I welcome any feedback that anyone has dealing with heroin addiction. Please e-mail me at Ezimdars@Earthlink.Net Thankyou and God bless!
naomi darcy - 05/25/99 06:37:47
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im currently writing my own autobiography. i got hear throught annettes story and your bit on receptors is what prompted me to write. i would be greatful if you could send me what you know. problem is i dont have an email address if you could send it to: 1 Glenola rd, Chelsea Vic. 3196 i would greatly appricate it. If there is any thing you would like any thing in my book let me know because im getting it published. THANK YOU very much. your help would be great yours thankfully, Naomi Darcy retired smacky P.S. if you decide to help me i leave for sydney on the 8th of July. after this date you can write to me at: 12 Shedworth st, Marayong N.S.W. :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):) good luck in the future
Carl Murphy - 05/24/99 14:14:10
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I'm working in a library and am researching heroin addiction for a man involved in a community addiction program, and found the site really helpful, thanks
James Post - 05/23/99 19:58:49
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Drugs are one of the few things that make life interesting. Everyone who wants to prohibit them and put users in prison should be lined up against the wall and sawed in half with an M-60. Nuff said.
Cassidy - 05/21/99 18:40:34
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I'm doing research for a school project and I just wanted to say that your page offered a lot of insight. Thank-you. Cass
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Thanks so much for making the statement you are making. I am a recovering heroin,cocaine,marijuana,alcohol,you name it hope to die junkie also and I am so happy to be clean today. See link to your page at above URL. Hope its ok and that you like it. I wan everyone to read your message. PEACE>JOY
annette - 05/17/99 19:37:45
My Email:http://montelap6Comments:
please contact me about being a guest on our show 212-830-0317
W.Wood - 05/16/99 06:41:06
My Email:wwood@catchnetComments:
Subject: Heroin Shooting Galleries. Shooting galleries are a damning illegimate product of our society. Anything will grow if an environment is provided and that is precisely what "LAISSER-FAIRE CAPITALISM" has done for many. It has turned into an econ mical and social nightmare. When embraced whole heartedly it automatically excludes a great proportion of our population leaving them tormented, plagued and imbued with the feeling of hopelessness. Yes, we all share the problem. It affects all of us. n our best interest we must do something about eradication and treatment of this unbalance. I suggest compassion and positive constructive actions are the major ingredients. Treat the underlying causes as well as the cure. To start with, sharing wealth, creating worthwhile jobs that are sustainable. If that means we all work less hours to enable others to make their contribution, well so be it. Is that such a bad thing? - only if it's exploited and used as a weapon. After all, it is only money and the ecoonomy can be adjusted to meet any situation. We do live in a democratic society. If you people have genuine commitment to want change, tell your Member of Parliament. yself, I prefer to live in a society rather than an economy. Warren Wood.
Nicholas Ille - 05/16/99 00:09:23
My Email:nick@xikum.co.uk
How did you find this page?: alta vista search on heroin addiction
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I am writing to you from Lincoln in England and would like to know what you think of my views on what to do about the world wide heroin problem. I believe that heroin should be dispensed free of charge to addicts. I have personally never taken heroin how ver I have lost several very close friends through the drug. I Think cannabis should be legalised and sold like alcohol in order to pay for the heroin and to invest in rehabilitation centres. Please let me Know what you think Nick
alex - 05/04/99 07:12:13
My Email:alley_k@yahoo.com
Suggestions for the page.: pics of heroin and users
How did you find this page?: reaserch
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this page is really goood and i say that taking that shit is reallly stupid coz it fucked me up. Thanks for ya views
Jennifer C. - 04/25/99 20:39:41
My Email:stoshette@hotmail.com
How did you find this page?: research on heroin
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I am glad to hear of someone doing better, getting on with there life. I wish you nothing but the best in your life. love, luck and lollipops stoshette
Johanne - 04/25/99 03:13:49
How did you find this page?: Alta Vista
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I stumbled on this page as I am researching the Heroin Trials for my Year 12 Politics investigative report. Having said that I am 45 years old and have teenage children and as any parent will tell you drugs is a constant threat to our children and one on which we should be informed about. I found your story to be touching and I wish you tons of luck and strength in the future.
Howard Cutland - 04/24/99 12:40:52
My Email:HJCHowardC@AOL.com
Suggestions for the page.: Promote it internationally
How did you find this page?: Surfed it out, and came back
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I helped a friend come all the way off heroin with the help of this information. It wasn't easy, and there are still a lot of problems to overcome, but this site was far and away the best thing I found on the entire Net. We might not have been able to get through withdrawal without it. Thank you
- 04/12/99 07:29:16
My Email:hjchowardc@aol.com
How did you find this page?: Search engine
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This is the most useful and valuable site I have ever found on the internet. Thank you. It's helping me help a friend get free.
- 04/10/99 01:39:52
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I think that this page is very tastefully done and has actually been a big help for me in looking for information on the subject. My husband is looking to get off of drugs and is currently on methadone and this has been about the best page that I have found so far.
beck - 04/09/99 05:56:23
How did you find this page?: very informative
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This was very informative, especially to myself, a year 12 student doing an assignment on herion addiction, and abuse. Your story has been a great help to me and another thing is I have faith in you and your story, keep up the good work!
Rebecca - 04/06/99 05:07:42
My Email:WackyHaci@aol.com
Suggestions for the page.: Keep going
How did you find this page?: Search
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Well, at least I found a page partially containing some information that I was interested in. I have have a young son that is in jail awaiting several felony cases pending a court date. Thanks to SMAK as he calls it. He is going through what I would call ithdrawels in a CO. county jail thinking he is losing his mind. While I sit down here in TX unable to afford the legal help he needs to at least help him get the mental health care he needs. Of course the courts are not addressing this problem nor his cou t appointed attorney who will not even return my phone call. What's a MOM to do?
bill - 03/31/99 22:53:19
My Email:anhou@aol.com
How did you find this page?: surfing
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so far very helpful
Jamie - 03/30/99 00:59:49
My Email:sweetcheeks_808@hotmail.comComments:
Thanxxxxxxxxxxx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
R. Hartman Roemer - 03/29/99 20:36:52
My Email:roemer@home.com
How did you find this page?: looksmart search of "cyclazocine"
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I have run many searches for "opioids depression" and your site never comes up. It should be at the top of every search engine's list. I am not an addict, but suffer from depression and respond well to opioids. I believe there is great promise in mixed o ioid agonist/ antagonists such as buprenorphine. (see eg Bodkin article). Thanks for your site.
F M GOFNEY - 03/24/99 15:33:52
My Email:ICC147@HOTMAIL.COM
How did you find this page?: BROWSING THE NET
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WOULD YOU PLEASE CONSIDER CHANGING THE COLOR OF THE TEXT TO BLACK SO THAT IT WILL PRINT DARKER ON WHITE PAPER. THIS INFORMATION WILL BE UTILIZED IN A RESEARCH PAPER EDUCATING AND STRESSING THE POSITIVES OF METHADONE TREATMENT.
F M GOFNEY - 03/24/99 15:31:03
My Email:icc147@hotmail.com
Suggestions for the page.: state many more positives of methadone treatment. Most of the negative points are daily illustrated.
How did you find this page?: browsing the NET.
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cope - 03/22/99 11:45:23
Suggestions for the page.: maybe some more stats. like how hearld sun (australia,melbourne) went about publishing the road toll vs heroin deaths. That helps people relise how bad the problem is
How did you find this page?: altavista search
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I'm doing heroin for my cat1 issues at school. I never relised how person the heroin issue is. I would just like to say. Be brave.
COMC - 03/16/99 17:15:24
My Email:comc@erols.comComments:
My cousin just died of a heroin overdose. I understand why she used heroin, I understand why she had such a hard time stopping, and I understand why she died. What I can't understand is that I will never see her beautiful smile again, never hear her sweet laugh ever again, never give her a hug, never tell her I love you. To the creator of this site - it is a wonderful and courageous endeavor that you have achieved, and I so admire your inner strength and persistence to live...reading about your recovery and methadone treatment makes me feel so sad for my gentle cousin, more like a sister to me, that she could have turned things around as you have. With belssings and
robert van den berg - 03/10/99 16:13:40
My Email:Yandros7@hotmail.com
Suggestions for the page.: include a link to user advocasy groups in australia eg nuaa
How did you find this page?: via sydney morning herald
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i think its a great site i work in a sydney detox and have bookmarked your site so other staff and clients can access your work its a great site keep up the work. have you ever been in contact with NUAA new south wales users and aids association? there No is 0293693455 address is 16 leswell st bondi junction sydney great organisation worth talking to.
Robert Kelly - 03/05/99 02:47:33
My Email:famousstrangers@msn.com
How did you find this page?: syncronicity??
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I am new to computers and the world of silicon,I live in a small town in penn.usa my e-mail address is famousstrangers@msn.com.I would love to talk to you or anyone about my 80mg.a day methadone treatment for pain(arachnoiditis)spine.I was started on oxyc tin but it was too expensive,so hence the methadone.many questions!!
Ray Gonzalez Arrieta - 03/05/99 02:43:06
My Email:tein73@hotmail.com
How did you find this page?: surfing
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very candid and sincere
Debbie McCormick - 02/26/99 06:37:12
My Email:Debbie_TheEdge@bigpond.com
How did you find this page?: drugaid
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I admire your bravery and determination - keep it up My brother was (is?) an addict who had suffered depressiona dn anxiety/panic attacks and I just can't get him to see anyone about it. Regards Debbie
J. Zahra - 02/26/99 04:53:06
How did you find this page?: Search Engine
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I think that it would be great if you added in other addicts experiences, whether it be related to withdrawl or what goes through their mind while they are using. My sister is an addict (although she tells me using 4 or 5 times a week is not an addiction and I would like as much information about users as I can get my hands on. Overall, you have done a great job here and should be really proud of your self. Well done....
Michelle - 02/23/99 16:26:15
How did you find this page?: link from Mining Co.
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Terrific page - I have a close friend who is recovering and this helps me to understand her better.
Lesley - 02/20/99 16:06:02
My Email:martchas@gateway.net
Suggestions for the page.: none
How did you find this page?: alta vista
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My son, Scott, age 26 this week, is a heroin addict. Currently, he has left yet another rehab after a week and is back on the street using heavily. Your site sustains the hope that I have for him to recover someday. God bless you and keep you on this path I think you are remarkable. Nobody hates addiction more than one who is addicted. How wonderful to be able to smile and look forward to tomorrow.
Dave Michon - 02/19/99 17:18:49
My Email:dajalyn@centuryinter.net
Suggestions for the page.: just got here
How did you find this page?: alta vista
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Keep up the good work.I'm in the US state of Wisconsin,a formerly progressive place quickly going Fascist-quicker than the rest of The Home of The Drug War.My wife and I are both long-term MMT patients-the genesis of our addiction is similar to yours.My wife gained some publicity when she was imprisoned in "The Hole" by a probation officer who didn't want her on Methadone.He threw her into a cell,cold-turkey from 15 yrs. of 120 mg.Sunday-120,Monday-0 and sixty days at the disciplinary unit of TCI Prison. His name is Paul Meyer and I aim to make him famous.The nurse at the prison told Jan they chain Methadone addicts to a table if they bother too much over withdrawal.The girl who went before Jan was chained for a week.I know this is hard to believe, but it's true-the Wisc. Dept of Corrections is proud of it!Then they wouldn't let Jan come home for a year because I was still on Methadone and they couldn't get me.By the way, Jan was a teacher,was never in prison or serious trouble;she was on probation for changing the refill amount on a prescription.Euro-Methwerks did a piece on her.This was 3 yrs. ago and she's back home now and in MMT.Well,I've gone on too long-E-mail any time!
marty - 02/15/99 23:43:49
My Email:mar_gall@yahoo.com
Suggestions for the page.: cartoon a bit blurred
How did you find this page?: looking for info on heroin
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I thought your page was excellent, only one fault I dont think it made heroin sound as devestating and horrific as it is. Irelands drug problem getting worse, seeing a junkie is a sadening and sickening experience, I once saw a junkie and it upset me an awful lot, shock treatment is the only way to make people realise the danger, death and destruction drugs can do to the person, family, friends and everyone associated with the addict. I think in my view if you could get together pictures of people who have been destroyed by the drug, of how it eats away at your body and mind and of how ou will never be free of the drug, that if you come of it you in most cases you will be on methadone for the rest of your life, and in most cases you wont live to see in your old age. I ADMIRE YOUR COURAGE STRENGTH AND DETERMINATION, I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST FOR THE FUTURE. OICHE MAITH, AGUS BAINNEACH DEAG thats Irish for good night and god bless..
Marty - 02/15/99 23:19:37
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Freespirit - 02/12/99 22:37:00
My Email:suzanicole@hotmail.comComments:
I ran out of room..and just want to wish you personally ,continued good health and God's loving support. Best of luck with your work to promote human rights for compassionate treatment and support rather than more obstacles.
Freespirit - 02/12/99 22:26:07
My URL:http://geocities.datacellar.net/Athens/Atlantis/2905/
My Email:suzanicole@hotmail.com
Suggestions for the page.: Tips for being a friend of a heroin addict in methadone treatment
How did you find this page?: ran a search about methadone treatment
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I have a friend who is starting methadone tx any tips for a friend of his?. He is 22yrs.old and lives in Florida. This would be the second time to enter treatment. I really care..and would be so angry if obstacles would make his recovery less likely.
alicia - 02/12/99 07:08:47
Suggestions for the page.: fucken good
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David Hughes - 02/11/99 18:03:11
My Email:coolademan@hotmail.com
How did you find this page?: heroin research on Internet
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Congratulations on taking the steps in overcoming this unfortunate situation. May God be with you in good health in the future.
Andreas - 02/11/99 17:29:32
How did you find this page?: By altavista.
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I found this page by altavista ( im doing a job about heroin in school ) I just wanted to comment that i loved the page and i hope u luck in the new millenia .... Thanks and bye ! Andreas
Patsy - 02/11/99 05:57:54
Suggestions for the page.: None, your page is great.
How did you find this page?: Looking on the net for information regarding Methadone.
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I was so worried about my son going on methadone. Since I have read your story I feel positive for him and cannot wait for him to get his first dose on Friday. I hope your life continues to improve. Patsy
Heather - 02/10/99 06:38:40
My Email:henie@earthlink.net
Suggestions for the page.: don't change a thing
How did you find this page?: trying to find more info on herion
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I want to thank you for being brave! It's so true that people look at us as social outcasts. I have been clean 14 months now! And I feel good, not great, yet! I went into a detox clinic and tried the out patient detox with naltrexon instead of methadone. t worked for me, so far so good. I want to thank you again for having a page with so much insight. I hope that you continue on!!
Rose Whithers - 02/09/99 05:40:42
How did you find this page?: I wrote it!
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Testing out the new guestbook page... hope my programming is sound. Like the new look anybody?
hazyclear - 01/30/99 02:34:45
My Email:hazy@canada.com
How did you find this page?: surfing methadone
What do you think of the cartoon?: good explanation
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This site has been helpful to me in understanding what someone close to me must go through. Thank you. I have sent you e-mail with more details
steve - 01/16/99 18:38:40
My Email:sd7out
How did you find this page?: was in opiate recovery message board and emailing with someone else discusing detox and they linked this
What do you think of the cartoon?: didnt see yet
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the meth detox link was great and informative so far think what your doin is realll y cool i too have been heroin addicted on and off since 16 and the pt about how we are supposed to always want to get off and be clean is so true,never saw it put in words that way.must say though that when clean life seems much better in alot of ways externally.
Lucy Charlesworth - 01/12/99 22:55:52
My URL:http://jackal.inta.net.au
My Email:jackal@jackal.inta.net.auComments:
Excellent page and related info. Thanks for the email, and hang in there, we can eventually change the laws that are so harmful, prohibition is in its dying days and the right wing backlash is its death throes, keep up the fight, in solidarity, Lucy, WEED WITCHES
Ronny - 01/07/99 09:07:07
My Email:ronworm@hotmail.com
Suggestions for the page.: Downloading speed..?
How did you find this page?: Been here before
What do you think of the cartoon?: STILL haven't seen it!
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Ronny I'm back, and I have great news; at least for me and those in my situation. I went to war the cold turkey way against the withdrawal devil, AND I WON! After countless attempts, if you see from my previous postings, I finally did it. It's not 100% over yet, but I'm having the upper hand and victory is within sight. This should serve as encouragement for those attempting to go the so-called "hard way" - it definitely IS possible to do it. And you won't die or go mad in the process, trust me. Maybe you might think I'm just a "casual user" and so had to put up with relatively mild withdrawal symptoms. Well, I have to mention a bit about me. I'm 38 now. I was already in a rehab centre when I was 17. Besides the daily quantity, the stuff I used is the high-grade kind from Thailand - just add water and it dissolves immediately. I will write about my cold turkey experience later and hope that Rose will see it fit enough to included on her site. Rose personally, and articles from this site, had served to encourage me to keep on trying with the no-crap writings. The piece by the two good doctors had also revealed crucial information about the withdrawal process. Knowing the enemy, and what to expect, helps. And I had stuck with some key quotes as if they were from the holy book when suffering during those dark, long days and nights e.g ... if you think you will have it rough, then you most probably will etc). I hope I can give something back which could help those in similar situations. Right now, however, I'm still having some of the symptoms and does not really have the strength to put in the effort necessary to produce an acceptable cold turkey "How to .." But I WILL do so in the near future. THANKS ROSE!
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