Well, I am back from Mexico, with mixed feelings. It is great to be home, and yet the work load is tremendous on the four of us. We are trying to get organized so that we can manage this program - having a full time kitchen helper would be great.
Not to confuse you, I am in North Carolina not Atlanta. My sister, Sandra, had emergency surgery last Sunday and so it made more sense to have my Mom take care of my Sandra, for and me come on to North Carolina and let Bill, Sally and Jeanette try to do the preparations for me. Bill picked me up in Greenville, S.C. Thursday night at 11:30. I was really tired, but fine.
Friday was a zoo for us. Bill left early to go pick up all the organic produce we had ordered - I slept in until 10:30 AM. When Bill returned, we started trying to unpack everything and start juicing. Well, by 2:00 PM we were exhausted and still had tons to do. Jeanette returned from an appointment about then, and a friend called and heard our desperation and came over to help. WHEW!! We did manage to make it through the day with about half of my treatments done, but tomorrow brings hope for better results. The most tragic part of our day was an early morning phone call that one of Bill's cousins had committed suicide on Thursday. We were shocked and felt a tremendous void during the day.
Saturday was a bit more organized - with the help of friends coming by to cook or clean the kitchen for us. We are all being stretched greatly to adjust to a very sick person in the house, and to keep up with ordinary as well as crisis situations. Bill left around 3pm to drive to Myrtle Beach, SC to be with his cousins and family before the funeral. Just as I was getting ready to rest - after an exhausting day - we had some dear friends just drop in. We were delighted to see them. Visiting with friends is water to a thirsty spirit.
Sunday was much better. We are trying to juice two or three juices ahead so that we can have some sanity. I guess we will be looking for someone to hire to help in the kitchen now.
How am I doing now? I am feeling pretty good most of the time. Exhaustion is always close by me, and if I try to do too much -zap! The hospital was a great place of rest compared to being home and having to do so much myself. I did have a mild "flare up" or healing reaction on Tuesday and Wed. before I came home.
My doctor told me to stay in bed as much as possible to allow all energy to go into healing. Yet I had made it my "summer mission" to be an encourager to others at the hospital. However, my doctor insisted that my "mission" was to get me well. I loved being able to get totally outside of myself and encourage others there, even the Mexican staff. I made very good friends there that I will never forget. When you share in a critical situation with others you drop all the normal outer coatings and become very real and vulnerable. I found great healing for me soul in being 100% real with these people. Jeanette was a great comfort to me - and also quite a witness for the Lord as well. She had her own "summer mission trip to Mexico". What a tremendous daughter and servant of the Lord.
I am looking forward to so many things. Even saying that is rather ironic, since I am so confined to home right now. There are so many new and varied things that I want to do in the future. I am having such a release from crippling depression that has been the dark side of my life for over 35 years. I told Bill that healing from depression is more real, and precious to me than healing from cancer. Depression has been a terrible disease in me for so long, cancer has only been a reality for a couple of months.
One of the funniest reactions I have experienced is the detoxification from Prozac. It seems to be common for patients who have been on anti-depressants to experience tingling and a rather numb feeling in their toes. I have learned that the cause of depression is a lack of nutrition and oxygen being available to the brain. As I am taking in so much intense nutrition and expelling so much toxins daily, my poor starving brain in recovering also. I am also on a strong dose of thyroid to make my almost nonexistent metabolism work. Since I have had such a slow metabolism all my life, I have never really adequately burned incoming food. This caused toxins to build up daily and weekly for years.
Along with Prozac, other chemicals have also played a major role in my health demise. Bill and I have a gorgeous yard yet, over the years, we have used a number of gardening chemicals to control weeds, insects and diseases. Unfortunately, these have also contributed to my health crisis. The third strong "strike against me" has been bad choices in food. I have learned so much about nutrition and how it causes health or disease. I truly never realized how much I was "digging my own grave with my fork."
I want to thank each and every one of you who have written me. WHAT A TREMENDOUS BLESSING! I cried through almost every letter, note and card.
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!.
In the shared Joy of the Lord,
Belinda
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